Inspired
Sometimes your head is just 'in the right place'. Then you read a blog or two where light bulbs go off all over your brain. That is when you know you are ready to focus again.
Two areas for me that I always treat separately:
Exercise: I am doing Missy Belle's 21 day challenge. I have set myself a 30 minute minimum per day but I can do that in 10 minute chunks if required. This has already paid off - I would NOT have exercised yesterday if not for the challenge. I certainly would not have dragged (literally) my exercise bike from the spare bedroom.
Food: As you know I am 'not dieting'. What I should be doing though is eating only when I am hungry. I can eat WHATEVER I want if I am hungry. It really is not hard to do. But for the past few weeks I have eaten like food is going to be taken away from me forever in just a few weeks. That is I have been eating everything in sight. Mainly chocolate. AND I have not felt hungry in weeks. I have not stopped eating long enough.
Last night I read a blog by Tatumsmum. It really spoke to me. So I started with a bubble bath where I sat quietly and spoke sternly to myself. Out loud. "My name is Fiona Cathryn Tibballs, soon to be Fiona Cathryn Whitehead and I eat only when I am hungry. I will be slim. I will be healthy." I repeated this numerous times. I did some cleansing of my chakras. I got out of the bath and listened to my hypnotherapy CD. I had twitchy legs so was not able to be 'hypnotised'. But that was fine - I still listened.
I woke up this morning just KNOWING that I would only eat when I was hungry. Quite simply that is what I do. Even better I woke up feeling hungry! I have actually not eaten yet (even though it has been over 2 hours) due to running late for work... but I am really enjoying the sensation of real hunger. Stomach rumbling. I am planning in my head what food I will choose to satisfy my hunger.
Today I am grateful:
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update 30 minutes later:
I went to the supermarket to get my breakfast. I got nuts, almond and apricot bars, a banana, a chocolate bar and an apricot bar. NOT all for breakfast! Then when I got to my desk I lay out a small portion of the nuts, the apricot bar and the chocolate bar. Guess what? I did not need even that much! I ate about 10 cashews and the chocolate bar and I am very satisfied! I probably did not need the chocolate bar to be honest, that was a want. But what I am proud of is that firstly I chose how much of the food I purchased I thought would satisfy me and then put away half of it when I realised I did not need that much! This is a huge win for me after the past few weeks of eating EVERYTHING.
PS: I know a chocolate bar for breakfast is not a healthy choice - I am mastering eating only when hungry first. Healthy choices will be more important when I stop eating so often for non hungry reasons. This is a conscious decision as I want to make sure I do not feel I am missing out on anything during this stage of change. I have a tendency because no gluten already restricts my food choices to not cope well with further restrictions. So baby steps it is. Eat what I want as long as a) I am hungry and b) I do not eat more than I need to feel 'satisfied'.
PPS:
11:43am: I am going to update this blog every time I want to eat but I am not hungry. I know it is boredom. Sadly my ability to alleviate the boredom while at work is severely limited! Blogging should help.
Sometimes, it seems that that's all we can do, so --- we need to DO it! It works! Yeaayy!