Anxious Anticipation

Anticipating the day when weight loss is not a goal in my life.

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  • Name: RH584
  • City: Fernley
  • Region: Nevada
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 182.9cm
Start weight: 398.00lb
Current weight: 346.00lb
Goal weight: 170.00lb
Lost to date: 52.00lb
Remaining: 176.00lb

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Before After

That Was Ok...

This is my 3rd visit to the doctor in the last 6 weeks.  I started my diet in December, but was basically doing it alone.  No doctor advice, and no support groups or sites.  I went on a plateau for about 5 weeks and was very discouraged.  I finally went to my doctor and had the basic check up along with all the lovely blood work and a UA.  I was concerned about my health for reasons that I mentioned in my first post and I wanted her advice.  She has been monitoring my blood pressure and I have been on some new allergy medication and such.  That is what is going on there.

So, I went to the doctor today and it went well.  I did notice something though.  I got on the scale at home this morning and it said 364.  About 5 1/2 hours later (11 am) I got on the scale at the doctor's and it said 366.  I asked her what I weighed last time (my appointment was about 11 am) and she said 378.5.  The day after that appointment, first thing in the morning I was on the scale and it said 380.  I know that weight fluctuates during the day so I blame it all on that.  Anyway, the doctor scale said I lost 12.5 lbs and my home scale (the one I am following) says I lost 16 lbs.

Those scales are horrible.  However, I noticed something today.  It was easier for me to stand in the right place today.  My tummy was still in the way and the platform should be wider, but I didn't need to suck in as much.

I didn't do as much exercise as normal today because I was pressed for time, but I did get most of it in.  I will do everything tomorrow.  I am going to get my hands on some workout videos too so that I will have some more variety.  Right now I do my Lateral Thigh Trainer (Stepper) for at least a half hour a day.  While I do that I do some bicep and tricep stuff with the 5 lb weights and I swing my arms as if I am marching.  As for my crunches, I was informed that there is a such thing as standing crunches.  I was told about Hip Hop Abs.  I did some research on it.  I was able to find a clip on Youtube.com that showed how Shaun T does the basic move ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGb2MCWIB7o ).  At this point I don't do all the bouncing.  I just focus on the muscle the way he does and do a crunch, and another, and so on.  I have been doing a few groups of about 25 because I feel it around 15 and I have been pushing it.

Other news for today... I have been a bit down lately.  I have been having this issue where I don't see the changes that I would like to see.  I have lost 34 lbs and am still wearing the same size jeans.  Nobody else has noticed or at least they don't say anything.  Blah, blah, blah... I know.  Anyway, I had an upper today.  Not only did I have an easier time with the scale, but I noticed something in the truck on the way over to the doctor.  In the past my stomach has stuck out far enough to almost touch the steering wheel when I was driving.  That is even when the seat is all the way back like it always is.  It was a bit better when I sat up real straight, but it still wasn't great.  Well, today, I was sitting fairly straight up in the seat and I looked down for some reason.  Guess what I saw!  There was a 2 inch gap between me and the wheel!  That is at least an inch of improvement.  I wish I had measured myself in December so that I would know exactly how many inches I have lost, but oh well.  It is weird how you notice little things sometimes.

Now that you are all thoroughly bored, I will go.  However, I do want to say to everyone keep up the good work, keep moving forward, and keep on keepin' on!

Doctor Time

I go to the doctor today.  Its been almost three weeks.  Hopefully her scale does me justice.  My scale says I have lost 16 lbs since I saw her last.  I always hate their scale though.  It is difficult to get a weight on it when you are as heavy and round as I am.  I think they should make the platforms on those scales larger.

Anyway, my scale moved down 2 more lbs this morning.  I had some cookies on Sunday that I should have resisted, but it looks like it didn't hurt too bad.  I kept on track yesterday and I am going to again today!

I had better get moving.  I have exercising to do.  The stepper, my weights and the TV are waiting for me.  Not to mention that I have crunches to do.

Off I go...

A Bit Discouraged...

Got on the scale today and haven't lost anything.  I have actually felt a little crummy the past few days.  I am trying to work past it.  I am still exercising and I am going to try to step it up today.  Giving up is not an option though.  There is too much at stake for me!  I will make it this time... I will!  Life isn't always easy, but we need to keep moving forward.

Thanks to everyone that has given me different exercise ideas and for posting such determined things in your blogs.  It does help to motivate me.

Just going to Keep on Keepin' on!

Okey Dokey...

So today was much better than yesterday.  I ate the right number of calories and I drank a lot of water.  I even got my butt on my stepper and stayed on it for an hour!  Someone told me that they marched when they walked and it toned their arms so I did the same on the stepper.  I could feel the burn in my legs and in my arms.  I do wish I could find a better way to focus on my abs, butt, and hips though.  If I do crunches it only burns in my upper abs.  I tried the reverse crunch, but I can't seem to get it right.  I don't know if my stepper is doing much for my hips and butt.  I don't know.  I will have to look into something new I think.  I'll figure it out tomorrow.

Bad Girl...

I was bad today...

It started out ok with a small bowl of cereal and some cranberries.  Then I had some Watermelon later on.  That was followed by some dry cereal and some fruit.  But then, My mother in law made enchiladas and rice followed by ice cream.  So bad... It added an extra 800 calories to my day.  I hope it doesn't tip the scale tomorrow.  I think I will use my stepper a bit longer to counteract some of this.

Keepin' my fingers crossed that I Keep on Keepin' on!

Hello!

Howdy...

I am new to this support group thing, but after reading some stories and advice I have decided that this will be a great way to keep motivated and reach my goal.

I am a 24 year old wife with no kids... unless you count our 2 beagles.  They can be just as challenging sometimes.  We have been married fo just over 3 years and are still very happy.  I am an office assistant for a trucking company owned by the in-laws... not as rough as it may sound.  I get a lot of responsibility and they ask for my input often.

As for this weight loss stuff... I have had difficulty with my weight all my life.  I have tried Shakes, Atkins, Calorie Counting, and Barely Eating.  All of them worked for a bit.  Then, I hit this plateau that throws everything off kilter and I get so discouraged that I give up or I have an off week and never get back on.  After that, I inevitably wind up gaining the lbs that I had lost and they bring along about 20 of their friends.  This time, however, is going to be different.  I am determined to make it different.

At a wopping 398 lbs , I kicked myself in the butt and so started the most recent journey in my weight loss history.  After waiting for the "right" time to start a diet, I finally knocked enough sense into myself to realize that there was no time like the present.  So, call me crazy, but I started my diet just before Christmas, December 10, 2007.

There is just too much riding on this.  You may be asking, Why now?  The answer is it is time to lose the weight and I have sooooo many reasons for doing so.  I am surrounded by people that are overweight in my life and they have given me very good reasons to push to lose the weight.  My family alone has a history of Heart Attacks, Diabetes, Liver Disease, High Blood Pressure, and I have borderline Cholestrol.  My father in law has a pace maker.  If I lose the weight now, I can lower my Cholestrol, eliminate my Diabetes risk, reduce my Blood Pressure, prevent the Liver Disease, and bring the risk of a Heart Attack down.  Not to mention the fact that I want kids someday (actually, now, but I am waiting) and I don't want the pregnancy complications.  I want to be able to keep up with the kids too.  It would be wonderful to hike, ride bikes, and go to amusement parks and be able to ride the rides as a family.  There is just so much more that I want to do with my life than be overwheight and living in fear of embarassment.  So, I am not doing this for my husband... he loves me for who I am.  I am not doing this for my parents... they have always loved me for me.  I am not doing this for the rest of the world... the only opinion that matters when it comes to my happiness should be mine.  I am doing this to make me the person I want to be and I will get there too! 

This time I have finally gotten a few key things through my thick skull and I am changing the way I look at things mentally.  I am a bored eater, an emotional eater, and a companion eater.  I wish I had realized this a long time ago.  Things may have been so much easier.  This time around, I am reminding myself that food only relieves boredom as long as you are eating and not after you are done, food does not make you feel better for long enough to justify eating because your emotions are haywire, and just because my husband is hungry, it does not mean that I have to eat too.  Until I started paying attention to these things, I did not realize how much effect they had on my eating habits.  Now I do my best to control them and if I retrain my mind and body, maybe I won't regain the weight because of them.

After starting my diet, I was able to lose 28 lbs on my own.  I had reached 370 by late April.  Then came the dreaded plateau.  I almost quit again.  The thing that was really bad this time was that over about 5 weeks, my body decided to do things that I didn't want to see.  My weight fluctuated up, down, and all around, but never down past 370.  By May 28, I had managed to regain 10 lbs and the scale sat at 380.  My doctor and I decided that I may need a boost.  She and I both agreed that I was pretty down and was having a hard time keeping up with my diet.  She prescribed Phentermine.  I started taking it on May 29 and the 10 lbs that had come back just began to melt off.  By June 2, I was back at 370 and I have lost another 4 lbs since then.  It was just the motivation I needed.  I am back at it and going strong!

I have done a lot of reading and research since I started Phen.  I have learned a lot about exercise, Phen, eating habits, and weight loss in general.  I have also learned that I am not alone in this even if it does seem like I am sometimes.  I am happy to have the support and advice that I have found at Phentermine.com and am sure that everyone here will be just as supportive and helpful.

This time I will make it!  It is possible and I know the way.  I just need to Keep on Keepin' on!

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