Gluten free!

I woke up this morning feeling 300% better.  The gluten has worn off!  I am so much less stressed just from that.  I had a great nights sleep too as Ian no longer has a fever.  Then to top it off the friend I was trying to squeeze in for martinis suggested we defer our catch up until after the honeymoon.  Even less stress!

Ian is feeling a lot better too.  He tells me I wrapped him in my arms most of the night (unusual for me - I am a sleep apart girl!) and he loved every moment!

I am so glad the gluten is gone from my system.  Ironically I had made a decision to be extra extra careful regarding gluten in the 3 weeks leading up to the wedding...  the way I have felt the past 3 days has reinforced that decision (In case I did not say earlier this gluten was not my fault, I was told the chicken wings had not been marinated, ate one and was told as I was about to have my second that they were actually marinated in honey soy!  I was hoping the gluten was minimal but apparently not!)

I am grateful:

That weekend of space?

Gone!  Because Ian is off sick he will need to work that weekend.  So not only will I not get my weekend alone.. he won't be around to help entertain his Mum!

Grrrrrrr!!!

Fiona's Tuesday (18 days to go)

I think I will be having a few wedding 'free' days.  The to do list has shrunk down to things that can only be done just before the wedding... well other than my wedding dress!  My dressmaker is unwell, and I know she will be very stressed about all te work she needs to get done.  I am not worried that I won't have a dress...  she would not do that.... but I feel for her!

Ian is still very unwell and getting grumpy.  Sunday I headed out for a few hours to get some 'space'.  My step mum on saturday night had told me the chicken wings were not marinated..  I ate one and was about to eat my second when Dad said they were honey soy flavoured...  that means gluten.  Gluten (in small amounts) makes me what I call 'prickly'.  I didn't want to be sociable.  I did not want to have to go to my bedroom to be alone.  I love my FMIL dearly...  but on Sunday she was 'invading' my space and also unintentionally inducing guilt cos I felt I should be taking her somewhere.  Because Ian is sick he is not up to helping with entertaining.  So I was irrationally annoyed at him too.  He was spending all his time on his PC.  Not with his Mum!  I did come back and the three of us went for a walk along the wetlands.

Today it is his turn.  I am working from home, his Mum is in the lounge.  He just wants space to feel ill and mope.  Well he isn't going to get it here.  (It is a relatively small house for 3 adults!)  So he has just stomped off to have a McDonalds breakfast.  Food will improve his mood - as will some 'time out'.  I do hope when he gets back he is less irritated.  My stress levels are such that the smallest thing makes me want to burst into tears.

I am used to working from home alone Tuesday and Thursday...  today I have 2 others here with me!

By the way - you all know I love them both dearly.  You also know (if you have been reading my blogs) that most of this is gluten induced.  Though I must admit to being a person who needs space!

On a positive: Ian and his Mum are going away the weekend before the wedding.  So I will get probably too much space that weekend!  This weekend all three of us are going away...  but I usually need less space when I am away from home.

Sorry about the long rambling blog...  I am just irrationally irritated today (and the past 2 days) and needed to express it somewhere neutral!

Today I am grateful:

I want to...

Do you ever feel that you want to be one of the bloggers here posting weight and inches lost...  but just know that it is not going to be you right now?

I want to be one of them.  I want to be redcurvy who reached goal.  I even want to be posting my weight and making a fresh start.

But guess what?

With my FMIL staying, wedding in 19 days, work, etc etc I KNOW it is not going to happen.

I am still basically chocolate free.

But I got on the scales today.  Almost back to 88.  That would be dinner and dessert at Mum's and Dad's the past two nights.  That would be an exercise ban.  That would possibly also be weighing after breakfast!

That would be most likely staying for now.

The plus side is that I am obviously ready to focus again.  After the honeymoon. 

Today I am grateful:

Me time

I have withdrawn from the ab challenge as well.  I am going to try and do them anyway...  but with the wedding in 3 weeks, my FMIL staying, going away next weekend, FH saying he thinks he will ask a second groomsman , work actually getting busy and my beauty routine getting serious life has kicked up a gear.

I need some me time that is guilt free over the next few weeks.  So I am not going to do any challenges, not going to put any pressure on myself.

On a lighter note today we went up the Eureka tower and did the 'Edge' experience (http://www.eurekaskydeck.com.au/the-edge.asp).  It was amazing!!!!!

We are trying to show FMIL as much of the area as we can (she is 73 so we have to wonder if she will be back) without exhausting her and while still working ourselves!  It is fun but I am getting tired myself!

Today I am grateful:

Challenge Withdrawal :(

I am sorry, but my osteopath has banned me from even unnecessary walking.

I am allowed to do my dance lessons (mainly because he knew I was going to anyway!) and gentle stretches.  For at least the next 2 weeks.

I am to take ibuprofen for 3-4 days to reduce the inflammation (I refused anything stonger).

But beside all of that, I will do whatever is required to NOT limp down the aisle!  And sadly right now that means dropping out of the challenge.

Sorry Judy!    BUT I promise I will still encourage the other challengers!!

day 12 of 23 with 22 days until wedding day!

Exercise last night was 20 minutes bowling on the wii fit.

It is great having Ian's Mum here, he is so happy!

I have to work in the office today, but that is fine.  My osteopath is near work and I desperately need to see him.  My hip is sore enough that I have had to take pain killers the past two days.

OK better grab a quick breakfast before I head off.

Day 11 of 23 (23 til wedding)

Yes, my 21 day challenge is stretching! Yesterday, in my defense, went like this:

• 4:45am get up and log into work PC to check the status of an issue
• 5am sms team member to ask her to come in at 7am as issue is resolved
• 6am sms team member to confirm she is coming in
• 7:30am find out we still have an issue
• 7:30am til 2pm spend time on phone and email to get new issue resolved.
• 2pm til 5:30pm update 4 people on progress by phone and email, fight fires, get small issues investigated
• 5:30pm leave for airport to collect FMIL
• 9pm get home from airport and eat dinner, chat with FMIL
• 10pm fall into bed

So... you may have noticed a lack of exercise!  Unless I count the trek from the car to arrivals at the airport??  Nah... was not even 10 minutes each way..

So I now have 23 days in my challenge and 2 X's.

I am grateful:

Chocolate free

I don't track my weight - but I do get on the scales sometimes.  I remember the main numbers but not anything after the '.'

So I think I have lost some weight.  It was 88. and is now 87.  I think. 

Amazing what not eating chocolate does!

Day 10 of 22, 24 days til the wedding

I forget sometimes that I have 'new' blog readers.

I have been a WW girl for about 11 years now!  The first time I had great success and got to my goal weight.  Due to other emotional issues I stacked it back on in the same amount of time it took to lose it!

Since then I have tried again and have had periods of success, but it is never sustained.

A few months ago I decided that the pain of being overweight was much less than the pain of dieting for me.  And I recalled an approach a dietitian had introduced me to called 'If not dieting - then what?'.  So I made a decision.  No more dieting!

And the relief was HUGE!

I was just having a day of doubts yesterday.  I know this approach works for me.  I just need to give it time.  And remember to listen to my body!

I am grateful: