Ok, I am more than a little pissed. Here are my totals for last week:

Total flex points left at the end of the week: 34.5

Total activity points earned for the week: 61

Total activity points consumed as extra food: 10

Total weight GAINED at the end of the week: 2!

For those of you who don't do Weight Watchers all of those point totals add up to total BULLSHIT!

So after weigh in on Saturday I responded like any other completely rational person would ... I ate 3 donuts. In rapid succession. That means by 7:30 am I was already over my daily total alotted points for Saturday by 2. The rest of the day didn't go much better. I ended up with 44 total points (earned 10 for my 21 mile bike ride, but still!)

*sigh*

Here is a link to the 20 mile run report that I did on Sunday. It has pictures,  including a rare RBR picture WITHOUT her hat!

http://rbr-runbabyrun.blogspot.com/

I am two days into the new week and I already have  37 activity points. Of course, I ate 10 of those as food and 13 flex points already as well.

Whatever.

 My life is INSANE. It is my time of year to be CRAZY busy. After May 14th things get MUCH better. I need to get caught up with you all soon. I am so sorry I am such a blog flake!

EP of course won't let me post the race report, so you will have to go here:

http://rbr-runbabyrun.blogspot.com/2008/04/oh-my-god.html

to read it.

It was.... well, an interesting day.

The "Let's Get Some Weight Off Stacey's Arse before the San Diego Marathon" Project

Weight Watchers Week 1 went pretty well. I was on point everyday except Friday. Hubby and I went to Thai food and I ate an extra 6.5 (27.5 instead of the 21 points I am alotted) points. I did earn 38 activity points this week that I did not swap out, so all in all a pretty good week.

Weigh in: 137.5 down 4.


Running News

I am running the Skyline Ridge 1/2 Marathon Trail Run this morning. It is supposed to be beautiful. I will be sure to snap some photos!

The race report will be here: http://rbr-runbabyrun.blogspot.com/ 

And, as was expected, WE ROCKED THE SACRAMENTO ZOO ZOOM!

For my full report with pictures see here:

http://rbr-runbabyrun.blogspot.com/

Other News:

My time spent with Shelley and Andrea was awesome and inspiring. They are so beautiful and have done such AMAZING jobs losing and MAINTAINING their weight loss (a piece of the equation I can't seem to get) that I decided I have to take some action.  So I have updated my graph and tracker to reflect my current (and shockingly horrifying) weight.

I have joined Weight Watchers Online and will be trying that out to lose these 11.5 pounds. I will let you know what I think (like you had any doubt!) So far I like that I get credit for all the exercising I do. This way I can see the REAL credit and not just eat whatever the hell I want because I just ....ran a marathon, ran a half marathon, rode 40 miles, whatever.

I get 21 points a day and since I am  new to this whole points thing, I am sure it will take some getting used to. I did a rough estimate of my points yesterday and it was 43. Yikes! And other than breakfast I wasn't even that bad. It shows me that I have NO idea what or how much I should be eating STILL.

Oh well, someday maybe I will actually learn to MAINTAIN a weight instead of constantly either be in the process of losing or gaining weight.

Oh, and Shelley is going to tell you she gained weight. She is full of shit (no offense, Shelley but you are). She is AMAZINGLY HOT! Now  I have a crush on her and her husband.

EP still won't let me cut and paste from blogger and a couple of my new posts have pictures so I will link:

http://rbr-runbabyrun.blogspot.com/

Here are news teasers to entice you to follow the link:

4/10 pm: Truly awesome swim class story

4/10: Trail run report w/ funny anecdote and picture of Blackie the wonder dog!

4/9: Mean Girls Tri Group Swim Workout #2, with Swim Gear review (earplugs, sound boring but if you have trouble with water in your ears when swimming check it out)

Oh, and BTW, my weight on here is a COMPLETE lie. I don't havethe balls to post my real weight. As soon as I grow a set I will update it.

(I know, I am SUPER classy. My mother is really proud )

The eating is out of control. My exercise is going great, but I can't seem to get the eating under control and my weight is skyrocketing. I was wearing these jeans yesterday that seriously threatened the circulation to my lower half. It was like being wrapped in denim Saran Wrap for the entire day. I feel disgusting and I don't want to feel this way.

On one hand I am very proud of myself for the training I have been doing. It makes me feel happy and good about myself. I am more fit than I have EVER been in my entire life. Hell, I am more fit than I ever conceived possible in my entire life, but I keep "rewarding" myself with food that is REALLY bad. The sneak eating is in full addiction mode and the portions are WAY out of control. It is not just what I am eating (and believe me, that is bad enough for me to gain weight) but it is also HOW MUCH I am eating.

Bad stuff and huge amounts of it = jeans no fit anymore.

I am debating on whether just to go back to Jenny Craig or maybe try Weight Watchers. I am beginning to doubt I can ever learn how to eat like a normal person. Why do I always have to get to THIS point? Why can't I just make a few unhealthy choices, realize that is not the direction I want to go in and reign It back in?

I am getting the opportunity of a lifetime to go to Africa this summer with my family and I don't want to go feeling like this. I have to pack those lightweight, khaki, travel type pants that never fit me right anyway, and if my weight is like this (or really, if I stay this course it will be much worse) I will be uncomfortable the whole time.

Poor, poor pitiful me.

I wanted to stop by and say hello. I am actually here quite a bit. I comment here and there, but I am so behind in life it is hard to get a block of time to really reconnect. You know what I mean?

I have been blogging because it really helps keep me motivated, honest (out of denial) and accountable. If you are interested here it is. (BTW, you do not have to be a blogger member (or whatever it is called to comment. Just hit anonymous and you can comment and link to your own blog as well. I think)

RBR blog: http://rbr-runbabyrun.blogspot.com/

Just missing you ladies and I hope to get caught up soon. We have spring break coming up so hopefull then! To those of you that stop by and comment here that is totally fine as well. Especially now that it seems that the email notifications are working again. The posting issues are just driving me crazy and you know I LOVE  to post pictures which is tougher here.

HAPPY BELATED BUNNY DAY!

I officially HATE EP! It will not let me cut and paste posts, but it will delete anything at anytime. Whatever. I am over it.

Here is my post: http://rbr-runbabyrun.blogspot.com/

I hate to not be in contact with you guys, but it is getting a little frustrating to fight with this site everytime I want to post.

EP won't let me copy and paste anymore. It keeps giving me this "Unknown Error - Invalid format or post too long." Whatever. Here is a post about my triathlon training and here is other depressing news.

Food/Weight

The 'Yikes' title could just have easily been about my weight and eating. According to the scale this morning, I trained for, and ran a marathon and gained weight. On the scale this morning

137 * sigh*

Argh! It isn't my "official weigh in day. Which, let's be honest doesn't happen all that often anymore. Amazing how when you know you have been eating like shit you don't want to weigh yourself. The REALLY scary part is that my eating isn't that out of control for me and I am exercising quite a bit, but apparently it doesn't take too much out of control for me to blow up like the Stay Puff marchmallow man! I can feel the weight gain in my jeans, I can see it in my face. This has been going on for months now.

It. Must. Stop.

I can't seem to get a handle on the food frontier again. I have been cooking (I know, my mother is as stunned as you!) dinners and then packing leftovers for lunch. I am eating out less, but  am still sneak eating cake and burritos in the car. (TOTALLY embarassing to admit, but I am in trouble here. Time to get totally honest) Yes, I am a 38 year old professional woman that keeps plastic forks in her car so that she can buy a HUGE piece of cake and scarf it in the car so no one knows. Well, no one, but her ever expanding ass!

Help...I am feeling very sorry for myself this morning even though I am the only one to blame for this.

Filppin' EP!!!

I tried to post this like 10 times last night. I give up. Click here Napa Valley Marathon Race report if you would like to see how it went!

Thank you again for all your your awesome support! I couldn't have done it without you all!

For those of you are worried that I burned too many calories over hte wekend. Fear not. I replaced about 3 times what I burned. Yikes!

Need to get some eating focus soon!