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5 sleeps!!

I have not even managed to read your blogs - I will have a HUGE catch up after the honeymoon!

I hope you are all well?

I am doing really great.  I have even lost weight!

I am very excited about the wedding!!!

I am grateful:

Busy!

Well, I am losing weight!  All you need is bad flu, no appetite and a tendency to cough until you are ill...  and no I DON"T recommend it!

I am also getting lots of exercise as we are doing touristy things with my FMIL.

We have 10 sleeps until the big day.

I am working until the end of the week...  mostly!  I am mainly working from home and able to pop out to various appointments during the day.

Can't wait until 2pm Friday when I finish work until November 11th!!

Next week will be busy but not stressfully so.  I hope to have some good luck shopping on Saturday though or I will have to do that next weekend.  I have NO thank you gifts for Mum, sister, MC, groomsmen etc yet.  Oh and Ian still has NO SHOES!  We figure worst case he will get married barefoot!

I have read a couple of your blogs, but not all, and I haven't left comments!  I promise to make it up to you all after the honeymoon!  I have grand plans for what size I will be on our first anniversary you see

I am grateful:

My mouth and fingers are related.

I have lost my voice.  And it makes it surprisingly hard to comment on blogs!  Completely irrational, I know!

So please know I am reading just not writing comments.

What Fiona DIDN'T need!

I didn't need to wake up yesterday with Ian's flu

I didn't need to get a call from the doctors surgery Ian had gone to for a medical certificate to call to say he was going to hospital

I didn't need 12 hours in an emergency ward

I didn't need to throw up while they were looking after Ian (at least I grabbed a bowl first!)

What was great though was sleeping last night with Ian home, safe and well.

Also I hardly ate yesterday, between a fear of being ill again and a lack of gluten free food available I ate very little!

I am grateful:

For

Gluten free!

I woke up this morning feeling 300% better.  The gluten has worn off!  I am so much less stressed just from that.  I had a great nights sleep too as Ian no longer has a fever.  Then to top it off the friend I was trying to squeeze in for martinis suggested we defer our catch up until after the honeymoon.  Even less stress!

Ian is feeling a lot better too.  He tells me I wrapped him in my arms most of the night (unusual for me - I am a sleep apart girl!) and he loved every moment!

I am so glad the gluten is gone from my system.  Ironically I had made a decision to be extra extra careful regarding gluten in the 3 weeks leading up to the wedding...  the way I have felt the past 3 days has reinforced that decision (In case I did not say earlier this gluten was not my fault, I was told the chicken wings had not been marinated, ate one and was told as I was about to have my second that they were actually marinated in honey soy!  I was hoping the gluten was minimal but apparently not!)

I am grateful:

That weekend of space?

Gone!  Because Ian is off sick he will need to work that weekend.  So not only will I not get my weekend alone.. he won't be around to help entertain his Mum!

Grrrrrrr!!!

Fiona's Tuesday (18 days to go)

I think I will be having a few wedding 'free' days.  The to do list has shrunk down to things that can only be done just before the wedding... well other than my wedding dress!  My dressmaker is unwell, and I know she will be very stressed about all te work she needs to get done.  I am not worried that I won't have a dress...  she would not do that.... but I feel for her!

Ian is still very unwell and getting grumpy.  Sunday I headed out for a few hours to get some 'space'.  My step mum on saturday night had told me the chicken wings were not marinated..  I ate one and was about to eat my second when Dad said they were honey soy flavoured...  that means gluten.  Gluten (in small amounts) makes me what I call 'prickly'.  I didn't want to be sociable.  I did not want to have to go to my bedroom to be alone.  I love my FMIL dearly...  but on Sunday she was 'invading' my space and also unintentionally inducing guilt cos I felt I should be taking her somewhere.  Because Ian is sick he is not up to helping with entertaining.  So I was irrationally annoyed at him too.  He was spending all his time on his PC.  Not with his Mum!  I did come back and the three of us went for a walk along the wetlands.

Today it is his turn.  I am working from home, his Mum is in the lounge.  He just wants space to feel ill and mope.  Well he isn't going to get it here.  (It is a relatively small house for 3 adults!)  So he has just stomped off to have a McDonalds breakfast.  Food will improve his mood - as will some 'time out'.  I do hope when he gets back he is less irritated.  My stress levels are such that the smallest thing makes me want to burst into tears.

I am used to working from home alone Tuesday and Thursday...  today I have 2 others here with me!

By the way - you all know I love them both dearly.  You also know (if you have been reading my blogs) that most of this is gluten induced.  Though I must admit to being a person who needs space!

On a positive: Ian and his Mum are going away the weekend before the wedding.  So I will get probably too much space that weekend!  This weekend all three of us are going away...  but I usually need less space when I am away from home.

Sorry about the long rambling blog...  I am just irrationally irritated today (and the past 2 days) and needed to express it somewhere neutral!

Today I am grateful:

I want to...

Do you ever feel that you want to be one of the bloggers here posting weight and inches lost...  but just know that it is not going to be you right now?

I want to be one of them.  I want to be redcurvy who reached goal.  I even want to be posting my weight and making a fresh start.

But guess what?

With my FMIL staying, wedding in 19 days, work, etc etc I KNOW it is not going to happen.

I am still basically chocolate free.

But I got on the scales today.  Almost back to 88.  That would be dinner and dessert at Mum's and Dad's the past two nights.  That would be an exercise ban.  That would possibly also be weighing after breakfast!

That would be most likely staying for now.

The plus side is that I am obviously ready to focus again.  After the honeymoon. 

Today I am grateful: