Well, dh is feeling better. His foot/ankle is on the mend. He talked to his physical therapist about it & he seems to think dh didn't stretch enough or properly before trying to run. If he feels well enough tomorrow, he'll retry. Keep that in mind everybody, make sure you're warmed up & don't forget to stretch!
On another note, I am so glad that my dh is wanting to get fit & willing to work out with me. There is something that I'm not crazy about, but it seems so petty. I was very inactive last year. I'm pretty sure a sloth or slug moves more on a daily basis then I did. This year I slowly started changing things around. I started this blog & my new healthier lifestyle about 5-6 weeks ago. Since then, I've been fairly active, working out, & walking. This whole time, dh has been more active in his day-to-day routine, but he hasn't really worked out before starting the 10k training program. He feels that's enough. The thing that bugs me is that he always talks about being in better shape than me. He's not trying to be mean; he just believes he's in better shape. So when he hurt his foot, I was sympathetic but secretly smug. I was able to do the same training distance, plus more, and didn't injure myself. Who's in better shape? I know, I know! So very petty of me!
Guess whose pride had an ego check last night? I was getting ready for my nightly walk; smug knowing that I was able to keep making progress while dh was sidelined for the evening. When I went to apply my blister block, I saw what appeared to be a piece of lint on my foot & plucked it off. OH oh oh! It was NOT lint. It was the edge of those blisters I had developed a couple of weeks ago. I exposed raw, new skin. Ouch! Ah but a little thing like that isn't going to derail me, I walked with those blisters before! I slapped on some antibiotic salve & a Band-Aid. I was off & walking! Yeah well, I overdid it. I refused to listen to my body's pain & kept moving. What it was trying to tell me was that the bandage wasn't sticking right & it was rubbing a new raw spot on my foot. Today? Today, I am the one limping around, the one that had to rearrange my training schedule to give my foot some rest. I didn't quit, didn't chuck my schedule, and just had to rearrange my activities. Ah that sucks! That's what I get for letting my ego go unchecked and being so darned smug. I thank the Lord that it wasn't anything seriously wrong for dh or me! I also needed the ego check, but am still smarting a little over it.
I hope ya'll are doing well. I am off to read your blogs!
uh-oh..oh no! DH injured his foot/ankle. He's barely able to move today. When he was in high school (eons ago ha!), he broke his ankle. He's worried that he's re-injured it. It started hurting towards the end of our 10k training last night & today it was seriously painful & swollen. Naturally he doesn't want to see a doctor. UGH!
I didn't let that derail me, though. I walked my 5k tonight. I'm about to do a little late night grocery shopping, too. So that should give me an extra 30 minutes of activity.I am waiting for the kids to fall asleep. I hate taking all the kids because my grocery bill tends to be much higher with a lot of "needs" that weren't on my grocery list.
Anyway, I'm on progress & feeling good. Hope you all are having a good day/night!
Jumping the 4am fitness train.... choo choo All aboard!!
Had a pretty lazy weekend. Did a lot of napping during the day & ended up wide awake at night. Spent those quiet hours surfing the net & reading blogs. Last night, or this morning I should say, I attempted to sneak into bed around 4am. I say sneak because I was trying NOT to wake up my dh. Too late! Seems he'd been laying there in bed awake for quite awhile wondering what I was up to. Somehow, he managed to convince himself that my newfound interest in my health & weight meant that I found a new man! Wha?? (Wait, is he rich & handsome? -JUST KIDDING DEAR EP FRIENDS, JUST KIDDING) I was stunned and angry! There were some angry words, stupid accusations, wounded defensive retorts, sullen doubt filled silences, etc... Finally, we were both too keyed up to just keep laying there, so we grabbed our gear & went for a quick-paced 2 mile walk. I finally got through to him that I'm not doing this for him, for any other guy, for any other reason than I am sick of being unhealthy & fat! I want a life! I want to be here to see my kids grow up. I want to see grandbabies SOME FAR FAR day in the future (LOL). I don't want to be short of breath, short on energy, worried that I'll die from morbid obesity like my father did. Of course, he agrees with me on everything. He's already working on the 10k training with me -but last week we took off for my health & his project deadline. We've said it so many times in the past, have started so many diets, & have failed so many times. He's seeing a difference in MY attitude this time, seeing a difference in my body, seeing a motivation that didn't exist before, & it scares him. He's been struggling with motivation, energy, overeating junk, etc... Sure, I can understand that, we all do! I struggled with motivation & energy this past week, that's no secret. LOL The difference this time, compared to every failed attempt, I didn't quit! Sure, had some bad days, made some bad choices, even trashed last week's goals, but I did what I could, kept my eye on the right track, even if I wasn't exactly on it.
I explained that I draw my motivation & inspiration from these blogs and by having my goals written out as concrete reminders of what I need to do. Yes, I can talk about weight loss with him, but I need the extra support I get here. He's not a people person, so I guess it's a little bizarre for him. He is, however, very competitive and can't stand admitting failure. Gee, that's where I got that from! Knew it had to rub off from somebody because I always was a 'go with the flow' girl in my youth. We discussed my goals for this week. By the time he left for work, we were both calmer and thoughtful. About an hour later, he called me. He'd been thinking about it & decided maybe seeing his goals written out would help him with the daily motivation. He's onboard!
I know he wants to change, none of us want to be fat! I am not 100% sure he's motivated for the right reasons, but I guess only he'll know that for certain. In the meantime, I'll take whatever motivation I can get! Lots of times we start a journey for one reason, then find a whole new world & reasons for continuing. I am happy he's onboard. Changing your lifestyle is so much easier with your partner's support!
Best wishes everybody!
ps: a fast-paced walk is a great way to end an argument! We were breathing hard, not talking silly-nilly, concentrating on the path, and enjoying the endorphins rush!
Okay, I am ready to get back on track and make progress again. I have been trying to mentally prepare myself and get psyched! Here's to a great week, everybody! My goals for this week are:
I read a really interesting blog item/article yesterday over at http://crankyfitness.blogspot.com/ titled: Biggest Diet And Exercise Mistake You Can Make. I won't copy the whole article, but suggest you read it. It really makes sense & is something that many of us forget (especially me)! The basic idea is that if you're aiming for perfection with your diet & exercising, then you're setting yourself up for failure. We're only human & we're bound to make mistakes. Yet, for so many of us, the idea of being less than perfect is so horrible, that we get frustrated & quit. Instead, our goals should be about mastering the self-improvement process & staying on track. There's a lot more said & stated much better! So, please go read it.
I scrapped my goals list for the week yesterday, before reading this article. Guess that's why it makes perfect sense to me. Looking at that sheet with its negative markings or even skipped places was taunting me with my 'failure'. I couldn't even be glad that I had done some things right, not when it wasn't perfect. Putting the sheet away for the week relieved me. That's silly, huh? It's just a piece of paper. Honestly though, once I gave myself permission to set it aside until next week & just concentrate on the things I can do right now, it was a huge relief. I didn't even want to go to the gym nor do ab work. Walking, however, was doable. It gave me some quiet time to just move & breathe.
My goal sheet will be back. I find it keeps me accountable and motivated most of the time. Just those times when I'm so far behind, unable, and/or sick, that I need to learn to be flexible. I'm not perfect; I just want to be better than I was. That's what we all need to remember.
am still here, still hanging on -barely. scrapped my goals for this week, for the most part. Just couldn't get myself up the 1st couple of days & looking at the negative marks saying I failed that goal/that day, was just depressing. I'll break them out again Monday. In the meantime, I'm still doing what I can. I walked 4 miles yesterday & today, so that's good. I tried to watch my food intake, too. I'm feeling better, as in not sick, but still have the blahs. wow, it's so easy to fall off track & so danged hard to get up again. DH finished his project just a few minutes ago. That means he'll be ready to restart the 10k training & that will help with motivation. Yay!
thanks for the support & I promise I'm working on being positive. I'm not giving up. Chargail, you're my hero!
that sums up my day. Been feeling ill & blah all day long. I opted to do nothing strenuous and sleep as much as possible. I started feeling better late this evening, so I have promised myself a good workout tomorrow morning. It's a weird feeling for me, but I really think part of my blahs come from NOT working out for the last few days. I need to get my brain, body, & emotions in sync!
DH has a side project he has to finish by Friday, so he needed to skip our scheduled 10k training, too. Lame excuse for me eh? oh he can't do it, so neither will I. Sheesh. ah well, I needed the break obviously & now that I'm feeling a little better & don't think I'll need to sit right next to the bathroom, am ready to roll again.
Seeya tomorrow! Skinny vibes & great workouts for everybody!
Is the weekend over yet? Week 5: 09/03/2007-09/09/2007
Been off schedule/off progress since Friday. We traveled to the in-laws for the weekend & I was feeling sick/blah. Soooo tired! Must of been a bug/virus because 2 of the munchkins were feeling blah, too. So, I call for a redo. OH wait, this is reality & there really aren't redo's in life, huh? damn.
Okay then, I'm not beating myself up over this nor am I just blithly ignoring it. Live & learn, right? Traveling was easier because I remembered the trailmix. Heck, I avoided a lot of junk food because I ate the trail mix! However, had too much trail mix. OOPS. Yucky weather made it nearly impossible to get outside & being cooped up in a tiny house with 5 kids is a little much. I think that's why we ate so much trail mix! I did stop and buy yarn, though maybe crocheting would keep me busy & away from the munchies. Forgot my pattern book though & spent too many frustrating hours trying to adapt a baby pattern into a large size blanket pattern. Finally figured it out & now have the start of a nice blanket. So, I had a couple of good, workable ideas, I just need to plan a little better. So, portion out the trail mix & make sure I have busy projects available (Yarn & easy patterns, coloring books, novel, etc...).
I'll be back on progress tomorrow morning. I intend to have an early night tonight. See if a good night's sleep will help me feel better. Either way, it's definetly easier to stay on progress in my own environment! I can control the food, have exercise options, busy projects handy for me AND the munchkins, and have good water to drink (they have sulfery tasting water & I made sure to take bottled water -but the munchkins drank most of it like little fishies -leaving diet cola for me).
I'm basically going to leave my weekly goals the same as last week. Since I didn't finish them, I'm going to restart & retry.
Drink 90 oz. water daily
Take vitamins daily
Walk 18 miles
Go to Curves, minimum 3 times
Do 1 extra set of arm exercises this week
Do 2 reps daily of ab crunches
Lose 1-2 pounds
Week 3 of 20 week 10K training (4 day workout schedule)
I hope ya'll had a good holiday weekend! I'll be reading blogs & catching up tomorrow.
So, we're heading down to the in-laws for the weekend. The guys are going salt-water fishing. The kids & I will be hanging around with MIL and maybe going to see my stepmom & sis. It's been awhile. My MIL is a great cook, so this weekend should be loaded with temptations. Lord help me be strong & I shall do my best to keep moving & working out.
Earlier tonight, DH and I went to Wal-Mart to pick up a few supplies for the trip (drinks, cereal, fishing gear, etc..) While shopping, a couple of guys kept staring at me. Well, specifically at my shirt. I checked and rechecked but didn't have anything on me or nothing showing. I ran into both of those guys a couple of times and I was getting a little paranoid. I finally asked DH what was up. He gives me one of those "DUH" looks, oh you know that look! The one that says you just asked a really stupid question and do you have any brain cells? He says it's the shirt. Uhm yeah, what about it? duh, I realize it is the shirt, but what's the deal? He sighs and says honey, it's clingy and it's really accenting your chest. OH... Wait, are you sure it's my chest and not my belly because when I looked in the mirror, all I saw was my fat gut. He thought that was funny. Hmmp.
That started a conversation about my weight journey and confidence. A month ago, I didn't even own a clingy shirt! My closet was full of 2x & 3x clothes. I hate people seeing my fat! Last week I was shopping for new work out clothes and bought this shirt. I thought it was okay, clung a little too much to my belly, but that's extra motivation for me to keep working out & don't forget the abs!! Well, seems while I'm only seeing my belly, the guys are seeing the chest. Would it be wrong to say I'm flattered? LOL Guess it's just one more reason Dh wants to work out with me. He's not going to let me get sexy without him.
Ya'll have a great weekend and hopefully none of us will stray too far off program! We can do this!
OH, I have the blahs bad. Had to pick up my aunt from the airport last night & she talked me into stopping for tacos around 11pm. UGH!! I ate THREE. What the *bleep* was I thinking?? Oh wait, I wasn't. Also had an emotional call with my parents & that just didn't help my mindset. I skipped out on 2 miles of my walking & today I've paid for that by feeling blah & unmotivated. Had pizza for dinner. Oh yeah, that was smart too, eh?
OH well, going to walk tonight & hope that helps me feel balanced again. Can't really blame my family, I'm in charge of how I act & react, so need to accept it & make sure I don't sabotoge myself any more. I will be thin!
Be back later when I feel better.
Best wishes to you all!
***updated***
I managed to walk 5 miles today. Two earlier with dh for our 10k training & 3 tonight on my own. I still have the blahs, but I feel a little more peaceful inside. I feel a little better about eating crap food if I know I've exercised. Don't feel quite so guilty & bloated. May tomorrow be a better day! Take care everybody!
I was getting ready for my nightly walk; smug knowing that I was able to keep making progress while dh was sidelined for the evening. When I went to apply my blister block, I saw what appeared to be a piece of lint on my foot & plucked it off. OH oh oh! It was NOT lint. It was the edge of those blisters I had developed a couple of weeks ago. I exposed raw, new skin. Ouch! Ah but a little thing like that isn't going to derail me, I walked with those blisters before! I slapped on some antibiotic salve & a Band-Aid. I was off & walking! Yeah well, I overdid it. I refused to listen to my body's pain & kept moving. What it was trying to tell me was that the bandage wasn't sticking right & it was rubbing a new raw spot on my foot. Today? Today, I am the one limping around, the one that had to rearrange my training schedule to give my foot some rest. I didn't quit, didn't chuck my schedule, and just had to rearrange my activities. Ah that sucks! That's what I get for letting my ego go unchecked and being so darned smug. I thank the Lord that it wasn't anything seriously wrong for dh or me! I also needed the ego check, but am still smarting a little over it. 
