Blahs...

Hotel room, travel, no protein in dinner and the only evening exercise i got was to walk to the restaurant about 15 min away. But I did manage to get a kickboxing workout in the morning :-) I was really good right until dinner though, there just weren't any decent veggie choices at this place.

Will be glad to get through this walk through tomorrow though. Lots of potential there. I've got my fingers and toes crossed - even though i know it will be a long process, this is the start.

G is out partying with his friends - and there goes the damn dinner I'd had made. sigh. boys... oh well. I'm sure he's enjoying himself and I have only two more days of Shravan left to go and I can be non-vegetarian again! :-)

All better!

Gosh the flu really knocked my socks off - thanks to the folks checking in on me! The fever and cold and cough lasted about 3 or 4 days but the weakness has lingered and lingered. When I went for my first workout post the flu yesterday (I'd just been on really easy walks before that), I could barely do half an hour on the elliptical - and that at such a low speed! My knees felt like they were going to buckle and I didn't even attempt the treadmill. The ONE weight exercise I did attempt was pathetic. It's crazy how long and hard you have work for gains in strength and how quickly they can be totally destroyed.

Fortunately, I have not gained more than half a kg back despite relentless eating - what is it about a cold that makes you want to eat all kinds of comfort food? Now I'd better work to keep the weight off.  Started with the kickboxing workout this morning and my evil evil instructor kept pushing me until I was ready to put his lights out (not that I can touch him, the only way I can get a KO is to bean him with a hard piece of masonry while he is leaving the house and his back is to me)

TOM is expected this weekend though it's been a weird kind of PMS. Today I am recommitting to following my healthy eating plan - made difficult because my mil has left town. Usually I just leave the healthy food decisions to her and don't bother with what's cooking at home (she is so thoughtful and makes up such great menus). Now I'll have to wake up and tell the cook what to make for dinner every freaking day - though thankfully I don't have to worry about G's lunch because this month it comes from my his partner (his uncle)'s home. It's just that I have no imagination!! Poor G would be subject to one vegetable, lentils and chappatis every night if it were always up to me. Sigh...

Anyway - headed to the gym now to try to get back some form. Skinny vibes in all directions!

Got the Flu

DH spent much of the long weekend sick - and then handed the baton to me. Horrible horrible viral flu. Today's the first day back at work for me and I feel terrible.

Only good thing? Weight is down to 77.3!! I know, I know - all muscle mass loss and unsustainable, but i wanted to record it because its the lowest I've been in three years! YAY! It's a ray of sunshine that kinda distracts from the horrendous pressure under my eyelids. And now I have to go to a meeting and then interview someone.

Never hungry - NOT good

Ok so this never being hungry schtick is totally new to me. I've always regulated my meal intake based on hunger and yesterday I missed my afternoon snack of coffee (w milk) and a couple of light digestives - I was in the car when I felt the most massive headache come on. The only time I get that headache is when I am hungry so I ate some almonds, but I was still hungry. I ended up stopping at my parents' place on the way to the gym to have a sandwich (it was a cabbage sandwich - it sounds weird, I know, but it was good).

So now I have to learn to eat my meals  - which are pretty small at scheduled times instead of depending on my stomach to tell me when to eat. Sheesh.

BUT! I did get a great workout in, a very light dinner (I am trying to change my pattern to a heavier breakfast and a v light dinner) and then, I paced the house for half an hour or more after dinner. I felt so good!

Today G has woken up with a cold - right at the start of a long weekend. It's Independence Day here tomorrow. Too bad we can't go anywhere since we're broke and saving up for a trip to Bali end of September with my sis and bil. Fun!! Wanted to check in on everyone since i am not sure I'll get to the comp over the weekend, but I have to go to a prayer ceremony so I'd better run.

Have a great weekend ladies! (Oh btw, 78 was not a complete illusion, just an exaggeration - I weighed in at 78.9 post breakfast and dressed today :-) ) Gotta run!

Hallucination

I had one this morning when I got onto my scale (BAN of course) the scale read 78 kgs! I'm sure this is a strange aberration and that the scale has decided to join the resistentialism movement, but boy, it sure was great to see that figure on my figure!

I started the metformin and you can say loss of appetite (one of the "side effects") again. I haven't wanted to eat AT ALL - someone could shove a pizza in my face right now and I would say "No, thank you". Of course, I am still eating else I would collapse, but it's totally weird for it to be 1:00 P.M. and for me not to be starving for some lunch. Some cottonmouth, but other than that, all is good. One of the side effects is said to be bloat, but not too sure about that.

Needless to say I was an ANGEL yesterday and I even managed to get some exercise in, finally breaking my week long gym drought. I am planning on spending the evening with my overindulgent friend, but I am not worried because I am sure she will have only alcoholic drinks and non-vegetarian food on hand - and I can't have any this month!!

Kickboxing was cancelled this morning because Hemal has gotten 10 stitches on his leg in a road accident!  He says he will be up and about by Friday. Huh??!!! With 10 stitches? So G suggested we work out together in the morning and to wake him up. "NO WAY, buddy!" was my response. If I even TRY to rouse him in the morning, my normally darling and chilled out husband becomes a monster. So I asked HIM to wake ME up. Yeah... right... we woke up at 8:30 and had to scramble to get to work. lol!

Now I'm off - leaving work to meet G at the gym. Yay! Later!

Whatta great weekend!

G was totally pleased and touched - it was romantic (not telling!!), and happy, and except for having to change our room once due to a non-working jacuzzi (one in every room!!) it was ideal. Only problem - too damn short!! Food was controlled pretty decently, but I did drink way too much champagne on Sunday. Not enough steps, but then I didn't wear the pedometer all the time.

Yesterday I went to my endocrinologist who is the most hilarious doctor I have ever met. We chatted for 1 whole hour and he totally ignored all the other patients while I was there!! He is recommending that I take metformin because people (like self) who have a chronic weight problem also have decreased insulin sensitivity. Ok, so I am going to try it, it is supposed to help me lose weight so I can get around to conception without worrying about packing on the pounds too much.

He tells me I should lose 7 - 9 kgs by December. Dude - I have managed to just about lose 6.5 kgs all of last year. How the heck do I manage 9? I have to ramp up my activity levels and seriously watch my diet now.

After the appointment - which went about on for about an hour past the appointed time, I was ready to faint from starvation. Mil, also there for her appt, and I were planning to eat at an Indian fast food place (you will NEVER get this stuff outside of India and it is FABULOUS) but there was a LINE to get into the place at three in the afternoon and an HOUR of waiting!! We ended up walking into the place right next door - McDonalds.

I hate McDonalds and haven't been there for over a year, but I was just so hungry. However, they had a pretty good option - a cottage cheese whole wheat wrap - not bad, thought I. After I bit into it I realized that they had FRIED the cottage cheese - which evil, warped person does this???!!!! (I also admit at this temple that I shared a coke and fries, please forgive me).

Now I don't know about insulin sensitivity, but I have serious cooked oil sensitivity and my stomach has been pretty horribly upset ever since. Sigh. Serves me right. I couldn't even have more than a soup (forced down) for dinner. Still negotiating a bloat and stomach cramps but I WILL go to the gym today. Yay! The siblings have left and now I will return to my schedule like the good girl I am.

I do have a ways to go - we went for a day at the club on Sunday and a friend took pics. I looked so large - and then someone came by to tell me I was photogenic. I hate hearing that. If I am photogenic, then what do I really look like??!! My evil mirror is deluding me into thinking I am slimmer than I am. GOOD LORD!

Holding steady

So this morning my kickboxing instructor came to my parents' place and we trained on the terrace. It wasn't raining and the wind was fantastic. I seriously miss training in the open on the terrace, I miss the beach and I miss the space!! It's been great spending time with the family.

Last night I really slipped and overate to the point of bursting like I used to. I really thought I'd gotten over it, but apprently not. Force feeding myself for the taste of food is something I really have had to work on and I felt a serious back slide yesterday - accompanied by acid reflux. Ugh. Today I'm still feeling the effects, but the workout session really helped. I weighed in at 79.3 in the morning so I haven't done too much damage - but I need to go down, not up!

Tomorrow I am going away for the night with my baby. I have done some serious planning so I really hope he enjoys everything. I've planned total luxury and if he doesn't turn his phone off, it will go straight into the private pool of the villa I have booked. HA!

So picnic basket - check, champagne - check, sexy underwear - check (heh heh). See you ladies on Monday!

A good night's sleep...

... is everything.

Last night I finally went home (after two days at my parents' place). Things went from shitty due to the loss of my wallet to fabulous. Thing is, I came home feeling all emotional about work and the wallet and mom called. I told her how much I missed my grandmother. My grandma was the queen of finding misplaced items. She had this little prayer that she taught me and mom said the same prayer for me. And sure enough, ten minutes later, as G was going through some of my stuff (stuff that I had gone through ten times already), he found it!! I was so grateful and so glad to think that grandma was looking out for me.

So I didn't get my walk in, but I was feeling so fatigued, I slept from 10:30 at night to almost 8:30 this morning! I don't think I've slept that much in ages. I feel so good today!!

Today and tomorrow G and I are planning to spend at my parents' place. We're all going out to dinner tonight and my sis and her hubby have bought a 46" LCD TV for my parents and it is being delivered soon - AND it is a surprise for them . WOW! This should be fun!!

Speaking of surprises, I am taking G to a very fabulous villa hotel on Saturday and have to pack a little picnic basket. Now how do I do this without him noticing??? And what should I put in it??!! I'm thinking champagne, crackers and pate and a few other things that he loves. He's so excited about this - he's been asking me what his gift is non-stop since last saturday. I am going to make sure his cell phone is turned OFF.

Go HOME!

This morning I told my sister - 'babe, I love to have you here, but if you don't go home soon, I am going to become a blimp again and it will be all your fault'. lol

We've been spendng time with one another, visiting friends, the husbands have been bonding (they are a mutual admiration society) and spending a lot of time with family. There has been no serious diet control or exercise. EXCEPT now that I am a vegetarian tee-totaller, there never seems anything really tempting to eat and you can't really gain much from drinking club soda. woohoo! 

That said, we ordered Chinese last night with tossed greens for me. Had a few more noodles than I needed and a fried something or the other, but other than that I was an angel. Did I say my family wasn't supportive? I must have been talking about some other family because they have been really good about adjusting to my diet and keep saying they are proud of me! I wonder when they will just start getting annoyed. (Yeah, we went to the bil's favourite sea food place and while the fam GORGED on fried fish and other preparations, I had my very safe veggie dish - they were pretty shocked)

That said, I haven't exercised since MONDAY. I'm getting gym withdrawal symptoms. I woke up this morning with a horribly upset stomach which I can safely attribute to the Chinese food and had to cancel my kickboxing class. Am going to see if I can get a work out this evening instead.

Btw, work freaking sucks and also I've lost my entire wallet  - with cards, money and, even worse, my driving license. Can't imagine when I could possibly have done it. Am going to check in just one more place before I cancel all my cards etc. How absolutely annoying because it is going to take FOREVER. sigh...

Anniversary Weekend

I really took the weekend off. Friday - no exercise, no kickboxing but eating was ok all day right until the evening. G bunked work and I was still in the neighbourhood having taken my parents' little pup for an x-ray. So we met up and went for a movie together. Really felt like we were back in college - lol!

In the evening he took me to this really fancy place called China House and I got to *finally* wear the dress I'd bought myself. Problem is, I'd bought it a couple of months ago and even though I've lost just a couple of kgs since then, I must have lost more inches because the cleavage was ridiculous! So I just pinned it a little and hoped for the best

Must have worked because G couldn't stop complimenting me all evening. Even got compliments from some of his clients who happened to show up the place's hip and happening club. Of course, I had my stomach sucked in the whole time  

The next day I picked my sister up at the airport - she's visiting for a week. Yay!!! We took the whole family out for dinner Saturday evening. G's and mine. It was a great time even thought it was way too much eating. Didn't drink too much though - just some really great red wine. Dinner lasted till 12:30!! This place also had a bar / club and, after we had bid everyone farewell, G decided all he wanted to do was dance so we danced till THREE in the morning!!

It was great fun but Sunday G was way hungover and I was way too exhausted to work out. So we chilled out together watching cartoons and chatting. Would have been the PERFECT weekend if the air conditioner had been working! Needless to say I haven't really been on track, but it was a PLANNED off track  Ok not really, but I'll deal coz the weight is holding.

Today I have - only one day late - started Shravan. It's one month in the year when you're supposed to go off meat so the earth gets time to rejuvenate. Yeah - no one does this in my family but me - we're a family of anti-traditionalists. And I get loads of support - NOT. I also go off alcohol which REALLY helps me lose weight. Starting has been tough since my sis and her husband (who is purely non-vegetarian - this time all he wants is fish) are visiting this week.

Challenge yes - will Priya succumb? We'll see. I certainly hope not. Fortunately there are ALWAYS vegetarian options at the table. And I did kickboxing this morning! Yay!