Fiona's Tuesday (18 days to go)
I think I will be having a few wedding 'free' days. The to do list has shrunk down to things that can only be done just before the wedding... well other than my wedding dress! My dressmaker is unwell, and I know she will be very stressed about all te work she needs to get done. I am not worried that I won't have a dress... she would not do that.... but I feel for her!
Ian is still very unwell and getting grumpy. Sunday I headed out for a few hours to get some 'space'. My step mum on saturday night had told me the chicken wings were not marinated.. I ate one and was about to eat my second when Dad said they were honey soy flavoured... that means gluten. Gluten (in small amounts) makes me what I call 'prickly'. I didn't want to be sociable. I did not want to have to go to my bedroom to be alone. I love my FMIL dearly... but on Sunday she was 'invading' my space and also unintentionally inducing guilt cos I felt I should be taking her somewhere. Because Ian is sick he is not up to helping with entertaining. So I was irrationally annoyed at him too. He was spending all his time on his PC. Not with his Mum! I did come back and the three of us went for a walk along the wetlands.
Today it is his turn. I am working from home, his Mum is in the lounge. He just wants space to feel ill and mope. Well he isn't going to get it here. (It is a relatively small house for 3 adults!) So he has just stomped off to have a McDonalds breakfast. Food will improve his mood - as will some 'time out'. I do hope when he gets back he is less irritated. My stress levels are such that the smallest thing makes me want to burst into tears.
I am used to working from home alone Tuesday and Thursday... today I have 2 others here with me!
By the way - you all know I love them both dearly. You also know (if you have been reading my blogs) that most of this is gluten induced. Though I must admit to being a person who needs space!
On a positive: Ian and his Mum are going away the weekend before the wedding. So I will get probably too much space that weekend! This weekend all three of us are going away... but I usually need less space when I am away from home.
Sorry about the long rambling blog... I am just irrationally irritated today (and the past 2 days) and needed to express it somewhere neutral!
Today I am grateful:
