It's only livin now....
Life is pretty crappy right now, not because of anything huge, just frusterated with trying to find a job (teaching) and having no plan b (because I only have a degree to teach), so I am screwed. I drink , smoke, and eat too much. The craziness that I have spun around me has got to stop so I finally went back to the gym last night and it felt really good. I stopped sulking and just sweated out the bad emotions and was much more pleasant for the rest of the night. Then I even went back to that gym this morning, but after having had a cigarette right before, I was dying on that elliptical, but I puffed and sweated and made sure I burned 500 calories before I got my fat ass off the machine. I am not eating good, but at least I'm not bingeing. I'm going to back to that evil place tomorrow and sweat again and maybe one of these days, I'll officially quit smoking and eat healthy and get a job and move out and get happy....maybe even spring for a boyfriend...who knows? it's only livin now (local H)
p.s. thanks for all of those who support me even after my long hiatus away from supporting them