Project Tubby: Take Two!

Well, that didn't go so well did it?

Tuesday, October 30, 2007 22:07:15

So I'm actually heavier than I was last time I posted. No one else to blame there but myself.

I'm still trying though. I've just recently discovered this awesome NZ mag called Healthy Food Guide. They've got some pretty yummy recipes that use lots of healthy ingredients, and I'm starting to like veggies. Hoorah! Now, just need to push myself into the direction of fruits and I'm all set.

I just have to keep telling myself not to be afraid to fail. I think that's what's holding me back. I can't believe how terrified I am of actually getting off my chair and heading out for that walk. I keep procrastinating and finding other things to do. So my personal mantra over the next few days is: "I'm going to be okay."

Fingers crossed for day 1 (again) success!
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6 weeks to go

Sunday, December 9, 2007 00:07:01

I just want to lose 10 damn pounds by October. I thought that breaking down my target weight by increments would actually make it easier. But I just seem to keep sabotaging myself again and again. Why is it so hard to do and stick to the right things and so easy to succumb to the bad things that make us fail?

I had such good plans for today. I thought I'd go for a walk with my boyfriend, get all my chores done... instead it's 5 in the afternoon, I've done nothing but watch 7 episodes of Scrubs, eat half a large pizza and some hash bites, some chocolate Snickers flavored Pods (mmm...) and Coke (diet, yeah right).

Time to get off my butt!

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still here...

Sunday, December 9, 2007 00:02:20

Yes, I'm still here. Work's just been a little hectic at the moment and I've been recuperating from the damned flu. So I think I've gained back some of my weight post-flu (damn) since I'm no longer on a liquid diet. I still can't shake a stupid cough that comes once in a while, but I reckon it's the right time for me to get off my butt and start exercising again.

I am feeling a bit apprehensive though because I've been feeling so tired lately. I suppose my body is still recovering from the flu, but hey, I've only got 6 weeks to go until I get myself down to 68kgs! So I better get moving... I've decided that I can shop for a really nice little black dress if I manage to get down to 68kgs by my goal date of October 19th. Then I can wear it on my birthday! Yay! :)

I hope everyone's been good. x

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My body is sabotaging me...

Friday, December 7, 2007 23:07:20

... I swear, it is. So I finally decided to get off my ass and take this seriously. So last Monday I went to the gym for a good workout session, thinking I'd go at least 30 minutes every day, an hour maximum. Just to make sure I keep myself moving. So what happens on Tuesday? I wake up sick! And it's been nearly a week that I've been sick. :( So no gym, no nothing.

So... I've also had a preview of what my life is going to be like about 60 years from now. 5 pills for breakfast, porridge as a side, soup for lunch, a banana for snack, soup for dinner, and a dessert of another 5 pills. The result? A bit of weight loss, but mostly due to the lack of solid foods that I know I'll be gaining quickly once I get better. x_x

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the second time around...

Friday, December 7, 2007 23:00:17

... is harder than the first! Ugh. I'm not losing, I'm gaining! To be honest though, I've been gorging myself silly the past week or so. I don't know why I'm finding it so hard at the moment. The first time I was absolutely committed to this, it was so easy to shed the pounds! Hmm, okay, well, easier than this time around.

But I've done this once, so I know somewhere deep down my fat-filled gut that I can do this again. I just need a good kick up the behind. And I know I can count on you guys for that. So help me out here. ;)

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can't eat meat!!!

Thursday, December 6, 2007 21:01:07

After watching the documentary "Earthlings" yesterday, I just cannot stomach the idea of eating meat. Even just walking past the meat section of the supermarket nearly made me sick.

"Earthlings" was a documentary released in 2005, narrated by Joaquin Phoenix. The version I watched was half an hour long, so I don't know if it was the full one that I saw. It talks about animal cruelty, how some circuses, zoos and labs treat animals badly.

But anyway... the images I saw pretty much turned me off the idea of being a meat-eater, so I have a feeling that I've become a temporary vegetarian. It could be a good thing I suppose. We'll see...

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down and out

Thursday, December 6, 2007 22:07:07

Work's hectic at the moment as we've got a managing director coming in for a visit. Everything has to be perfect, etc. etc... so I've had to come in on my day off to take care of my sections of the shop assigned to me. I've worked pretty much about 10 hours today, plus a few extra hours through the week. It sucks that there's no pay or anything, as I receive a salary. Hmph. I can't even get a day off.

So as some of you know, I'm a stress-eater. I just want to eat everything!!! I try to make sure I eat small portions of everything, but obviously small portions of junk is still junk that I shouldn't be eating. *sigh*

I'm expecting a gain of about 1-2 kgs. Bummer. Which depresses me even more and makes me want to self destruct with a massive tub of cookies and cream ice cream.

Stupid vicious cycle. Oh well, things should be looking up after Tuesday.

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shakes anyone?

Thursday, December 6, 2007 22:04:21

I really wish I was talking about yummy smoothies and shakes here, but I'm talking about the shakes after a workout. Does anyone else get this? And what do you do to make it go away? I've got to go to work in half an hour and oh my god my hands won't stop shaking and I haven't looked in the mirror but it feels like my limbs are moving jerkily. Is this normal???

HELP!

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ridiculously sore!

Thursday, December 6, 2007 22:04:18

Hmm, so I didn't get to go to the gym while my mom was here, but I ended up getting an impromptu exercise anyway at work! This massive delivery of books came in (I'd say about 50 boxes weighing roughly 70lbs each!), and I was moving them from a cart when halfway through the door, the cart sagged to the floor! Ugh... and I had to get out of work in 10 minutes! My workmate had a bad back so she helped me out a wee bit but I did most of the carrying... and my god I had to do it so fast it took me 5 minutes to move everything away from the door way! I was sweating as if I've been on the treadmill for half an hour!

No wonder they really do recommend weights for weight loss. :P My arms, my abs and my back hurt like crazy but I'm not going to complain!

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oops

Thursday, December 6, 2007 22:03:00

Well, not so much as oops but more of an "uh-oh". My mom just got back from overseas and she's brought me some favourite goodies that I have not had in four years!

So this morning I've had the most unhealthy breakfast (I got up around noon, yay for days off!) of cheetos, symphony toffee chip chocolates and other such junk. The baby ruth was tempting me too but I said, "STOP!"

I'm going to try to be good for the rest of the day. God knows that never happens when my mom's around! Fingers crossed. I may as well excuse myself and hit the gym tonight too!

I hope everyone's been better than I have!

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