Rough day, but it is over so, I am moving forward.
I went to the vet with Melvin because he was due for his annual exam, he needed his prescription refilled, and he had been a little sluggish lately. He ended up needing a quasi-emergency procedure. It was not life threatening, but he had to go under anesthesia. I did the anesthesia (and cleaned his teeth, might as well get it done) and my friend performed the procedure. I feel like a shitty mom that he had to have this procedure and I don't want to go into the details, but he is fine and resting right now.
I was not able to go the the gym since I was at the vet's until 6:30 pm and I had an AP Biology night review at 7:30 pm and I still needed to take Melvin home.
It is 9:45pm I just got home and I still have to write the AP test for tomorrow. No rest for the wicked. Unfortunately, that means I will have to catch up with you wonderful people later. I was able to read everyone's blogs on My Yahoo, but the school internet filter would not let me post comments today for some reason. But, don't worry the kids were all still able to get on My Space and Facebook so, all was right with the world *eye roll*.
You!
I really appreciate your encouraging and funny comments on the post yesterday and all of the days. It really helped me today when things didn't go as well as I would have liked.
I have to admit, that I sometimes (read: often) go back and read old comments to my posts when I am having a bad day. It really helps to lift my spirits. Thanks you all so much!
Food
Breakfast (1) English muffin coffee (2) none (Ever been to one of these meetings that had about 20 minutes of material to cover, yet you don't emerge from the room until 2 hours later? Yeah, that was my morning)
Snack snack pack of dried plums
Lunch JC Cheesy Enchilada
Snack none (at vet w/ Melvin)
Dinner JC Salisbury Steak
Snack none (too late, too tired, too shitty of a day)
UPDATE: I apparently was so tired I didn't realize it was only Monday. I guess it was wishful thinking when I titled this post "Wednesday". Thanks to Tracy for catching that. Lordy!
Exercise
I had an extra hour and half today since the microbiology lab I teach took their final and turned in their final paper last week, so ......*drum roll, please*
I WENT TO THE GYM!
In the middle of the day, when I am at my crankiest! Go me!
I was going to go home and take a nap since I knew I had to tutor tonight after class (my class ends at 8:30 pm) , but I went to the gym and ran hard. The knee was a little sore, but never got worse. I need to check out the physical therapy thing.
Treadmill 30 min (and 40 sec to be exact) Run 3 miles (10:13 min/mile pace)
It is late. I am tired, and I have to get up in 4 1/2 hours, so I best be off to bed. Here's the damage. I felt like I was eating all day long.
Food
Breakfast (1) 1 c. oatmeal plus banana coffee (2) JC French Toast plus banana coffee
Snack 1 in. square of See's chocolate (That is finally the end of the damn thing!)
Lunch JC Mac and Cheese Salad w/ JC dressing and croutons
Snack JC S'mores bar JC Cheese Curls (kind of a snack fest today)
Dinner JC Chicken Carbonara snack pack of dried mango pieces Vietnamese soup/broth with vegetables(student I tutored tonight brought it for me. I had already eaten my JC, but I had to eat it. His mom made it for me to thank me)
I set my alarm, got up, but I did NOT go to the gym. I am not beating myself up over it. I had decided not to run today because I have to watch my mileage with my temperamental knee, but I had planned on going to the strength class. I was not motivated and when my hubby got up and sat down to chat I stayed and chatted. He was worried that he had screwed up my plans, but one of my goals is to make more time for my family and I really enjoyed hanging out and having coffee with him. He is a pretty good egg and I kind of like him.
Anyhoo.. I got a lot of stuff done today around the house so I was pretty glad about that:
1. Cleaned the house and all animal cages. Washed all animal beds and blankets
2. Wrote the three letters of rec. that students gave me at least 2 weeks ago!
3. Paid all of my bills.
4. Washed and folded all of my laundry
5. Grocery shopping
6. Dinner with handsome hubby!
7. Quality time with kitties, doggie, and bun buns!
Food
Breakfast JC French Toast plus banana coffee
Snack coffee
Lunch JC Cheesy Enchilada
Snack raspberries International coffee style coffee
Dinner (date night) Sushi Golden Bell Roll Tamago Diet Coke
It could have been worse. I was down 1.4 at weigh in. Since I was up 1.2 last weigh in I am still 1.2 from goal. I am going to try to make it happen for next weigh in, because next weekend the holiday party season officially begins. I have 2 parties next Saturday alone! Plus, my buddy from LA is coming up. Yikes! Fasten your seat belts ladies it is going to be a bumpy ride! At least that is what my graph said! LOL
Exercise
Run (on trail, COLD!!) 0.25 mi walking warm up 3.5 mile run (probably a little more because I was circling to stay with my run buddy who was sick and had to walk to catch her breath) Pace: 12:51 min/mi 0.5 mi walking cool down
The knee felt pretty good, but I think running at a little faster pace is actually better for my knee. But it was nice to be on the trail with my run buddy again.
Food
Breakfast coffee (trying to not eat right before weigh in. Lame.)
Snack none (we were out running during snack time)
Lunch (after run) Carrow's Southwest Chicken salad (small lunch portion, dressing on side. They gave me about 3 tbsp max. of dressing. I am seriously thinking Jenny Craig IS stalking me and calling these restaurants! ) english muffin (instead of the garlic toast that comes with the salad. Yay me!) Apple pie (you knew it was coming, don't act shocked!)
Snack coffee
Dinner JC Chicken Carbonara (new menu item. pretty darn tasty actually) salad w/ JC dressing and croutons
Snack JC Lemon Cake (because one can never have enough baked goods in one day)
I am beginning to think Tracy is right about our subconscious desire to sabotage our weight loss efforts. Last weigh in I was at 132.4, up 1.2 from my all time low the week before of 131.4 and it was TOM. Goal was now feasibly attainable for the next weigh in.
Therefore this week, I have been hyper-vigilant about my food and exercise. Wednesday I weighed at home at my goal weight of 130.0 (BAN in the morning), yesterday morning I weighed 129.5 at home (again BAN), and this morning I weighed 129.5 (home BAN). So since I now weigh in Saturday morning at JC as close to bare-ass naked as I can legally get away with, I had a real shot at reaching goal at JC this weekend.
Note that I said "had."
So with goal so close, why did I let myself get so hungry by skipping lunch that when I agreed to go to a late lunch with my friends I STUFFED myself at Chevy's? I had decided yesterday that I was going to sushi to eat my beloved Golden Bell Roll, which meant I was choosing it over Chevy's today. I even told my friends that I wasn't going to go to Chevy's or if I did I wasn't going to order, but then not only did I order, I STUFFED myself until it hurt.
So needless to say, reaching goal tomorrow is most likely not going to happen.
I know, I know, it is about a lifestyle change not a number, blah, blah, blah... I have said it and meant it to countless people. But the reality is the goal does matter to me and I have been losing and gaining these same 3 pounds for a few months now.
Am I afraid to reach goal?
Really it isn't even my true goal. When I went to JC this time I was afraid to put the weight I really wanted because I was afraid I would fail at this yet again. I am 5' 2.5" and even with a large frame size (according to a frame size calculator that I found posted on Tracy's blog. I know it isn't 100% accurate, but I am pretty damn sturdy. "Built like a brick shit house" is what my dad calls it. ) I know I could pull off 120-125 if I was fit. So my 'super secret plan' has been to reach goal at JC (finally get my 35% rewards discount) and then change my goal here to 125 and keep working at it.
I guess I could change my goal now, but I really want the extrinsic reward of hitting my original goal and then choosing to continue. I don't know if that makes any sense at all, but it is how I feel.
So the Reader's Digest version of what I just bored the snot out of you with is: I am disappointed with myself.
Exercise
none. Rest day I am running tomorrow morning after weigh in. 3 or 4 miles
Food
Breakfast (1) English muffin coffee (2) JC French Toast plus banana coffee
Snack(s) apple snack pack of dried mango snack pack of dried plums
Lunch/Dinner Chevy's Chicken Fajitas >All of the grilled chicken >All rice and beans >3 flour tortillas(yes, I had to ask for more. They only give you two) >~1 tbsp. of sour cream coffee
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?! (Sorry, I teach high school and I am probably emotionally only about 15-16 at most anyway!)
Yesterday I wore a skirt I haven't worn since last January. Last January I was at least 20 pounds heavier than I am now and the skirt was, well, if we are being kind we could say it was snug, if we are being honest ,it made me look like 10 pounds of sausage in 5 pounds of casing, as my mother would say.
"Casing", for those of you that weren't raised by hillbillies like I was, is the layer of, usually intestine, that you put the ground sausage in to make links. I know, disgusting. Now you probably will never eat sausage again, so I won't go into what goes into the "ground" part . Ick! anyway if the casing is too small you get a taut, lumpy, about to burst appearance to your links.
You can thank me later for the lovely visual.
Anyhoo, back to my story...
Yesterday I wore said skirt and it actually fit like it was supposed to and, if I say so myself, and since I am the only one typing here I guess I DO say so myself, I looked quite fetching in it. I got several compliments and a few turned heads. Ha! It was kind of nice.
Unfortunately, my pretty skirt and pink sweater did NOT make biology any more interesting to high school sophomores, so that part of my day didn't go any better, BUT the rest of the day was nice! Which leads me to my next category... (like my new segue system!)
Teaching vent
*sigh*
This is going to make me sound old, but we didn't act like this when I was in school. Maybe this was in large part because I was a nerd and nerds are in classes with other needs and we all typically do whatever the teacher tells us.
Why must I TELL students to take out their pencils and paper? Why must I re-tell said students three times to take out their pencils and paper to get approximately 85% of the class to do so? Why must I tell students everyday that, no, I do not loan out pencils or paper (and technically, if they actually do the assignment paper would not be a "loan" anyway) and that they are expected to bring these materials to class everyday? And finally, why do they honestly think that because they came unprepared for class it is an excuse and perfectly ok to sleep/text message their friends/talk to their neighbor/stare blankly at the wall/etc. instead of take notes or do whatever assignment we are all working on?
Some days feel like I show up to work, strap 36 dead birds around my neck and slog through the period (95 minute periods mind you!) until the merciful bell rings and allows me to untie the birds and let them shuffle from the classroom. Then 36 more dead birds show up and the process starts all over again.
Ok, enough of that.
Exercise
Treadmill (41 minutes) Run 4 miles (!!) (10:15 min/mile Hoo Hah!)
Pilates Class (1 hour) Umm.. I don't think I am flexible/strong/coordinated enough for this.
Food
Breakfast (1) English muffin coffee (2) NO TIME! Cherub central! "Teacher, I want..., I need..., You didn't.., How come...?" blah, blah, blah
Snack apple snack pack of dried mango pieces snack pack of dried plums (sounds so much nicer than 'prunes')
Lunch(late) Sushi (rough day) Golden Bell Roll (I know, I know...) Tamago Diet coke
Snack none
Dinner JC Cheesy Enchilada (the lunch I ditched to have sushi)
you find yourself hunkered over your pet sitting job's kitchen sink fending off cats with your elbow as you eat the tuna that was intended for them. I was so hungry I considered going for the kibble next!
Now, before you are too grossed out, this lady LOVES her cats, apparently more than I love my husband because she buys the all white albacore tuna (Starkist brand no less) packed in water, I buy him whatever is on sale, which is NEVER the all white albacore Starkist tuna. Plus it was a newly opened can, it was not as if they, the cats that is, had actually eaten out of it.
However, I do think it is a little sketchy that I ate their tuna, and they agreed. BUT, I only ate about a 1/4 of the can and I DID give them the rest. So, whatever! Whiner cats!
Exercise
Treadmill: 32 minutes Walk warm-up 0.25 mile Run 3 miles (10:40 min/mile pace)
I didn't go to the strength class because I was late getting to the gym and I wanted to run at leas t 3 miles. I am going to a new strength class on Thursday that is 1 hour long, so my total strength training time will even out.
Food
Breakfast (1) English muffin coffee (2) JC French Toast plus banana (get your mind out of the gutter Ms. Tracy) coffee
Snack apple snack pack of dried mango pieces coffee
Lunch JC Mac and Cheese
Snack apple coffee sl. wheat bread w/ margarine ~ 2 in. piece of See's candy bar (Yes, the bar that is stashed in my desk. It has Toffee pieces for God's sake! I can't honestly be expected to give it away when it has toffee pieces! There is only about 1 in. square left.) 1/4 can albacore tuna (Don't judge me!)
Snack 1 cup International Coffee-style coffee(about 120 calories/2 g fat)
Lunch JC Lasagna(Ick! Weird "meat-like" substance that grosses me out., should be the last of the JC leftovers) 1 sl. wheat bread w/ margarine
Snack apple TONS of coffee(Yikes! Drank a whole pot in the afternoon alone)
Dinner JC Chicken fettucine ( I burnt it. Can you freaking believe that! How, exactly, do you burn a microwave meal, you ask? Well, you thaw it to save time, then forget you thawed it ,and then set it for the normal amount of time. Voila! Crispy, dry, grossness! What a lame ass!) salad w/ JC dressing croutons
Snack 1 scoop choc. chip ice cream on plain cone(And I was doing sooo well) 1 sl. wheat bread w/ margarine( I am having some sort of carb craving issue!)
