Content?

I am starting to wonder if I am just content with being fat. Either that, or trying to lose weight while chasing around 2 children is just tougher than I think it should be.  I just can't seem to stick with anything. 

I'm going to give the CORE program a try again.  I'm going to do it for 1 month.  We'll see if it really works for me. 

I haven't weighed in for two weeks as last week we were out of town and this week DS and DD were sick so I stayed home with my little ones as they clung to me in desperation.

I am fat.  I want to be thin.  Really I do. 

Exercise needs to be a priority but with two kids and a husband who says he wants to lose weight but then eats french fries and brings me milkshakes, I can't seem to find the time to do so.  We can't afford a gym membership.  My mom is going to start coming over every day in two weeks so I can go swim.  I think this will not only be good for my body but also my mind.

Here we go again.

Stay and Succeed

Yeah right.  I've been going to WW meetings for 16 weeks today and I've lost a total of 1.6 lbs.  Yay me.  LOL

But I learned some things today (like you can eat as many 0 pt veggies you want and don't have to count them (contrary to what I've learned in the past). )  No one ever got fat eating broccoli.

I'm out.

I need help

Apparently I actually need someone to hold my hand and kick me in the a$$.  I'm just about to give up.  Now, I do recognize that I did not make the best choices this week, but I do not understand how I gained a lb. 

#1 - Off zoloft

#2 - No longer nursing

which means I lowered my points by 10 and I GAINED weight this week?  Had a complete meltdown in the car today.  Cried on the phone with DH and then again with C.  I called her up and said, I just need someone to talk to.  Someone I'm not going to bring down (I've got 2 great weight loss buddies, but they are LOSING, and I don't want to depress them with my gains).  So I called my first WW buddy, and my BF since high school.  We talked a long time and have determined that I must not be following the good health guidelines to a T. 

So I've decided. . . to make some goals for the week.  I want to check in here every day and actually have y'all hold me accountable. 

#1 - ACTUALLY WRITE DOWN ALL I CONSUME (not just log it into the computer). 

#2 - DRINK ONLY WATER and COFFEE this week.  Limit coffee to once a day (already doing) and when I get thirsty, grab a glass of water. 

#3 - Cardio at least 3x and strength at least 2. 

I can do this.  I'm tired of being fat.

Going for goal  - RAM

Yes, I'm Dead.

Actually no. . but last week was one hell of a week for me that ended with a 3.8 lb GAIN.  And when I went to post here, EP ate my message and told me to never come back.  At least that's how frustrated I was.

But I did really well this week.  Went back to the FP. . . weaned the toddler, switched from Zoloft to Lexapro, exercised 3 out of five days and then spent all morning on my feet on a field trip with DD. 

We bought a "new" car yesterday.  We've been a 1 car family since before C was born.  We ran across a smokin' deal.  It's a 1991 (I know. . . ) Ford Explorer.  Engine and Tranny were rebuilt at  $65K.  It has a total of 139K on it.  Our 2000 Cavilier has more miles on it than that. 

I think my best friend and I are going to attempt C25k again.  I *think* she's going to hit her 10% goal tomorrow. . YAY. . and then she's leaving me to go off to HI (yes, I said Hawaii) for 9 whole days starting on the 26th.

Back to weight loss.  I did really well this week and had better see a loss tomorrow or I'll just scream my head off.

Going for goal,

R

Loving It

Core is soooo easy to follow.  I've had a few slip ups, but other than those, I did amazingly well.  I really didn't have much extra sugar.  And with all the Easter candy. . . let me tell you. . . . I had a few pieces, but for the most part, I stayed away. 

AND. .  are you ready??

I did not have a Sonic coke once this week.  I gave into tempation on Tuesday and bought one, BUT. . I didn't drink it (um. . what's wrong with me???)  LOL  I didn't drink it at all!!  I'm sooooo proud of myself.

I did reward myself with a medium coke yesterday evening. And it was nice. . but not the heavenly drink I remember (lol).

And . . . I'm down 2.2 lbs this week!!  Yay!!!!! :) :) :)  No more counting. . . no more starving. . . just eating until I'm satisfied.

This was a rough week for me as I had a Mirena IUD placed on Wednesday.  It was pretty bad for me, but I'm doing better.  And DH and i had the most romantic at home date I've ever had. . . started off with a picnic in the living room. . . the devil wears prada. . . diet rite and vodka. . . and we ended up in the bedroom.  lots of fun!!! :) ;)

Oh. . and I bought some new jeans today.  I've worn through every pair I own. . . and these are 12s. . . not too bad. . . they aren't a bigger size, which is what I worried about.

Here's to losing!!

Going Core

Last week, my girlfriends, B and Jen, suggested maybe switching to core.  I said, I don't think so , stuck to my guns, followed the Flex Plan, and gained nearly 2 pounds.

I made the switch.  I love that I'm able to eat until I'm satisfied and not worry about going over points.  I love that I can make a smoothie and not worry about the exact amount of fruit or milk or yogurt.  It's awesome!!

I realize now that I was not using all my points the best way I could have been.  Let's say, I had 4 points left over at the end of the day.  I'd send Stephen out for a soda.  Now, I'm not allowed regular soda and the diet sodas out there (at sonic) are not ones I can drink, so guess what.  I've had 1/2 a diet big red and that's all in the past 3 days.  I'm soooo proud of myself.  That's a big deal.

And you know what??? Tomorrow is going to be 4 . . .and then 5. . and then. . well.

I also did some CORE research because I felt like I was getting mixed signals from the web site and the paper material I've received.  According to my little book, I can have Fat Free Yogurt w/ artificial sweetners.  According to the web tools, I cannot w/o counting the points.

And how awesome is this - we are in desperate need of a trip to the grocery store.  I had my annual physical today and they checked for uterine fibroids because of some issues I've been having so I get home in excuriating pain from those lovely things called cramps (not to mention TOM showed up last night) and lie around on a heated pillow all afternoon while Stephen takes care of chasing the toddlers.  We have nothing to eat. . . well we have about 15 lbs of ground venison in the freezer but nothing to go with it.  So Stephen goes to Chipotle. . AND I CAN EAT THE VEGGIE BOWL w/o worries.  No rice. . no sour cream. . no cheese. . but lay on the black beans, corn salsa, lettuces. . . YUM!!!  Then he came home and put Fat Free cheese and sour cream on my dinner and I was in heaven.

Used some points this morning at MOPS but I was dumb and didn't eat breakfast before going and needed to eat.  They were worth it.

Okay. . how's everyone else???

PS. . . . I'm attempting to wean C tonight.  No milky before bed.  But I'm also weaning myself from Zoloft and making the switch to Lexapro. . .so. . we'll have to see.

Needing a little encouragement

Argh

I just typed a huge post and when I went to add it, I had to log in again, causing it to be gone.  I'll have to do it when the babies are napping.  Argh.

Yowchie!

Well, I'm very proud of myself this week.  I exercised SMWTF and even Tuesday if you count vacuuming my floors for 10 minutes.  I don't know about y'all, but by the time I'm done vacuuming, I've worked up a sweat! 

But that's not what matters.  What matters is 20 minutes cardio Sunday, Thursday and 20 minutes of Strength Training MWF - I've started a new video.  My daddy gave it to me.  It's the ABS Diet Exercise video.  The beginner workout is 5 ab exercises, 3 lower body, and 5 upper body.  And let me tell you. . . I worked out on Wed morning.  by the afternoon my legs were feeling it.  On Thursday I could barely walk.  But I got up on Friday and did the workout.  Still killer but in the evening I soaked in epsom salts and I swear I feel so much better.  I'm looking forward to Monday's workout.

So. . I gained .6 this week.  POINT 6.  And I'm not upset.  I know that my muscles are recovering from the workouts.  I'm proud at my progress, and I bet if WI was tomorrow, I'd have a loss. 

Anyway, I did really well and stayed away from all the chocolate, candy, and cookies that Hannah brought home with her.  And I've officially been fairly soda free for 2 weeks.  I've had a total of 3 in the past 2 weeks.  Yay, me!!

I have some more recipes, but it's late and I'm sleepy.

Down we go!

Exercise & Measurements

All of those who know me know that I hate exercise.  Hate it with a passion.  Even though I know that once I've finished my routine, I feel wonderful, I still hate doing it.

Well, I decided yesterday to give exercise a chance.  I'm going to attempt the Abs Diet Weekly Workout.  It includes 6 days of exercise 3 of which are strength training.

I walked on the ET for 22 minutes yesterday - and felt great afterwards.

Today here's what I planned on doing:

 ETA:  OMG!!!  I've been at WW again for a month - exercise, eating right, etc.  I know it's working because I've lost 5 lbs.

But on top of that - in 1 month, I have lost 8.5 inches from my total body and 3 inches from my WAIST and 2 inches from my CHEST.  These are big ones for me!!  I'm sooooooo excited!!!  Anyway, had to share this accomplishment.  I retook my measurements on January 15th.  I figure that the 11th is close enough to remeasure. 

Here's to losing!  As Karrie says, Onward and Downward!