Day 44

Well today is my little girls 2nd birthday!

I can't believe I am still so overweight though I really thought I would have cracked before she got to two.

Anyway I need to crack it before she goes to school and before we try for number 2.  Today is the first day in a long time that I have felt 100% motivated again to get on with CD properly and to stop bloody nibbling.

I have two parties this weekend and I am determined to get through both without eating and then by monday I should be well and truly back in ketosis.

Day 42

Well I haven't posted in this blog for ages and its purely because I fell off the wagon big style, put on loads of weight and then messed about with the diet.

So last night I had a good think again about what I want to do and researched the diet again read some blogs and forums and decided I want to give the diet one more go 100%.

The difference this time if I fall off again then I think I need to stop and diet a more conventional way.

This weekend will be a real test of my resolve as its my daughters 2nd birthday and there will be loads of temptation around me. 

I think if I can get through the weekend without eating then I will be well and truly back on track.

I need to make sure I post regularly on the CD forum as seeing other peoples success and issues makes it easier to deal with and I need to regularly update my blog as all these silly little things keep me busy.

If I stick to the diet I am hoping to hit ketosis by the weekend which will make the parties so much easier to cope with.

Day 27

Well today is day 27 but I am treating it as another day 1.  The last couple of weeks I have not done this 100% I have picked at food and not been drinking my water and the result is the scales aren't moving.  I haven't put on any weight yet but I am not losing which I should be.

So today I am back to square one and my goal is for 7 full days 100% on track!  Taking each day as it comes and when I feel like I am going to waiver then I will think of where I could be by my holiday!

I want to be in the 17s in the next couple of weeks so fingers crossed.

I am also going to get my exercise bike out as feel that I am now ready to exercise and I know this will help with my weight loss, losing inches and getting fitter!

Day 25

Day 25 started off well but ended badly.

I had been good all day and had received my first compliment regarding my weight loss.  My MIL told me like I looked as if I had lost loads and asked me what I was doing.

Me and my OH then had a silly disagreement which upset me.  So what do I do?  I had two slices of toast.  Well in the grand scale of things this is not exactly the end of the world but it has kicked me out of ketosis and caused me to gain a pound.

I am so pissed off with myself for once again letting food be my comfort and I really thought I might have got past this but obviously not.

It is something I have to work on.  I am going to get in some good CD food as I am doing the AAM next week so that if it gets to the point I have to eat I can have something good.

I still need to take everything one day at a time as food still obviously controls me.  My goal from this day on is to get to my WI having stuck to my plan 100% so 3 full days and hope that I lose weight this week.

Day 21

Well today has been a good day my scales finally moved.  Yippeeeeeeeeee they went down 3lbs!!

Since starting CD I have now lost 20lbs only another 8lbs til I get to two stone which I am hoping to do by my birthday or as close to it as I can.

I do finally think I am coming to terms with no food but next week is the week when I introduce some basic food and I am petrified that this will bring on my desire to binge.

Day 20

Well the past week has been an interesting one.

I have had a couple of picking sessions and now its TOTM which has resulted in a STS this week which I am gutted about.

So this week I am going for it big style I am going to not put on single thing in my mouth that isnt on the diet and going to drink water until its coming out of my ears.

I WILL have a loss this time next week and those scales will soon move.

I have to do this diet even more now as we have booked to go to Disneyland Paris and I have to be able to get on all the rides.

Day 15 part two

Well I am afraid I have bad news.  After a small disagreement with a friend where I felt quite hurt I resorted to food  I had a few pieces of brocolli from my daughters tea and also some cheese and cold meat. 

I am really upset with myself for yet again turning to food and this stupidity resulted in no change in my scales the next day.

So here I am on day 16 and I am going to stick to it 100% without fail.  I do not want to be a picker and someone who takes food off their childs plate.

Day 15

Well I am still hanging in and pleased to report a 17lbs loss in two weeks.  To say I am chuffed is an understatement!

Went to see my CDC last night and get my next two weeks.  Have got a two tetras for each day I am at work as at the moment haven't been having anything til I get home and a soup for each evening so I can have a warm meal.

I really feel that I have found the place for me to diet and lose weight for the first time in my life and I can honestly say that I think I will keep it up.

My main aim is my hols in August when I am hoping to be a size 16.  I have decided I will not CD whilst there I will enjoy my holiday, food and drink and deal with whatever happens on my return.  I am then hoping to be at goal by Xmas unless pregnant .  To think I could be a normal weight by then is scary.

I am starting to notice it on myself already but I don't think others will maybe til around 3 stone.  My first aim is to lose 2 stone by my birthday which is at the end of Jan and hopefully to be able to fit in a pair of size 20 jeans I have.

Day 13

Wow I can't believe I am still doing this diet I am so proud of myself.  I have now lost over a stone and I am totally gobsmacked as that would have taken me months on WW

Going to see my CDC tomorrow to get some new packs.  I am getting some tetras so I can take them to work and also some soups so I can have a hot meal in the evenings.

I am so pleased that for once I have stuck to a diet.  I really think taking food away was the best decision ever as I know I do not have the willpower to diet long term.

I sat down today and worked out how much I could weigh by my holiday and it was shocking.  I can't ever imagine weighing so little so for now it still seems a dream.  I know as each week goes past that I stay on the diet that the pounds will shift and before long I will be 16st something which I can't remember ever weighing during my adult life.

Day 10

Well today has been an eventful day and unfortunately one which I couldn't do CD 100%.

I got a call from my mum early in the morning saying she had fallen over and ended up taking her to A&E as she had broken her wrist.

We ended up being there several hours which meant I had no shakes and no water until very late at night so pretty sure my weight loss will be nothing in the morning

Had some more bad news today, the friend I was doing this diet with has now decided to stop so I am all on my own now .

I can't use this as an excuse as I have to make this succeed and lost some weight.  I hate being me.

Keeping my mind focussed on August on my holiday