The inherent flaw of perfectionism
I am a perfectionist. What's worse is that I am an organized perfectionist! If I do not accomplish what I set out to achieve perfectly - I have this persistant, nagging feeling of needing to 'redo' it. Start over, start again, start fresh.
For instance, this week. The perfectionist in my is ready to say "I haven't done any of the stuff that I set out to do", when in reality - I have stuck to my menu about 60%, and I have worked out once this week. However, I did eat some chips, and chocolate ice cream, and some vietnamese food. I have also missed a couple of exercise classes. Ok - so it isn't what I had hoped I would do, but certainly I have done some of it.
Yet I have this nagging feeling in me. Telling me this week is ruined. It can't be salvaged. I will need to wait until next week to start over. That is crap, but there is this feeling in me that won't let it go.
I know it is crazy, and it makes no sense. But it won't leave me alone! I just keep on wanting to 'start over' 'start fresh' 'start new' - NEXT week. Why can't I start again in the next meal? The next day even? Why does there have to be a next? Why can't I start over NOW???
It isn't in me to start now. I set these weekly goals, and if I didn't complete them perfectly I need to wait until next week to create new goals? That is silly!
Anyone else notice this? What is with it? Really?

