The eating is out of control. My exercise is going great, but I can't seem to get the eating under control and my weight is skyrocketing. I was wearing these jeans yesterday that seriously threatened the circulation to my lower half. It was like being wrapped in denim Saran Wrap for the entire day. I feel disgusting and I don't want to feel this way.
On one hand I am very proud of myself for the training I have been doing. It makes me feel happy and good about myself. I am more fit than I have EVER been in my entire life. Hell, I am more fit than I ever conceived possible in my entire life, but I keep "rewarding" myself with food that is REALLY bad. The sneak eating is in full addiction mode and the portions are WAY out of control. It is not just what I am eating (and believe me, that is bad enough for me to gain weight) but it is also HOW MUCH I am eating.
Bad stuff and huge amounts of it = jeans no fit anymore.
I am debating on whether just to go back to Jenny Craig or maybe try Weight Watchers. I am beginning to doubt I can ever learn how to eat like a normal person. Why do I always have to get to THIS point? Why can't I just make a few unhealthy choices, realize that is not the direction I want to go in and reign It back in?
I am getting the opportunity of a lifetime to go to Africa this summer with my family and I don't want to go feeling like this. I have to pack those lightweight, khaki, travel type pants that never fit me right anyway, and if my weight is like this (or really, if I stay this course it will be much worse) I will be uncomfortable the whole time.
Poor, poor pitiful me.
Posted By: RBR
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04/08/2008 16:55
Pity Party ... why eat alone ...
Have a party, we can all bring a dish.
Oh sorry .... um, helpful words and advice. It's not surprising you're hungry with the amount of exercise you're doing. It's just that you need to be eating "good" things which will help fuel your exercise.
Will JC do that? Will WW?
Is there such a thing as a "normal" person, I'm starting to suspect that's it urban myth.
Sounds to me that you have realised you've made a few unhealthy choices and you are going to do something about it. So, don't beat yourself up about it, just set yourself a reasonable target and timescale. You can and will do this.
Oh and no, I'm not going to do the 5k in Florida, the timings just don't work, as the week it's on we'll actually be in St Pete's and it would work out at getting up at about 4am, and a) I'm not a morning person and b) with a 4yr old ... it just isn't going to work!
The Garmin 405, looking at it, I don't think it copes so well as the 305 with "multi-sports" ie your triathlon events. However, it does look a lot less bulky.
I'm going to take a gander when I'm in the US. Can't justify it in the slightest, but hey, that doesn't stop me, LOL!
I'm glad you're thinking about helping yourself back into the jeans in a comfortable way. The trip to Africa sounds cool. DH and I still want to go before we have to have someone spread our ashes there! LOL! It sounds like you have focus - the clothes for the trip. Check out both WW and JC if you need some help. I did WW several times, years ago, and for me it didn't work because it was too easy to cheat. JC works for me with the portion control. I hate to cook so it's easy.
OMG, you posted! You're not alone. I'm so up, its not even funny. I refuse to admit the number or update my graph. It's too depressing. All my clothes are too tight. You're not alone!! I think I was wearing the same jeans! LOL Its so terrible. I hate this feeling. And I'm worried about meeting you guys and having you see how much weight I've gained!! But its not like I've gained everything back. Its so weird because I've been playing tennis 2-3 times a week, running about the same amount, and its more than I was doing before.....so why? I'm eating way out of control!!!!! Its really time to get myself back on track. God, that felt good to vent! Thanks! :)
We'll have to get in touch soon about this weekend. Its coming up!! I can't believe it!!
Hi there - I was just blog surfing and I wanted to let you know that there are times I feel EXACTLY like you described yourself in your post... the whole, "will I ever really get this?!" feeling. I too have trouble with the eating (for me it's night eating that attacks), but the exercise -- usually never a problem. Makes one feel like a bit of a hypocrite... but you're NOT! Just wanted to leave a comment because moderation is *hard*; that's why there are so many folks on this site trying to figure it out for good! I think you will and sometimes when you're in an eating rut it's hard to pull yourself out, but you can do it! Sometimes it just takes a day of being on plan to get your confidence back. You can!
