Pulling myself back up....

 I've gained 16 pounds back since Oct 2007... I am ashamed.... but willing to grab hold and pull myself back up onto the wagon.  It's time to start again and succeed this time!

10 more to go!!!

Well, I have just 10 pounds to go...and  I'll reach my  goal of 250. That's a great feeling!!! I like taking these shorter goals and accomplishing them...it helps me to feel like I'm in control.

Each day can be a challenge, and I never know what situation I'll end up in as far as eating goes...sometimes I pack a lunch, and then some friends want to go to eat Chinese...or I'm invited to a dinner, and it seems all that's there is high calorie and high fat foods.

I'm learning to adapt though. I'm judging my portions much better when I can't weigh them, I make better food choices when I'm out.  This is good practice, because in order to maintain my loss this will have to be the way I eat FOREVER! 

One really great thing has happened from my eating changes, is that I eat because I'm hungry, not because I feel emotional distress, or I'm bored.

That's an accomplishment in itself!!!

14 pounds to go!

I've made it to 264 this morning! YIPPEEE!!!!!!!!
I know the secret of my success has been  overall a mindset. It's also helped me to stick with the daily dedication of writing everything down that I eat.  I'm shooting for 250 by Oct. 31...of this year...hee hee! Anyway, I'm sure I'll make it, and will continue on to create a new goal and time frame. It helps to lose weight in small stages. I'm taking 15 or 20 pounds at a time and shoot for a certain date to obtain the loss. It's alot easier than saying I've got 150 pounds to lose in the next 18 months...ugh....that sounds impossible!   I'm taking one goal at a time, and 14 pounds from now, I will have accomplished this one.  I will do it!!!!!!!

Whoo-hoo!!!!!!

I've finally made it to 270... what a  great  feeling!!!!

It's been far from easy, but I'm on my way! I'm eating healthy and drinking alot of water. I think it's all a mindset, really. In order to really lose the weight, I've had to absolutely say NO to my old eating habits. I'm willing to fail and pick myself back up and try again. I used to just give up. 

YEA! for me!

Losing!

I'm happy to say...the weight is beginning to fall off again! Just 8 more pounds to go and I will be back down to the lowest weight since April 2006....finally! I feel great now, but I know I will feel even better when I finally hit below 267.  It sounds strange, but at least it will be a whole new set of pounds to lose, rather than losing the same pounds over and over. I have yo yo 'd these same pounds far too long now. Here's a little something that has seemed to help me. I remembered a motivational saying I heard years ago in a weight watchers meeting. "I will never weigh more, than I weigh today." 

Today is a new day

Last night I went out and ate at a chinese buffet...not a good idea.

Today is a new day, and I have the rest of the weekend to redeem myself. I wonder why food has to taste so damn good. I think if it had no taste at all... nobody would have a weight problem...I mean if it all tasted like unsalted plain oatmeal...who wants to pig out on that?

Anyway, I'm so much more forgiving of myself than I had been in the past. Before I would of chastised myself and pretty much gave up the diet by eating an ice cream sundae! I've since decided that I don't need that kind of negativity in my life..and  if I've learned  anything on this so called diet rollercoaster it's to be kind to myself when I falter. 

Hear this everyone...No matter what  you weigh now, treat yourself with love and kindness today..Don't. hold out until you've lost 5 or 50 lbs. You need yourself, because no one is going to get you through this weight loss, and help you keep it off but YOU! Isn't that nice to know?