Under 220... finally!!

I'm finally under 220 pounds, and so so happy!  The wedding was 2 weeks ago, and it was wonderful.  I bought a new dress to wear and I felt fabulous in it!  And the best thing is, when I saw photos of myself I didn't cringe, I actually looked half-decent.  10 more pounds and I will be at the "thinnest" weight that I was during this whole 2 year weight loss thing I've been on, so that will be my fresh start and I can't wait.  It's my birthday in a little over 5 weeks and I so hope to be under 200 pounds for it, I would be over the moon!

I'm exercising every day and watching my calories, and slowly but surely seeing progress.  I wish it would come of faster, but at least the scales are going down.  Now I just have to remember to post more often in here.

xoxox

12 Pounds in 4 weeks - GONE!

I'm thrilled to say today that I weigh 223.2 pounds!  That's almost 12 pounds in the last 4 weeks and I am so excited and super pumped.  I have that wedding in a little over a week and I am proudly on track to what I wanted to weigh by that date (that's been swimming around in my head for the last 3 months)  Time flies!

But I am back on track with eating, and exercising every day and overall I feel great.  And, did I mention, PROUD!

So all in all, today is a good day!

Back in the 20's !!

Not in age lol.. but weight.  (I wish it was age!)

It's been 2 weeks, and aside from getting off to a slow start and a few minor hiccups in the beginning, I am feeling strong and proud.  I've lost almost 6 pounds in the last weeks, I know if I could motivate myself myself to exercise more it would come off a lot faster but I just can't seem to get up off my bum and do it.  But nothing feels better than losing weight does, so I know that once I truly believe to trust in myself again, and begin to feel better and see myself as looking better, I will be re-energized.  It just seems like such a long long long time that I have been trying to be successful with weight loss, and in all truth it's a lifelong battle for me and probably always will be.  But as I have said, this time I will do it.  Plus, the Biggest Loser always gives me an extra boost lol!

I can do it..

Back again and proud to report I had a wonderful day.  I exercised, I did pilates, I went for a walk, I ate 3 healthy meals and it's the end of the day and I can go to bed feeling proud of myself.  I figure if I become consumed with weight loss, then I won't have any time to eat things I shouldn't lol.  So I spent a while today surfing the net looking at other weight loss sites and all the free tools and tips I could find.  And let me tell ya, I found lots!

I have to go grocery shopping Wednesday so I am preparing a shopping list based on the weight watchers diet.  For me it's the easiest to follow and it lets me eat things I want, and also enough food where I feel satisfied and full.  I have tried starving myself, and while it works for a little while it certainly isn't a long-term solution.

Tomorrow, if the weather isn't too freezing cold, I am going to take down my Christmas decorations.  I'm so lazy when it comes to that every year, but I am so glad that the holidays are over!  Food, food and more food.  I can concentrate on myself and my weight loss for the next 5 weeks until this wedding.  I have a "back up" dress just incase I can't squeeze into the one I have my heart set on.  But I so so hope that I can wear that, it still has the tags on it from when I bought it.

11 more weekends till spring!  I can't wait for the warmer weather and I know this year I will be feeling better about myself than I did last year.  I have a brand new bathing suit that I bought 2 years ago when I was first losing weight.  Another of those "one day I will fit into this" items of clothing that I own.  But I am determined to wear it this year!

Off to bed for me.

And again... I start again

I don't know how many times I have started "again".  It's getting so that I hate that word... "again".  Here I am at extrapounds... again.. starting my blog.. again...  Haven't I done this a few times before?  I've been a member so long,  and so many times I have started out with every good intention then after a week or two been so disappointed that I come and delete everything.

But, here I am... AGAIN!

I started to lose weight in March 2006, after I saw a photo of myself at a friend's wedding and was horrified at how I looked.  The term "puffer fish" springs to mind.  And for the first time in 5 years I was brave enough to weigh myself.  275 pounds!  I had always been heavy, chubby kid etc etc, but never in my life had I been that heavy.  So for a few months I worked my butt off eating healthy and exercising, and by July of that year I had lost 50 pounds.  By Christmas (just over a year ago) I was so so close to being under 200 pounds that I could almost taste that number 1.  But silly me, I took a "break" for the "holidays" and here I am one year later, and 30 pounds heavier (again)!  The last 12 months are a blur to me.  What did I do?  I know I was up and down in my half-hearted attempts to get back on track.. 5 pounds up here, 5 pounds down there.

But I found my way here again, and I have found the support (yes again) of 3 amazing ladies who encouraged me oh so long ago and helped me to prove to myself that I actually am capable of succeeding, in finishing what I started.  And it's what I dream of doing, I dream of getting on those scales one day and seeing my weight at 175 pounds.  But that's 60 pounds from here.

My first goal is a wedding in 5 weeks.  The sister of the "infamous" wedding from 2 years ago is getting married, and this time I want to be able to see their photos without cringing.  At the moment I am 40 pounds lighter than I was then.  I am hoping for at least 50.  Am I dreaming.. who knows?  But I am going to try my hardest.  Then after that, July 3rd our 5th wedding anniversary.  I would love to be below the 200 pounds mark for that, it will be the first time that I can ever remember weighing less than 200 pounds.

So armed with this place, my wonderful friends, my weight watchers books, my pilates DVD and my Gazelle Edge glider, and of course my walking shoes... here I go AGAIN.

Only this time I have to remember:

'THE CHIEF CAUSE OF FAILURE AND UNHAPPINESS,

IS TRADING WHAT WE WANT MOST,

FOR WHAT WE WANT NOW'....