Not bad...

How annoying. I had just typed a long post and lost it. Grrr...

Yesterday went pretty well, all things considered. I had a big breakfast and a huge lunch (celebrating a coworker's promotion), so I was scared that the whole day was shot. But I wound up having fruit and cereal for dinner and everything was OK. I di dmy hill run and went to Pilates, but I skipped strength training AGAIN. I really don't like strength training. I need to get over that. Lean muscle is a good thing, right?

Today is off to a great start. I got up and did my 5-mile run, then had a reasonable breakfast. I brought my lunch, so I should do all right with eating during the day. I'll have dinner out before my book club meeting. I need to choose carefully, because my book club always involves wine, cheese, and chocolate. Yummy, but potentially disastrous. I have to be strong!

We're signing a contract for the wedding/reception venue today--December 1, 2007 is the date! It's a real load off my mind, but now there's a list of a million other things to arrange (dress, flowers, cake, music, photographer, officiant, etc.). So much money for one day, but it will be worth it.

Oh... one thing that could potentially undermine me today. My fiance is having dinner with his ex-wife tonight. They got married at 22, grew apart, and divorced amicably after a total of 6 years together (2 dating, 4 married). She's happily remarried. They wanted to stay in touch after their divorce because they basically grew up together through their early 20s, which I completely understand. As a matter of fact, there are two ex-boyfriends that I stay in contact with and still see when they're in town. The difference is that his ex-wife doesn't want to meet me, and my ex'es are fine meeting my fiance (and have already met him). It causes a lot of anxiety. I have complete trust in my fiance--there's no danger in him doing something with her that he shouldn't. It's just... I don't know, it gets under my skin.

My fiance has offered multiple times to not go, but I don't want him to do that. I feel like it sets a bad precedent for our relationship of not having trust in each other. I want to feel secure enough in myself and in our relationship that things like this don't matter.

So I'm going to have to be extra careful today not to eat (or drink, tonight at book club) my way through any anxiety or worry I might have.

Have a great day!
Jen

Good day!

I'm so glad you're having a good day.  And it sounds like you made up for your larger meals yesterday.  It's all about balance.

As far as the fiance and ex-wife.  That would bother me, too.  So don't feel bad about feeling bad.  And, you're right, you'll have to focus on NOT eating through the anxiety.  Good luck!

Warning Bells

His ex doesn't want to meet you?  Hmmm - I don't like the sound of that!

Sounds like you've been keeping really active, what with the running and Pilates.  I've never tried Pilates, but does that not involve strengthening of core muscles?  I believe that qualifies as strenth training, no?

Congrats on finding a wedding venue.  Now you can focus on all the other aspects of it.  So much planning for just one day, but it is SO worth it!

Have a great day!

Angel

looking ahead

way to recognize your weak spots!  you knew exactly what potential dangers lay ahead at your book club, and you even identified some possible emotional triggers - impressive!

i've noticed that people trying to lose weight are incredibly informed.  we know exactly what we need to do to lose weight - we all just struggle to do it!

and i agree - strength training is terrible - just down right boring!

you can do it!

Resist the temptation to eat (or drink) away your anxiety! You know it won't help and you'll feel icky afterwards. I know you can do it. Also, congrats on the wedding venue! That must be quite a relief. Oh, and what kind of strength training do you do? I've always had a really hard time with weight machines, but fitness ball exercise with heavy weight balls (1 or 2 lbs each only) works great. And you work your core at the same time. I'm going to be trying a pilates dvd tonight, so we'll see how that goes. Although I might decide to go swimming instead, since its so pretty here today.