Here we go

I have gained.  So, I'm going back to what worked.  Blogging about my pudgy-ness.

I've been extremely stressed with work, returning from Afghanistan and just getting into a routine.  Finally, though I think I've got a handle on things and now it's time to attack what is causing me some frequent bad moods... not being able to fit into my favorite jeans and having breathing room.

SO... I'm attempting to knock off several pounds by my birthday... I can do it... right?

I Qualified

where have I been

hating my job and eating more bagels than ever!  WHATS wrong with me.

Does anybody like their job? I mean I really hate it today and I have got to find a new one or I am sure I'll be gaining about 30lbs in the next month.  That sounds funny and all but ladies...I think the hate for my job I take out of food.  So sad.  Now I know I am doing this so how do I stop?  I have no idea.

So depressing!

The Night Before

 Tomorrow is my favorite holiday ever!  So Happy St. Patty's Day everyone!

I logged in my mileage this week and I have ran 46.35 miles ...thats the most amount of mileage I've done ever.  So I am excited.

Tomorrow is my day off from exercise so I'll have to watch my eating and be careful around all the green beer but I'm not going to worry too much about it.

Now I am off to check you guys out...

About time

 This is my second time writing this because I lost my wifi connection.

So I did my 6.5 miles tonight and then did another 150 sit-ups and I was going to do more but I was tired and just wanted to go home.

While I was running I was thinking about my whole weight loss journey and how far I've come.  So I decided to post real 'before' and 'after' pictures.

Anyway, you can go look at them.  I have to say that I read a log of your gal's blogs and I always looked at the pictures for motivation and I think I've finally comfortable with uploading mine.

One of my end goals was to have a real 'after' picture...and I do.  I mean I actually lost my real goal amount of weight and anything from here out is a bonus.  I do plan to keep losing until I get to a bikini awesome body...but thats going to take some time and a lot less bagels. haha.

Anyway I sort of wanted thank you gals for posting your before and after pictures and keeping people like me motivated.  Now I will post mine and maybe motivate someone else.  If I can do it...anybody can do it.

Now I am off to watch some really bad reality tv.

Is the day over yet

It's one of those days where I just kinda of want to eat whatever I want.  That and I'm always hungry.  I think I need to go to the store after work and buy some Kashi. I am addicted to that stuff and I am never hungry after I eat it.

What I really want to do is go to the grocery store and buy some of that smart popcorn the white cheddar kind and eat that for dinner.  I mean, I really want to do that.  Since I came back to the US I've been kind of addicted to that.  I suppose there are worse things - like that donut I ate about 3 weeks ago.  There is so much junk food in the US it really does amaze me.

I think I would be fine but whats up with EVERYONE putting candy on their desks?  I hate that more than anything.  Okay...I know, I am in a foul mood still. I hope I snap out of it.

feeling down

I took off from running on Thur/Friday and hit the gym on Saturday but only managed 5.6 miles.  I was just not feeling it and that made me depressed.  I went back on Sunday and managed 7 miles...to make up from Saturday but I feel fatter than ever.  What is going on?

I really just feel like tossing in the towel and making my weight journey end here but I would not be happy with that at all.  I need to keep going and meet my goal.  It's the one thing I have done for myself that I'm extremely proud of...

So heres to making some good food choices...

Sleep and more sleep

 Yesterday after work i came home (skipped happy hour too) walked the dogs and fell asleep for 4 hours.  I woke up and walked the dogs again and headed to the gym...then I when to sleep for 11 hours.  I think I was a bit tired... I hate being tired.

I'll be going out of town for the weekend  - and I am excited to go. I hope that I can stick to my eating plan - Which I haven't made yet so I guess I should go figure out my plan.  :)

Then off to the gym.

Coming to terms

I don't really want to start running more because currently I am logging about 42 miles a week and I enjoy that and I think that if I pushed myself to run more I would quit altogther...  I also know that if I don't change something I am not going to lose anymore weight and  i know I want to lose 17 more lbs.  So I suppose I am going to have to concentrate more on what I am eating.  I think this means that I won't be able to eat my bagels anymore and I need to eat more veggies...I HATE them.

Okay I suppose I hate a lot of food...so I'm going to have to try to start liking some ...but I'm never going to be a broccli eater..that stuff creeps me out.

I do like spinach in very small amounts...with cheese and rice so I suppose that doesn't work too well.

So many new people so I am off to read about you all.

when it rain it pours

 I've just got home from the gym and had a great 6.25 mile run..but for any of you gym goers...does it annoy you when people look at how fast you are going on the treadmill?  It annoyes the crap out of me and I just have to say that.  I get on a treadmill that doesn't have a tv and is usually on the very end so that I can have a little privacy but there is always a few people that get on next to me and watch how fast I am going and try to 'beat' me...I think it's funny.