Raspberry Ramblings

What you think => what you do => what you are

11/24/2008 04:22

Best Ever Motivation and weight going up

What can I say?

I have eaten way way way too much chocolate.

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11/22/2008 21:04

Billy Blanks Tae Bo Bootcamp 1

Holy cow!

I did only the start of it really before I was dripping with sweat and had really shaking legs!  I love it!  I will be back to it in a few days.  I KNOW I will be sore!  Good sore!!

Yay for exercise DVD's!!!

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11/22/2008 06:42

Fiona 'fesses up

I haven't exercised again since Tuesday.  I have one lonely star on my calendar.

No excuses.

Good news!  I realised my hormones were a mess having just stopped the pill, remembered last time I felt like this my doctor put me on high doses of fish oil (6 capsules) and evening primrose (1 capsule).  So Thursday night I took some.  And last night.  Been improving (moodwise) daily. 

Does shopping count as exercise?  Last night I shopped for 3 hours and today I walked quite a bit to and from appointments and shops...  no formal exercise though.

My new "billy blanks tae bo boot camp" DVD arrived today... I do plan to exercise tomorrow!  We are christmas shopping from 9am, but the afternoon is free!  If it stops raining (yay for rain, maybe the drought is starting to end???) I will go outside and walk, otherwise it is Billy or the wii.

Promise!

I have been reading your blogs, just not really commenting...  sorry about that!

Today I am grateful:

  • For my wonderful husband
  • For my amazing Mum (she is making our thank you cards AND a little wedding photo album for Ian's Mum)
  • For my crazy, cute and snuggly cat (when she is not bringing in frogs!)
  • For the fact that I may be transferring to a much busier section of the project at work
  • For happiness, sunshine, love and good health

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    11/18/2008 04:42

    Raspberry Exercise

    I walked 3k (about 2miles) and did 20 pushups and 20 tricep dips.

    A good start in my 'getting back to exercise' program.

    I realised I had to do it before I ate dinner, before it got dark, before I got comfortable in the house!

    It worked and I feel great!!

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    11/17/2008 21:06

    Raspberry Tuesday

    Hmmm, snappy blog title!

    TAFE is 'technical and further education' and provide a variety of short courses as well as vocational courses. 

    I am NOT myself right now.  I don't know why.  Hormones?  Food allergies?  Post wedding slump?  Boredom at work?  I am really not sure.

    I did at least have 7 hours sleep last night - almost double the amount I got the night before!

    I am very sensitive and touchy.  I was 45 minutes late for dinner at my Dad's last night (I am NEVER late, I hate it!) and was almost in tears about it. 

    Other than last year when I was in the UK, for the past few years I have had my dad and brother over on Xmas Eve for a meal.  It is the only chance the three of us (and partners) get to catch up over Xmas other than a huge extended family BBQ on the 26th.  My brothers partner does NOT like doing this.  She dislikes my Dad.  So I just emailed my brother to check we were having the meal this year.  But apparently his partner wants to spend time with her Mum and sister.  Her sister will be here from interstate so I understand that.  But I asked if they wanted to arrange an alternative time/date and I got no answer.

    I am seeing dad on Christmas day.  But I love the 3 of us (and partners lol) catching up.  It upsets me that he doesn't care about seeing Dad and I together enough to make an effort.  I am sure he will drop in and see Dad at some stage.  But I won't be there.

    See!!  I am silly and being sensitive about things that are not that important.

    And he may respond to my email and say 'yes, lets do lunch instead'.

    But I can't seem to stop stressing!!

    Aaggghhhhh!!!!

    Today I am grateful:

  • For my husband
  • For my Mum
  • For my Dad
  • For my health
  • For the love that has surrounded and supported me all my life.

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    11/16/2008 16:14

    Hmmmm

    Well I have put on 0.5kg (1.1lb) this week.  I am hoping it is fluid as my eating has not been that bad!

    I will get stuck into the exercise side of things this week.  I must admit I put off doing anything until TOM was leaving.

    I have signed up for some singing lessons.  And emailed an enquiry about dance lessons.  I will go to toastmasters this week - but I think they will be stopping meetings soon and resuming late January.

    I have a plan...  before wedding planning I spent a lot of time in yahoo chat rooms.  Then I switched to wedding planning.  Now that my planning has come to a natural and satisfactory ending, I would like to utilise the spare time rather than waste it!  I would love to find a hobby I really enjoy.  So these few things are to get me started.  In the new year I will see if our local TAFE is offering any creative writing or painting courses.

    Today I am grateful:

  • For my wonderful husband
  • That my wonderful husband had a really good talk with his sister last night (he misses her)
  • That I have plans and feel much less lost than I have the past week
  • That I remembered how I filled my time before wedding planning
  • That I have a chance to explore my creative side.

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    11/14/2008 16:37

    New Incentive!!

    Well, this has a small back story - I hope you don't mind. 

    I am also disclosing very personal details so you have been warned.  I think this is the best place to share (and I really need to) as none of you know either Ian or myself face to face.

    Ian had testicular cancer in his early twenties.  He is also impacted by his weight and other issues in that he is impotent.  I have PCOS.  And I weigh about 20kg above a healthy weight for my height (about 44lb).  Ian weighs about 80kg above his healthiest weight (though he also has lost 10kg this year).

    And we would like to have children.

    Step 1 for us both is losing weight.  This may eliminate my issues entirely.  In Ian's case it should help with some aspects.

    Step 2 is for Ian to have a sperm test (is there a term for that??)

    Anyway...  weight loss just got serious!!  (Sadly after I had a mini choc mud cake and a lime milkshake at our local gluten free cafe for breakfast!).

    • I will ONLY eat when I am HUNGRY.  I will make the HEALTHIEST choice that will still satisfy what I FEEL like eating.
    • I will do weights 2 times each week
    • I will start private dance lessons again
    • I will do 30 mins exercise 6 days a week.  Cycling, wii fit and walking will be my other forms of cardio.

    Oh wow.

    I will also start taking the Blackmore's Conceive Well Gold supllements to make sure I have the right levels of everything my body needs to conceive.

    I will of course get checked over by my doctor before we actually try to conceive - but we will focus on weight loss and improved health and well being in the meantime.

    Wow.  This was what I needed.

    And you may wonder why this seems a surprise to me.... It is because given the most sensitive issues are on Ian's side I am letting him set the pace of this process.  I was not sure how soon he wanted to start focusing on the next stage of our journey together.  Though given I am 38 I am glad it is starting now!

    Happy happy girl!

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    11/14/2008 06:27

    Reading Positivity

    I know 'positivity' is probably not a word!

    But I love how much of it i am reading.

    I have HORRENDOUS hormones - I feel constantly like I am about to cry.  I have eaten 4 chocolate bars today.  As well as a bowl of fries and my dinner (a kind of healthy grilled chicken breast, baked potato and peas).  4.

    Oh well.

    PMS is temporary.

    1 day is not world ending.

    And I enjoyed them!

    I am grateful:

  • That it is Friday night
  • That I have such a wonderful husband
  • That I have great friends and family
  • That I emailed my boss asking for extra work....  so hopefully I will get some and be slightly more busy at work!
  • For my health and happiness

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    11/13/2008 06:03

    Fiona's Thursday

    I had a great day!

    • I 'worked' from home.
    • I tidied the house (it badly needed it!)
    • I got my drivers licence switched to my new name
    • I watched two episodes of Greys Anatomy and 2 of Private Practise
    • We had tea with my brother and his partner
    • I ate reasonably - I only ate when hungry.

    I am grateful:

    • For my husband
    • For my health
    • For my happiness
    • For my family
    • For my friends

    TOM arrived.  That sucks.  Well not that I thought it wouldn't arrive.  But I really hate it!

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    11/11/2008 06:12

    Raspberry Tuesday

    Today was a good day.  I ate only when hungry and made reasonable choices most of the time.

    Ian told me he has lost 10kg (22lb) since we arrived in March.  I am so proud of him!

    TOM is due Thursday so I am not expecting much movement on the scales this week.

    Today I am grateful:

  • To be happily married
  • To be making healthy choices
  • To know that I am going to be slim
  • For my family and friends
  • For my adoring and adorable (slimmer) husband!

    • A little 4 minute wedding highlights video if you are interested:

    http://www.facebook.com/pages/Gold-Coast-Australia/Motion-Art/25126103381#/video/video.php?v=43070531634

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