07/14/2011 18:46
Enemy #3: The Mirror
YES! The dreaded mirror!! The worst ones are full length mirrors. I get depressed every time I look into a mirror because all I see are bulges. My fat bulges. UGH! I can't avoid it because we have them in our bathroom. They are everywhere. They are haunting. I try to pass by a mirror and just try to avoid looking at it, but it is like an eye magnet because my eyes have to have a glance. I don't like what I see.
So my goal is that when I look at myself in the mirror, I imagine a thinner me and just say to myself "You are a work in progress and looking better every day."
07/12/2011 05:10
Good News and Bad News
Well, there is good news and bad news. I went to the doctor today for a check-up.
The bad news: From last May 2010 til now July 2011, I have gained 16 pounds.
The good news: Since June 27, 2011 til now July 11, 2011, I have lost 9.5 pounds of what I gained.
I'm hoping that when I go on vacation for two weeks that I do not regress.
Does anyone have any tips on what you do during vacation to not gain weight? or to at least maintain and not gain? Any tips are appreciated!!
07/10/2011 19:53
Enemy #2
The second enemy for now is myself! I can't seem to be motivated to lose weight. Well, I know that I want to lose weight, but I can't get into the groove of things. My will power is not strong enough right now and I don't know what to do to change that. I know that I want to lose weight. I know that I do not want to go on high blood pressure pills. I know that I want to live longer. I just can't seem to make it sink into my head that I have to do this. Maybe I am putting too much pressure on myself and sabotaging myself. What to do? I know one thing, I AM NOT GIVING UP!! I'll keep trying until I get into the groove.
07/03/2011 04:56
Regressed
Ok. My diet started off pretty good and then disaster hit. I ate a "forbidden food" and now I was knocked off the wagon, but I am determined to get back on and keep on dieting. Today I went to our local thrift store and bought two pairs of shorts, my size (20). Then I looked at a pair of jeans, my size too. I walked around the store and decided to put the pants back. I thought to myself, "I don't need these. Pretty soon I am going to need a smaller size and this will be a waste. I don't need new jeans until school starts again (August). I think I can lose a pant size or two before then.
I can't give up. I have to do this! I will and I can. Like I said before "If the little engine could, I can too!!"
06/29/2011 06:18
Foot problems
I went to physical therapy for my foot today. I have plantar fascitis (mispelled). I am feeling a little better about my foot. I just wish that some more of the pain goes away. I can't wait to get back into the 5ks and 10ks. I messed up my foot back in November 2010 when I completed a half marathon. Well the week before the marathon I hurt it and went ahead and completed the 13+ miles. Needless to say, I finished it but in lots of pain. I didn't get it checked for quite sometime. I knew what it was that I had because I have had the same symptoms before. I went ahead and scheduled a doctor's appointment in April just so that he could tell me that I had what I had already suspected. I started off with some anti-inflamatory pills, then the oh so painful cortisone shot. None of those worked so I went ahead and started physical therapy. Two months of therapy and here I am. Still unable to complete any 5 or 10ks. The doctor did say that this will take a long time to heal, but I NEED MY FIX!!
I had become addicted to these races and then quit cold turkey because of this foot problem. The good thing about all of this is that I am saving money because all of these races cost money. The bad thing about this is that I gained at least 20 pounds because I couldn't do any long walking without sharp pains running up from the heel of my foot all the way up to my thigh. With the help of physical therapy and all of the stretches that I am learning.
My goal is to be able to participate in a 5k in September. The cause: Autism walk for my cousin's son!
06/29/2011 00:04
Enemy #1: the scale
Yes, the scale is an enemy. Why is it that one day you step on and see good results and the next day it is not so good? Or here is another one. How many of you have stepped on the scale, gotten off, gotten back on and the scale is a different reading? I stepped on the scale three times this morning and I had three different readings. WTH? Which one is right? Is it the one where I gained 2 pounds, the one where I lost 2 pounds, or the one where I stayed the same?
06/28/2011 06:11
From nothing to something
Today was not too bad. I didn't over eat, but I didn't do much. I sat at watched TV almost all day long. I watched my daughter play. She watched TV with me. She read to me. I watched her make a treasure map so that my husband and I could follow when he came home. All these things are ok because I am spending time with her, but it was not very productive. I am supposed to be cleaning house and attempting to go into our shed and try to clean it up a bit. I just don't feel like doing anything.
Things changed a little when my husband came home. I warmed up some dinner. He had the last of the vegetable soup. I had a bowl of lentil soup. I also made some broiled zucchini, which by the way was very delicious. We went for a short drive. When I got home, I felt a little motivated to hop onto the elliptical machine only to find that it had run out of batteries to record the amount of calories I had burned and the resistance that I needed to burn those extra calories. However, I stayed on it and worked out for 20 minutes. I feel better now that I have worked out. Let's see what tomorrow brings.
