Fatty McButterpants

unedited confessions of a fat girl

My Profile

  • Name: Queen Misha
  • City: Houston
  • Region: Texas
  • Country: United States

My Weight Loss

Height: 167.6cm
Start weight: 212.00lb
Current weight: 193.00lb
Goal weight: 150.00lb
Lost to date: 19.00lb
Remaining: 43.00lb

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Before After

WOW... Three Months Later

So its three months after my last post and SOOOO much has happened. First and most important, I am now single! I am happy about this because it was a very toxic relationship that was going nowhere. I had lost quite a bit of weight but he decided that he wanted to get jealous about me going to the gym or going bike riding at the park, and wouldnt "let" me go. It was always something with him. I just couldnt take it anymore so I decided to get out of the relationship. He and I had been together for six years and had gone absolutely nowhere in that whole time. I see couples on TV who are together for two or three years purchasing homes, having kids, things like that. We were in the same place because he, being seven years younger than I, just hadnt grown up yet. Well enough of that I said to myself, and decided to move on. I am so much happier and have began eating and living a more healthy lifestyle.
Secondly, my job has changed. I have been promoted in my company and am now the Senior Administrative Executive.... Fancy Schmancy!! I love my job and look forward to coming every day. But part of the new job is dressing the part, and even though I want to go out and buy the hottest trends that are work friendly - I am holding off until I lost some more weight. What I actually did was purchase three absolutely GORGEOUS dresses in a size 8 (I am a size 12 now, and an 8 is my goal) and I have them hanging from my closet door so I remind myself everyday what my goal is.
And third and finally... I am taking suppliments along with my new habits. I have been taking Healthe Trim for the last week, and I have noticed a huge change. I have lost about 2 lbs since then, because of the gradual change in eating and activity, but the biggest change is how I feel. Healthe Trim does not contain caffine and things like that which only get you 'hopped up' for a few hours, this stuff is all natural and makes me feel great. I will keep you guys posted on the progress, as well as post some before and afters. Thanks for readin!

Put that down....

Well I am sitting at my desk at work with half a Whatchamacallit in my mouth pondering just how I ended up at this plateau I have hit. I was doing so great… I had lost about 25 pounds already and went down about two clothing sizes… things were fitting me pretty great and I even was happy at what I saw in the mirror. Well the last few weeks I have been very up and down emotionally…. Me and my husband split up (my decision) and got back together, we moved back into Houston to be closer to my family and my new nephew, I got a promotion at work and am now one of the big wigs here, and I simplified a lot in my life… downsized on toxic friends, and whatever else was not helping me in any way. I think that I ended up gaining back about 6 pounds because when my husband came back home, I started cooking more for him, we would go out to eat, and his way of showing me affection and that he was thinking of me was to bring me treats when he got home from work… an ice cream cone from Mc Donalds, or a Junior sundae from Dairy Queen. He and I would sit on the patio and eat them and talk about the day or whatever was going on. See he loves to eat. And he doesn’t gain weight (so unfair!!) but me on the other hand, I am sure I am in the same boat as some of you as to where I look at food and I gotta pull my fat jeans out. But anyway, my sister just had a baby so she is wanting to get back into shape as well, so we made a plan to do it together and now that I live two blocks away instead of two towns away, it will be much easier. Hope it works!! I’ll keep you posted….

Guess Who's Back!

yes yes its me, please hold all applause until the end of the night ((bows curtly))

Well, you may be wondering what happened to me.... wow, so much! First and foremost, I now tip the scale at a fabulous 189 lbs (186 this morning when I woke up but hey who's keeping track?)  So I am doing pretty darned good. I sure have missed you guys though but I am here again, I will post another blog and let you know whas'sa been goin on with me lately... its rather dramatic ((insert deep themed music here))

 

smooches!

I need to go to the right, my basket goes to the left...

Okay, I don't know if you guys know this or not but I once again started Curves.... I really do love it and I have been going faithfully for all of three days. Whoooo-hooooo!! They say it takes three weeks to create a habit so I guess that gives me eighteen more days to go before it actually becomes a habit. For right now I have to basically convince myself on a daily basis that this is what I really do need to be doing. And it IS what I need to be doing! I went last night and did my 30 minute round like a good little soldier. Then went grocery shopping.... well I ended up getting one of them baskets that always try to veer off to one side, and being the gung ho exercise enthusiast I am now, I figured “eh, I will just keep the basket and think of it as a mini work out trying to keep this bitch straight...” BIG mistake. After about 30 minutes I was sick and tired of that damned basket but it was too late to get a new one because there was too much crap in there. ugh. Got home and unloaded all of that, put it all up in its place and finally got to lay down. I must say I slept pretty darned good. The good news is when I woke up this morning I was six pounds lighter than I was a week before, so maybe there  is something to all this ‘exercise & eat right’ mumbo jumbo after all. Watch out Angelina.....

 

Poor Lucifer - my pit

Okay, I am a pit bull lover.... I have to say I am a firm advocate for the ethical treatment of the whole breed. They get a bad rap, and its mainly because of the people who raise them. They are raised for the wrong reasons and they are bred for the wrong reasons. In their natural state they are the most loving and loyal dogs. But, like a gun or a bomb or a double glazed choco fudge doughnut, in the wrong hands the results can be devastating. Being a pit bull owner, anytime something happens involving a pit bull on the news or something, I know about it the next day because of the stares I get at work. “SHE owns a pit bull” are the most common whispers, as if I sent my dog out into the world with a terror list to attend to that night. Its pure ignorance, and like many other forms of racism, this is one that I can not stand. What does this have to do with extrapounds?? Well he ate my kolache this morning while I was watching yet another pit bull news signet. (little baby got four of its toes chewed off by a baby pit bull, while the parents were high and passed out on a mattress not even a foot away..... they (the media) spoke with a vet and she said that they puppy was only six weeks old, and was most likely trying to nurse because he was hungry.... so even though it was a pit bull, it didnt chew the toes as a sign of aggression. Poor dogs, they always get a bad rap......

 

 

Here is one for the record books...

New absolute Favorite thing in the world #417:

 

Okay, I don't know if you guys are familiar with this or not, but there is this little granola bar called Kashi Pumpkin Spice and it is DIVINE!!! Well I recently paired this little jewel with some hot lemon tea and Good Night Mrs. Betty it was FAN-TAS-TIC! Picture the scenario... I'm at work, tired and hungry as always, no energy to do what ever it is they pay me to do (temporary dementia has set in at this point) and I have no more pencils to do said work even if I knew what it was because I have thrown them all up in the ceiling (since the last employee in that office drew a bullseye on the ceiling tiles its been nothing but pencil darts for this girl!) anyway, I decide to brave the walk over to the break room and pass my old foe Snacky.... I am just too hungry to care at this point. So I'm almost there and I have the glittery silver coins jingling with excitement in my hands.... what to get what to get? I turn the corner, there is Snacky humming triumphantly. I look into the treasure trove of goodies and lo and behold.... looks like someone has gotten Snacky a new Vendor! Well there are now granola bars, air popped popcorn, trail mix (still gotta be careful with those) some whole grain chips, and some other good stuff that, if I do happen to indulge in, I wont spend the rest of the day pondering what I can pawn in my house to pay for the liposuction I will evidently need afterwards. I'm here to tell you if I had a tail it would be wagging erratically, maybe knocking over a few things such as my beloved pit bulls does when he gets a little too exited! (he cleared the coffee table one day of magazines and cups cause he heard me say beefy treat! I have since learned NOT to utter the words beefy treat unless I get a full clear of all breakable objects!) As the smile spreads across my face like syrup on a pancake I think I hear old Snacky skip a humm or two.... Aint so tuff after all are you Snacky?  with that $0.75 goes in and out comes my delicious Kashi..... thus marking its place in the books as my new favorite thing #417

 

just a little song

 

Jingle bells jingle bells my belly rolls wont stop... can't sit down, without a frown, pants buttons ‘bout to pop... ohhh everybody sing!!!! Have a good holiday folks!

 

Ho Ho Holy Shhhht!!

 

Happy Holidays!!!!!

 

 

 

 

Well the holidays are upon us and surprisingly I didnt gain any weight this time!! Standing in front of the veritable smorgasbord of deliciousness and trying to decipher the good voices in my head from the ones who were only trying to sabotage my hard work from the last two days (the bad ones sounding like the narrator from A Christmas Story now I know how poor Ralphie felt) I actually lost three pounds! How happy was I? good lord almightly! I did eat turkey, dressing of course, and all the other stuff. But I just ate less than I normally would have and didnt go back for a second plate! I enjoyed all the extras and did all the things that you are suppose to do during the holidays and had a really great time. Also, my husband has been more affectionate lately so I don't know if maybe he was just going through his man-stral cycle (this is what I call a mans period, cause as we all know, they can get moody and bitchy with the best of us!) but Anywho... it seems as if things are getting a little better,thankfully.  Oh yeah I posted a new picture of me and my brother... woo hoo

 

 

 HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE

 

 

And the award for Yo-Yo Dieter of the Year goes to.....

Fat Girl Misha

 

Yes thank you thank you!!!, please hold all applause till the end of the speech! Ugh. What a joke! Here I go yet once again.... what was my trigger this time??? Well let’s see, how about the fact that I can't fit into the jeans I just bought a month ago, or the ‘baby’ tees I bought as incentive are now dry-rotting in my fourth drawer.... or even the pictures of me in a bathing suit from last week that made me want to lose my lunch at the local one-hour photo hut? Could it be that I can't pull my chair all the way in at work anymore, or how about that I don't have a ‘figure’ anymore, oh wait or it could be that as gifts my co-workers now give me food items or gift certificates to restaurants instead of the perfume/makeup gifts when I first started working here. But if you think about it it could also be that I wear all my button-front shirts open now with a camisole, or that my jacket only buttons on the third button and I can't bend once it is or it will burst..... Man so many choices.... how bout the fact that I am just plain fat and need to lose some damn weight before I keel over from heart palpitations! BINGO!! We have a winner!

 

and here it is again...

Fat girl!!!

Yeah that’s what they call me.... even though I made my “promise” to eat better in case I decided to obtain myself a criminal career and had to run from the fuzz.... obviously that didnt pan out. Oh well. I don't know what else to say. I beat myself up over it but that does no good. Now there is a different situation... my husband has been acting a little funny. He doesn’t kiss me anymore. Doesn’t hug me. Doesn’t do much. For awhile he always wanted ‘chon-chon’ (our word for “IT”). But for the last two weeks.... NADA! He doesn’t want to go anywhere with me. I know he isn’t cheating, he is too lazy for that plus he is always home or at his brothers house (right down the street) so that is out. The other day I saw him looking at this girl in the grocery store... then he turns to me and says “that’s how you use to look when I met you....”

 

x my stomache dropped. So THAT is what this is all about... I feel like shit now. I can't even think of anything witty. I'm just depressed.

 

 

 

 

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