Cleanse day #2

Weight: 203.4

Honestly, I don't feel much different yet. I'm actually typing this the morning of day 3, and it feels like my stomach is doing the gurgly thing, so hopefully that's a good sign. Perhaps it's ready to actually reject some of the crap that's been building up.

It was surprisingly easy to bypass non-veggies, though. I was at CVS and there was a bin of candy bars for $1, and I didn't even look twice at it. I just have to continue telling myself, "I don't need it," after I'm finished with this. Maybe, occasionally, I can indulge. But not all the time, and certainly not more than once a week. I feel gross and sluggish when I do that.

So here's to Day #3, hopefully I'll start feeling something...

Oh, and I'm pretty sure this "weight loss" is due to the fact that I'm not eating as much, not so much that I'm actually dropping the weight. But we'll see.

Cleanse day #1

Weight: 204.8

I'm trying this internal cleanse, and I'm using this space as my "cleanse log." Started it yesterday. I'll report my weight, how I feel, etc. If I can get my weight knocked below 200, I'll be happy. But the prospect of actually cleaning myself out is also pretty appealing.

Obviously meant to write this yesterday, but what can you do...

Nothing to report from yesterday, aside from the fact I felt hungry all day because I ate nothing but fruits & veggies. I have to train my brain into thinking that, no, you don't need a bunch of crap to feel full. We'll see.

NoNoNoNo

Joined Curves again. Had to get weighed & measured. Learned I've hit that 200 mark again.

DAMMIT.

So the past few years was... what? I'm nearly back where I was when I first started, which makes me feel completely useless.

At least I know I can do it. I just have to do it again.

Amazing how much an additional 15 pounds can make me feel like crap.

My weight

...sucks.

I was doing fine for a while, but then Christmas came. And I ate way too many cookies, had too many snacks from vendors at work, and essentially stopped going to the gym. And now I'm creeping toward 200 again, and I am not happy.

I'm going to a health counselor this week and she'll help me out. We'll figure out why I'm unmotivated and getting fat again. I'm sure it has to do with my crappy diet and lack of exercise, but that can't possibly be it. It's not like I'm eating nothing but crap... just more than I used to.

Skinny people eat cookies, right? Why can't I eat cookies and stay skinny?

Oops

Why, hello weight loss blog.

Not doing to well with this weight loss thing. Stepped on the scale this morning and I'm back in the '90s, and while I don't look completely awful I feel gross. But the holiday season is upon us, so my goal for the next couple months is simply to not gain anymore. And if I could drop five or so pounds before Thanksgiving, that would be equally awesome.

Maintaining

Why hello weight loss blog... long time no see.

I'm pretty much at a stand-still right now, which is okay with me. I want to work on toning and flexibility at the moment, so dropping pounds isn't a huge priority (though would be an added bonus). I've been implementing more fruits and veggies into my diet, which is quite a feat at college, and I feel awesome.

I slacked off going to the gym for a while, so this morning I woke up a little sore from yesterday's workout. But I'm going to get on track again. I have a bridesmaid's dress to look good in soon.. got to get rid of some of that pudge on my back. You know what I'm talking about with the strapless formal gowns.

Medication

I hate medication. But, since I've had acne for the past 4 years, it was time to see the dermatologist. He said to call him if I get any of those fun side effects (dizzyness and nausea, yay) but I seem to be all right.

Ugh. I was going to do a bit of the internal cleansing, but I'll put that off now. These meds are obviously better inside my stomach, whatever it is they're doing. Between the pills and 2 different creams, I can't keep track. I hope the skin on my face doesn't fall off due to all this stuff. Eww.

On a weight-related note, dumbbells are awesome. I almost have upper-body strength now. ha

Gross

I wish I wasn't such an emotional eater. I feel gross and fat, thus I eat more, and then I feel more gross and fat.

Things can definitely be worse, but they could be a heck of a lot better, too. I think I'm also bloated, which doesn't help my case. Don't know what to do to get rid of that.

At least I didn't buy that pint of ice cream tonight. Went for the mini bag of microwave popcorn instead. Not the best idea at 10pm, but at least it wasn't the ice cream.

Organic

Sucks when the food that's actually good for you is more expensive. I really want to buy all my food from the natural & organic store, but since I still depend on the parents to buy food I get whatever is at the supermarket. I still eat healthy, but I'd feel so much better with the natural food.

The supermarket also doesn't carry various things I want, like soy beans. I don't eat red meat, and apparently soy beans have the same kind of protein red meat does (that I'm obviously lacking in). Chicken and peanut butter are great sources of protein, but there's something in red meat that's good for you, too.

I also need to up my fiber intake. I'm eating an apple daily, which helps, and taking a fiber suppliment, but I'd like to depend solely on my food rather than a suppliment. Perhaps I'll invest in some granola (like, when I go buy my beans at the natural food store).

Balancing

This is the daily regimen I try to follow with my food:
4 Grains
3 Veggies
1 Fruit
4 Meats & Beans
3 Milk/Dairy Products
Plus an apple and multivitamin daily.
So far, so good. At this point, I just want to be healthier with my eating habits. If I lose more weight that would be awesome, but it's not my primary motivator. Fruit and veggie intake was practially non-existent, but I force myself to eat those 3 servings of veggies daily. And the "apple a day" tricks my mind into thinking I only need one fruit. yay mind manipulation.

By the way, I figured out this schedule via mypyramid.gov. I like how it takes into consideration your age and gender. Seriously, I doubt my diet would be the same as a 50-year-old man. You know what I mean?