A Gaggle of Girls
I survived the party and the sleepover. I had no cake, but I did have a slice of pizza. Today is a new day.
But yesterday, yesterday was a bad day. My fuel pump went out of my car about 30 miles from where I was going. Luckily it gave me a little warning and there was an exit ramp very close and a gas station. I had it towed to a garage and they weren't sure if they could get the part, blah blah. The only thing going through my mind was that I may miss Anna's party because my fiance doesn't get out of training until 4:30pm and they are not allowed to bring their cell phones in. But alas, the day is saved. I was all fixed up and made it back in plenty of time, albeit $578 poorer, but fixed.
The party went great at Build-A-Bear and the three that slept over were really good. It was no trouble other than the mess to clean up.
To be cliche, I want my children to have all the things I didn't have. I never got to have a birthday party that wasn't at my house. I never got to go to Chuck E Cheese's or Disneyworld or any of those places. So I take my children. And don't get me wrong, loving your children is all they ever need but special memories don't hurt.
I think back to when I was 10. I was so much more worldly. How many times my brothers and I would climb out the window to call the police because of the domestic violence going on, and then there was the alcoholism. It always started out as a good time and then as the night wore on, it almost always ended in an argument. It was not a happy place. They finally got divorced when I was 12. No child should have to grow up like that and I will make sure that my children never see that stuff at home.
So I guess the point to this post is that I sometimes go a bit overboard but my heart is in the right place.
I got 2 compliments last night. One of the mother's who I haven't seen in a while walked in and said, "you look great". And then as we were leaving the mall we ran into my soon to be brother and sister-in-law and she said you are losing weight! You look skinny. Ha, I said I wouldn't go as far as to say I looked skinny. But she said I looked great. Getting so much positive feedback is such a boost. I know I've only lost 30 pounds but I'm starting to get my confidence back. I hate feeling like I'm not as good as everyone else is because of my weight.
I'm all over the place with this one. My jeans are falling off of me. It's a great day!