After eating all that pizza last night, I feel like I'm full of concrete. Serves me flippin well right too - I didn't really enjoy the pizza, but still I ate all of it ... and then having slipped into a "don't care now" state of mind, I ate four Digestive biscuits and two KitKats, neither of which I really like anyway.
Hey ho - life moves on.
Raspberrycordial posed a question in a comment to my last post - whether there was a reason for the sabotage, and whether I'm concerned about getting to goal. Interesting .....
Well, the reason for the sabotage was a) stress leading to being very tired, and habit playing a large role - when I've been in that state on a Friday night before, I've always just gone straight for a takeaway.
I was questioning the need for food and trying to identify what I wanted, but I didn't fancy Chinese (chow mein and soup just didn't cut it, and anything else was too full of fat), couldn't see anything I fancied at Waitrose and then headed home while I considered my options. I did pop into ASK (a pizza restaurant) to pick up a pizza menu as I hadn't realised they did takeaway, and their pizzas are really nice (thin, quite healthy, etc.).
But ... naturally having got home, I couldn't be fished to go out again, and ended up ordering pizza from PapaJohn's just because they deliver and they have a new recipe for thin crust. Yeah, exhaustion kicked in and I'm not proud of it! I should have just gone to bed!!!
Second question - am I concerned about getting to goal? Short answer is "no". I hadn't really thought about it, but since giving up WW, I haven't shifted any lbs, and I really haven't been focussing particularly. I have been trying to exercise, and eating healthily but work has been getting in the way a bit.
What I have proven to myself is that I can keep the weight off using Fitbug alone rather than counting every point on WW - which is considerably more time consuming. I'm quite happy to carry on using that going forward, so that is encouraging at least. I'm quite happy about where I've got so far, but I do have a little to lose so I'm wondering whether it might be wise to go back to WW for a short while. We'll see ... actually I think work time pressures have more to do with it, and that should calm at least a little in the next couple of weeks.
In the meantime, my insides haven't been great all week and I now feel like I've consumed a batch of concrete - so lots of fibre, water and veggies coming up over the weekend to see if I can get a weigh in under 10st on Monday (yesterday's peek revealed 9st 12.5lb, after last night's sabotage it was 10st 0.5lb so it should be feasible). Maybe seeing that 9st on the scale will spur me onwards and downwards!!
Another thought occurs - I haven't been able to get any exercise other than some walking in this week, and I haven't felt that fresh, energised feeling I get after a run. I'm sure that helps with keeping focus on healthy food!
So - I foresee an hour's run today, and a long bike ride and swim tomorrow
Well, hubby's out on the piss and I couldn't decide what to eat. So I ended up with a medium thin-crust pizza, half veggie half chicken. And then I ate the whole thing .... Oh dear.
Then I had a caramel Digestive biscuit, and then a couple of KitKats. Double oh dear!!
You know what though, when I couldn't decide what to have to eat, I just couldn't really be bothered to have anything. I really should have stuck with that and just grabbed some chips as a treat out of the freezer - having eaten all the food I've had, I can't remember the flavour while I was eating it and didn't get much enjoyment out of it. But ... I still fancy eating another Digestive!
Well, I'm not losing weight, but I'm not losing either ... which is annoying because I still haven't reached 9st. Also, I just don't seem to be able to stop eating. I'm fine during the day, but as soon as I've got in I'm nibbling before supper, eating dinner and then nibbling on biscuits, Curly Wurly's and chocolate.
GGAAAAAaaaahhhhhhhh! This is exactly what I used to do!! I know I'm stressed, but I thought I'd got past that! I HAVE to make sure I don't buy ordinary biscuits (I have a couple of posh ones with a cuppa at weekends) so I can't munch, and no Curly Wurly's!! If desperate, I'll have a Fox's Glacier Aniseed sweetie ... or just go to bed where I can't be tempted!!
Foolish woman, I've done so well, come so far that I really can't lose it now.
Well, I think I've made up for my 'not so great' week - just finished a 45km bike ride in exactly 2 hours. Not bad really! I'm getting faster too - average speed of 22km/h, and max speed of 48km/h!! Pretty darned pleased with that.
Of course, now my legs don't work ...
www.mapmyride.com estimated the calories burned as 948 cals - so now I don't care how many biscuits I have with my afternoon cuppa - I shan't go mad though, not a good habit to get into ... that's what got me in trouble in the first place!
Hubby says I'm "much sexier" now I'm slimmer - I must remember that if I'm faced with a biscuit tin!!
Well, I can't say I've been brilliant this week - just one run during the week, although it was a good one, but no swimming or cycling. I ate pretty badly last night as well, and I've been nibbling on too many chocs and biscuits lately.
Oh well - I had a good hour run this morning and I haven't been TOO bad - but I shall just try to be fairly sensible this weekend and see what WI brings on Monday.
Well, I've decided to move the goal posts along with my holiday ...
I've signed up to do a few things for charity - and I'm aiming to be at goal by then:
Sunday 7th September - 5k run in Hyde Park for Winston's Wish (a charity that helps bereaved children rebuild their lives after the death of a parent or sibling)
Sunday 28th Sept - 10k run at Hampton Court Palace for Cancer Research
Between 15th Sept and 7th December I've committed to run 22 miles in aid of Aspire (they provide practical support for people with spinal injuries)
If that doesn't give me some motivation to move, I don't know what will! I've rescheduled my flights to Switzerland to go on 18th September, and I won't be missing that for anything.
My colleagues and friends will be totally sick of me asking for fundraising money though, I'll have to ask carefully ...
Well, I've spent a week off track and I'm suffering badly from TOTM. But - I talked myself into going for a run, and it was the best I've had in ages - I even tacked some on to my normal run, and ended up doing just under 5 miles in an hour. It was nice and cool - threatening to rain, but it didn't hurl it down until after I got indoors, which was kind of it!
So - back on track again. I didn't eat too badly today either, so it should be all systems go.
Bad news though - we've got loads of stuff going on at work at the moment, and due to incredibly bad timing, I've got to be in the office for the next couple of weeks. So... very sadly, I've had to postpone my hols to Switzerland to see my mate, and I'm absolutely gutted No-one's fault, just really bad timing - we've had to announce redundancies today, and we're now in consultation with the staff. As I'm their boss, I really can't leave them stressing and worrying over having no job, while I waltz off to Verbier.
The good news (sort of) is that I can reschedule my flights to mid September, and the company will pay for me to do that. So I should think really - but money's really tight, and we're having to fight for every penny at the moment. It's a good thing I'm flying Easyjet!!
The other good news is that as my diary's been blocked out for ages, having booked my hols back in February, I now have a lovely free schedule until next Tuesday! It won't last though, I'm sure!
Well, no improvement ... I spent all weekend eating biscuits and chocolate, drinking champagne, getting no exercise and generally being utterly debauched.
Well - I guess as it was my wedding anniversary it must be allowed!
Actually I now feel tired, sluggish and very TOTMish, so I'm definitely keen to get back on track and have an official '9st xlb' next week.
