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| Start weight: | 272.50lb |
| Current weight: | 238.50lb |
| Goal weight: | 200.00lb |
| Lost to date: | 34.00lb |
| Remaining: | 38.50lb |
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It has been a week since I started trying to eat healthy and I have lost 4 pounds!!!! This motivates me to want to exercise and keep eating healthy, but I"m so sick right now that it is frusterating. I"m excited to keep going. My sister neeeds some encouragement please send her a message!! She's under my friend list at beamer0821!
The article below was just poseted on yahoo.com. It is about a bride who literally died during her first wedding dance from heart disease. My thoughts go out to her family.
DAVIE, Fla. - Kim Sjostrom wanted a real-life version of the film "My Big Fat Greek Wedding," which played in the background as friends fixed her hair and makeup before her own marriage ceremony.
At 36, Sjostrom was dead from heart disease.
The wedding had became a project at Davie Elementary School, where Sjostrom taught first grade. Fellow teachers provided the wedding gown, the flowers and decorations. One of them, an ordained minister, performed the ceremony.
"It was perfect for her," said Dominic Church, the minister friend.
Sjostrom carried blue and white flowers during the ceremony — the colors of the Greek flag — as she exchanged vows with Efkarpides, a 43-year-old carpenter and Navy veteran. They had met three years to the day before the Jan. 19 wedding.
During the couple's first dance, Sjostrom complained of being lightheaded. Efkarpides thought his wife, a diabetic, needed sugar, but she collapsed.
Wedding guests, paramedics and doctors at a nearby hospital were unable to revive her.
She had a previous cardiac episode in her 20s and was a poster child — literally — for juvenile diabetes, relatives and friends said. Efkarpides recalled seeing the poster featuring her on New York subways.
He consoles himself by reading a list of "101 Reasons Why I Love You" that Sjostrom gave him their first Christmas together. "Number 1. You make me smile."
No. 98 is especially difficult: "You're the one I want to grow old with."
I felt like I was on a roll and then I got sick. I get sick a lot and I try different diets a lot. So it is quite coincidental that when I try a new program I get sick and that veers me off course. I have worked out in 3 days because I have way to many fluids running out of me, but I hope that today will be the worst of it and that I can get back to the gym tomorrow. The good thing is I am still feeling motivated to work out and eat healthy because I want to feel good about buying summer clothes and not think about what can cover me up the best.
Happy Monday!!
I am having a fantastic day!!! I woke up this morning and as my friend R use to tell me, sometimes you can just feel in your stomache when it is going to be a great day. I felt that and I only had 4 hours of sleep, so maybe I was just delirious. I had to go fill out paperwork for my new job and I was excited and nervous. I looked in the mirror and I was like "Hey you don' t look half bad." I also felt thin. I'm sure you all know what I mean by you felt thin. Which I think is just because I eat healthy or am working out it causes me to already feel thin. So I hopped on the scale and I lost 3.5 pounds!!! Now I know realistically it hasn't even been a week and that could flucuate by Tuesday, but it keeps me going. So I'll take it!!
McDonald's update: I ate my chix ceasar salad, 5 fries, and one chicken nugget without the fried breading skin. So I am proud of myself because I'm not a fast food junkie except for mcdonalds so I'm happy that I got away with just eating that. If I ever go again I will continue to work on weaning myself from the food. Thank you for all of the supportive comments!!!!
Today is my first real predicament with food. I have a play date at McDonald's. EEK!!! i LOVE NOTHING MORE THEN McD"s fries! I would not choose to go there and even suggested that we just go to one of our houses but her children have to go play there. I'm just the nanny so I don't have much so say. So I have researched their menu and chosen what I am going to eat and calculated it into my food plan so that I'm all prepared. Luckily, the play center is separate from the eating area, so I don't have to sit there and look longingly at the fries.
sauce 60-1-11
pasta 210-2-38
egg souffle 203.75-7.75-8.25
parmesan 40-3-0
chicken chive dish 208-3-15
mcd's chix ceasar salad w/out cheese 160-2.5-11
ceasar dressing 190-18-4
orange 65-0-16
total: 1136.75-37.25-103.25
exercise: 25 min dance cardio
I have figured it out! I haven't figured out why I can't stop eating, but I have figured out what is going on with my cognitive thinking. I think I am the opposite of an anorexic person. I am such a control freak in every aspect of my life, down to what time I can sit down and watch T.V. That food is the only thing I can't control. An anorexic person tends to have a chaotic life and so they turn to food as the only area that they can have control and power over. I think that I control so many areas of my life that I become overwhelmed and therefore lose all control when it comes to eating.
I tried to stick to my food plan yesterday, but I didn't for no reason. I didn't have to go to work because of the snow and no one was home. I rarely am at home where I have no obligations, where I can just sit and watch TV all day but that was yesterday. So to top off my sedentary lifestyle yesterday, I decided it was a perfect day to binge. So I ordered a pizza, of course I used some control, I ordered a small! HAHA With brushetta and potato skins. I am guessing that I had like 100 fat grams and 5000 calories. While I was ordering I thought of my vacation and wearing a short sleeved shirt in 100 degree weather, and it had no effect on me placing my order.
While I was binge eating, I kept asking myself "What am I getting from this?" What does this do for me? It' like I was trying to psychoanalyze the binge. Yet, I have no answer. Nothing happened yesterday that made me turn to food, I felt great yesterday. Binge eating feels so much like an addiction that I can feel it coming on. Like when you quit smoking and the urge for a cigarette just grows throughout the day. That's the binge I can feel it coming on like vomit. Does anyone else feel this way?
What is fat giving me that thin is not?
I think my fatness is more then just eating bad food. I know how to eat good food and how to exercise. Yet, I don't know why I have urges to binge eat and why sometimes I can just eat "normal." So I am compiling a list of what fat gives me over being thin. I hope within the list I can figure it out. Send me yours if you want!
Being fat lets me......
Just as I thought.....there are no good reasons to being fat except the comfort I may get from food....followed by a stomachache.
Here's food for the day. I also keep the exact measurements of food in a journal at home, but just to get an idea of what I eat I just write the basics. Also, I have been on so many diets and have broken them by bingeing on pasta. I am not a sweet addict, just a carb junkie. So I am trying something new. I eat a 2 oz. portion of multigrain pasta (thank you Dr. Oz) about 5 days a week. I have been doing this for 3 weeks and have yet to binge on pasta. The fact that I allow myself to eat and that it is portioned out helps me not binge on it. Every sunday I make 5 portions of pasta, weighing it on my scale and then each portion goes into a ziplock bag. When i go to work i bring only one ziplock bag and therefore I can't binge on it even if i wanted to. However, I am not gutsy enough to try this method with pizza, because there is no way I could have that much self-control. Also I have such a busy schedule and make a lot of meals for the week on sunday. Even though the food may get boring I'm trying to eat to live, not live to eat. I know that I binge when I don't plan for the day. This way I know exactly what and how much I am eating each day. One more thing, I hate vegetables so I have Jessica Seinfeld's book for kids that I use a lot. For instance, my meatloaf has carrots, onions, green peppers, and spinach in it. My egg souffle has cauliflower in it. This helps me add more veggies to my diet, aka "lifestyle."
lettuce 5-0-1
sauce 60-1-11
pasta 210-2-38
veggie/turkey meatloaf 240-2.35-17.6
egg souffle 203.75-7.75-8.25
parmesan 40-3-0
chicken 150-1.5-0
dressing spray 30-0-3
bleu cheese 75-7.5-0
buffalo sauce 20-0-0
chicken chive dish 416-6-30
Total: 1450-31.10-108.85
I love this website but it doesn't let me put in my own food and activity so i will record it in a blog everyday. My foods are shown with calories/fat/carbs.
exercise: 37 minutes of elliptical at level 13 = 605 calories burned
lettuce 5-0-1
egg/veggie souffle 203.75-7.75-8.25
tomato sauce 90-1.5-16
veggie/turkey meatloaf 240-2.35-17.6
pasta 310-3-58
yogurt 60-0-11
parmesan 40-3-0
chicken 300-3-0
meatballs 83-6-1
shake n bake 70-1-10
dressing 100-7-0
honey mustard 50-0-5
croutons 30-0-5
total: 1591.75- 34.6- 132.85
I have been working out 5 days a week for the past 4 weeks, but my eating is still out of control. So my sister and I are using this website to hold us accountable for losing weight. We are striving to lose weight for a vacation in July. My goal is to lose 72 pounds by July, but I essentially would like to be 140-150 pounds in a year. Lets get started!
