Hello Friends
Today I am cautiously welcoming back my friends willpower and determination. It seems they've stuck with me for these last three days while I stared numerous temptations in the face, and won.
Last night I saw that the baseball helmet sundaes were back at Baskin Robbins and of course in this crazy heatwave I wanted one, and had to have it. Don't ask me why, because I'm not really a huge baseball fan (though admit it was growing on me as it was always on the TV no matter where we went in Boston all last weekend), and I really don't need/want the extra clutter around the house, and this is not taking into account that I truly don't need/want the extra calories either. So, I bravely drove right past the Baskin Robbins last night and kept going, ditto to Dairy Queen as well. The me of last week would have given in and worried about the consequences later. The me of this week is stronger and better than that.
This morning I was very tired driving home, and late leaving work and all I could think of was stopping and grabbing a bagel to munch on on the way home, or maybe a Starbucks breakfast sandwich. I spent much time talking myself down off the ledge, and I purposely drove in a direction that took me nowhere near the Starbucks, I stayed in a lane farthest from Tim Hortons so I couldn't get over to get that bagel, and I carried on down the highway. I then spent the rest of that highway drive telling myself that it was only 40mins max to home, and I could have a good healthy bowl of Cheerios when I got there, and give my excess milk to my cat. It's something we've done for years, since I got her really. I'd finish my breakfast cereal and she gets the milk. It's a very endearing routine, and I know I don't have many years left with her, so I love to spoil her in any way I possibly can, and these are special moments between the two of us. You don't need to tell me, I absolutely am a crazy cat lady! :) Anyways, passing several temptations after I got off the highway again, I made it home to my Cheerios, gave the milk to my cat, and slept proud of myself for being strong again. I totally admit that very often in the past it would be very common for me to grab the bagel or the sandwich, and you guessed it, worry about the consequences later. Well, I'm here to tell you, those consequences amounted to a 20-30lb backslide that I could ill afford.
Finally tonight, some jackass left out some angel food cakes on the table at work. They looked fantastic. I know they are relatively low cal and low fat, and probably wouldn't make a huge dent in my progress. But this isn't just about progress on the scale, it's about being the strong person that I used to be, one I can be proud of. Those cakes remained untouched, and I'm now safely tucked away from any food temptation for the rest of the night... until it's time to drive home tomorrow.. ;)
That said, I'm happy to report that after 3 days back to plan I'm already down 7 lbs. I'm sure a lot of it is an equalizing after all the water retention I likely had from the mini-vacation filled with dining out, salty food, drinkies, and of course my run in the crazy heat that I had sausage fingers set in around the 4 mile mark. So, 23 lbs to get me back to goal 1, 38 lbs to go to my revised goal. It seems so daunting, but I can do it.
Now I just need to get through something that has always been an achilles heel for me - a weekend off of work. They've always been so difficult for me, but I know getting through the first one will do wonders for my belief in my own strength. I definitely have motivation, and all the reason in the world to stick with it. I just need to rely on my prodigal friends to get me through this first one..