Can you ever fully let go?
I was at a concert last night and before they started they were playing Tool. I instantly flooded with memories of my ex-boyfriend because he use to love them. He is so far removed from my life and I thought all of those little tidbits had been removed from my memory. Not that I forgot them....but that I could hear a band or see someone drink lemonade and no think of him. Other than the music...I pretty much have trained myself to not think of him. So it got me thinking about losing weight and binge eating. Like will I ever fully let it go? Will I years from now see pizza and want to overindulge even after all the weight is gone and if so how do you deal? Am I ever not going to want to binge when I'm upset? How do I train myself to have only one portion of pasta? It has been years since the ex and I broke up, but he has left scars on my heart and yes I'm functioning, but there are times like last night that I feel back to my former self. So how do we fully let go of all of our eating baggage because I let go of all of my ex-baggage, but it still lingers every now and then?
