Magic Wand
Ok. That's it. I'm waving the magic wand. Everything this week from the moment after I finished my 10K up until now has been magically erased. Ta da!
Seriously... this has been the worst eating week I've had in a long, long, LONG time. I seem to have completely lost the ability to control myself. The worst part is that I'm FULLY AWARE of what's going on. I know I've been eating because of work stress, the whole fiance's ex-wife thing (which I'll fill you in on in a sec), wedding stress, money stress, etc. I know exactly what I've been doing and precisely why. But I can't seem to stop myself. Seriously, it's like an out of body experience--watching my hand stuff food into my face and not being able (or willing?) to stop myself.
But I waved the wand and I'm starting over, so it is what it is.
So the whole ex-wife situation... My fiance told her at dinner last night that he's not going to see her again without me there (and her husband too). So I feel much better about that. Oh, and apparently one of the reasons she didn't want to meet me is that she's seen "skinny" pictures of me and FELT SELF-CONSCIOUS ABOUT HER WEIGHT. How ironic is that? I kind of feel for her now...
I need some positive vibes today, ladies. I really need a good day under my belt. I've got to get rid of all the bad feelings from this week and get myself back in a good place.
Have a great day!
Jen