Been just about ok...
Not really good, not naughty enough to blog about, you know? Things are just coasting along. Was a good weekend, but not a good weekend - I totally failed on the 21 day exercise challenge by not going for a walk yesterday. G and I spent the whole day in bed watching movies. Was great to chill together 
I ate properly most of the day but in the afternoon afternoon I had some pizza and in the evening it was not brilliant - I ate what I should not have - aloo parathas (potato stuffed wheat flat breads 
), but I was just too lazy to come up with a dinner menu and we were watching a movie! At least I didn't eat too much 
Thing is, about halfway through, I realized that I really wasn't enjoying it. I've had two dinners out - Friday and Saturday and this mess of a Sunday dinner, but I can't say that I have enjoyed them very much (though Saturday was not bad at all, especially since I shared the main course and the delicious dessert which I stopped eating after a few bites). It's just that all the oily taste and the excess carbs just don't have the same mouthfeel as before (my brother develops nutritional products - I learned that wonderful word from him). Problem is, I haven't yet learned what, among the healthy stuff, I really enjoy.
Hmmm... this is a bit of a dilemma. I supposed that all the food I enjoyed were the "cannot haves" but now the "cannot haves" don't taste nearly as good to me. But I still haven't mentally made the shift to - "oh, i'll just have the yoghurt or an apple" yet - you know? My mind seems to think my body will like things it thought were treats before. Then I tell myself that if I don't have it, I will feel like I am on a diet and that I should have it if I really want it - huh??!! I think my mind is screwing with itself due to lack of other drama in my life. 
I do know this is a process, it's been a year and more of changing my attitude towards food and weight loss and it will take longer. I KNOW this, but the moments can be pretty hard work and sometimes I feel so demotivated about the whole damn thing (but not demotivated enough to pick up some chocolate yet). I have more work to do, I just need a bit of zest back.
Btw - festival season started here last month - Dassera last week, karva chauth (starve for the husband) day this friday, then start the pre-Diwali card parties and then 5 days of Diwali in the last week of this month. I have to organize ceremonies for all days and worse yet, make and send out sweets and dry fruit baskets to everyone. Sigh... can't imagine having all that in the house. Thank god the diet and exercise is habit now else I would just say forget it till november!
Hope everyone is doing way better!!