Anxious Anticipation

Anticipating the day when weight loss is not a goal in my life.

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  • Name: RH584
  • City: Fernley
  • Region: Nevada
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 182.9cm
Start weight: 398.00lb
Current weight: 346.00lb
Goal weight: 170.00lb
Lost to date: 52.00lb
Remaining: 176.00lb

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Hello!

Howdy...

I am new to this support group thing, but after reading some stories and advice I have decided that this will be a great way to keep motivated and reach my goal.

I am a 24 year old wife with no kids... unless you count our 2 beagles.  They can be just as challenging sometimes.  We have been married fo just over 3 years and are still very happy.  I am an office assistant for a trucking company owned by the in-laws... not as rough as it may sound.  I get a lot of responsibility and they ask for my input often.

As for this weight loss stuff... I have had difficulty with my weight all my life.  I have tried Shakes, Atkins, Calorie Counting, and Barely Eating.  All of them worked for a bit.  Then, I hit this plateau that throws everything off kilter and I get so discouraged that I give up or I have an off week and never get back on.  After that, I inevitably wind up gaining the lbs that I had lost and they bring along about 20 of their friends.  This time, however, is going to be different.  I am determined to make it different.

At a wopping 398 lbs , I kicked myself in the butt and so started the most recent journey in my weight loss history.  After waiting for the "right" time to start a diet, I finally knocked enough sense into myself to realize that there was no time like the present.  So, call me crazy, but I started my diet just before Christmas, December 10, 2007.

There is just too much riding on this.  You may be asking, Why now?  The answer is it is time to lose the weight and I have sooooo many reasons for doing so.  I am surrounded by people that are overweight in my life and they have given me very good reasons to push to lose the weight.  My family alone has a history of Heart Attacks, Diabetes, Liver Disease, High Blood Pressure, and I have borderline Cholestrol.  My father in law has a pace maker.  If I lose the weight now, I can lower my Cholestrol, eliminate my Diabetes risk, reduce my Blood Pressure, prevent the Liver Disease, and bring the risk of a Heart Attack down.  Not to mention the fact that I want kids someday (actually, now, but I am waiting) and I don't want the pregnancy complications.  I want to be able to keep up with the kids too.  It would be wonderful to hike, ride bikes, and go to amusement parks and be able to ride the rides as a family.  There is just so much more that I want to do with my life than be overwheight and living in fear of embarassment.  So, I am not doing this for my husband... he loves me for who I am.  I am not doing this for my parents... they have always loved me for me.  I am not doing this for the rest of the world... the only opinion that matters when it comes to my happiness should be mine.  I am doing this to make me the person I want to be and I will get there too! 

This time I have finally gotten a few key things through my thick skull and I am changing the way I look at things mentally.  I am a bored eater, an emotional eater, and a companion eater.  I wish I had realized this a long time ago.  Things may have been so much easier.  This time around, I am reminding myself that food only relieves boredom as long as you are eating and not after you are done, food does not make you feel better for long enough to justify eating because your emotions are haywire, and just because my husband is hungry, it does not mean that I have to eat too.  Until I started paying attention to these things, I did not realize how much effect they had on my eating habits.  Now I do my best to control them and if I retrain my mind and body, maybe I won't regain the weight because of them.

After starting my diet, I was able to lose 28 lbs on my own.  I had reached 370 by late April.  Then came the dreaded plateau.  I almost quit again.  The thing that was really bad this time was that over about 5 weeks, my body decided to do things that I didn't want to see.  My weight fluctuated up, down, and all around, but never down past 370.  By May 28, I had managed to regain 10 lbs and the scale sat at 380.  My doctor and I decided that I may need a boost.  She and I both agreed that I was pretty down and was having a hard time keeping up with my diet.  She prescribed Phentermine.  I started taking it on May 29 and the 10 lbs that had come back just began to melt off.  By June 2, I was back at 370 and I have lost another 4 lbs since then.  It was just the motivation I needed.  I am back at it and going strong!

I have done a lot of reading and research since I started Phen.  I have learned a lot about exercise, Phen, eating habits, and weight loss in general.  I have also learned that I am not alone in this even if it does seem like I am sometimes.  I am happy to have the support and advice that I have found at Phentermine.com and am sure that everyone here will be just as supportive and helpful.

This time I will make it!  It is possible and I know the way.  I just need to Keep on Keepin' on!

Comments to this post:

I'm with you!

Hi,

Just wanted to stop by and wish you well on your journey.  You are so correct in saying that this journey is very possible.  I also started Phen around the same time that you did and have had good results so far.  The key to my success this time has been that I'm not just taking the phen but also, I have completely changed my eating habits. I eat 5-6 small meals during the day, I don't eat after 7 pm and I have cut out fried foods and soda------I must admit that I'm addicted to sweet tea so I didn't overcome that yet. We are both similar in height and not too far in weight so I can really feel your struggle!  This site will definitely help you along the way. Good Luck!

Good Luck

Welcome to EP!  Good luck.

Hi.....!

 

Hi again...

Thanks for posting your comment.  Its too bad it isn't showing up.  You have me curious as to what it was.  Talk to you soon.

Keep up the good work!

I am also a 24 year old wife married about 3 years. I know its hard but you are doing so great. Keep up the good work.

Maggie




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