Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes...
I'm not messing around any more. I've been drinking water (around 100 oz. a day, because it's so hot here), weighing out my food and watching calories, and I joined a gym last night. I went there this morning and did 35 minutes on a bike (30 mins at 145-150 bpm with a 5-minute cool down). Then I did an entire circuit of upper body exercises. Then I went for a round in the massage chair, because relaxation isn't a bad thing. Tomorrow, I plan to do more cardio and the circuit of lower body. I am SICK of being fat. People say not to make radical changes, but if I don't make radical changes, I'm going to be fat for the rest of my life. I remember how I felt when I was thin, how much confidence I had, how beautiful I felt. I want to feel like THAT again. I don't care what I have to do. I want to feel better about myself, and for the first time, I can see myself thin again. I want it.
Anyway, I'm journaling my food choices and trying to make sure that, if I want a treat, I make sure that I keep watch in the rest of my calorie intake to that I don't go crazy. Yesterday, one of the guys at work brought a big container of Dunkin' Donuts Munchkins. I had to send out the email letting everyone know that they were in the break room, so I looked up the calorie count online and posted it with the email, letting everyone know that the little sugar bombs were 60 calories each. I never touched them.
I can't wait to be thin!
