Sooooo Exciting ! I currently weight 189 lbs ! YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I am sooooo HAPPY!!!  I went to my doctor today and at my WI I was at 189 lbs.  This was fully clothed!  I am very excited.  Today I decided that I will have a couple of glasses of wine today to CELEBRATE!  I am even more focused.  I am only 40 lbs away from my goal and I will meet it.  Right now I am healthy, happy and going straight ahead with avengence! How is everyone body doing???  I am going to take my measurememts on tomorrow and we are celebrating my daughter birthday on tomorrow too.  But we will take lots of pics.  I just wanted to come and touch bases with you all.  Be blessed and keep the faith and STAY FOCUSED!  It pays off.

Things Just Going RIGHT.....

Things are great over here in my world and I am enjoying life!  I am working at a job I truly love.  I am loving me and when I am eating, I am eating the healthy smart way!  Things are awesome and I am accepting them one day at a time.  All of my children are enjoying school.  I start with my new school program on tomorrow and life is just toooooo Exiciting...I really need to exercise,  I just decided to come here for a second.  I hope everyone is enjoying their journey as mine is a new experience every single day.  Ambition is the word for today, the more I put into everything that I encountered today, the better off the PAY OFF! Listed below is my Food Log & A Few Other Diamonds!

Food Log -

Breakfast- 1 slice of raisin bread w/ no butter.......YEAH an accomplishment!  60 cal/3 grams fat

Herbal Blueberry Decaffinated Tea!  YUMMY!

water, water.........

Lunch- Parmesan Lean Gourmet Meal w/rice 250 cal/6 grams fat

water.........water............water

Snack- Yummy Watermelon - 100 cal

water...........

Dinner.....Nothing, only wanted graham cracker 180/ 4 grams fat

water.....and tea...

calories for day 590 -700 estimated

fat for the day- 15 grams of fat

"Reason for wanting and needing to lose weight?"

"Because I am only 25 to 28 pounds lighter than my 18 yr old daughter!"

No, the real reason is this:

"I need to be healthy for myself, be full of energy which will in turn allow me to love and give freely to others that  love me and need me!"

Living My Life Like it is Golden !

 I am feeling so loved it is not even funny.  The things that matter most are the things that make us feel GOOD!  I have been feeling really good about a lot of things; my weight loss, my peace of mind (even though there has been more drama!), my children, my job and just the fact that I am alive and well.  I am supposed to go for a WI on tomorrow but I think I am going to go on Saturday.  It is so hard going when I get off work at 4:30 with my having to travel to another city.  I am tempted to change doctors and go to one here that is closer!  But I love my doctor and he keeps giving me compliments every time I come in there about me shrinking away.  "I think I am going to have to continue going to him".  He is keep my head bloated!!! LOL.  Thanks to all my buddies here that always say I am encouraging  yet they contantly encourage me! ~

Anyway life is great and GOLDEN! Listed below is my Food Log:

Breakfast - Watermelon 90 cal

Water, water

Lunch - Lean Gourmet meal 250 cal/6 grams fat

Water, water...............

Snack - More delicious watermelon - 90 cal

Dinner - Lean Gourmet Meal w/salibury steak, veggies and mashed potatoes 190 cal/ 6 grams fat and 75 cal /3 grams fat

Lots and Lots of water.........

my appetite was a little strained today..... But there are just days when I will eat and want to and other days when FOOD is the last thing on my mind..........But it seems I have done better than I thought!  Good for me!

Total Cal/ 795 cal (estimated)

Total Fat/15 grams

"Reason today for wanting and needing to lose weight?"

#1 Reason.........Because Simply, I Own My Own Existence!

~God Bless!

188 Bound and Loving Life !!!!!!

Yes!  By the end of the week I will happily be 188 lbs.  This is the GOOD LIFE!  I am loving life and staying focused.  God is so Good, unfortunately I have had more DRAMA but I refuse to settle and just let that crap consume me.  I am so happy with my progress, it seems that my body is in somewhat of a SLUMP or is just slowing down, but like my doctor told me, your body will definitely slow down due to you having less weight to lose.  Sooooo, I am good.  I am doing MARVELOUS at my job.  I got a SUPERSTAR award with a $50 star bucks to use at the company store and the great thing is this.  The store has starbucks cards (my favorite) and walmart gift cards (MY second favorite).....I was tickled pink!  How is everyone doing???? I am going out of town in early October to visit a friend for a few days....I so need a break.......Well,  I need to go and clean my room, exercise and do some reading I will be back all.........How are you all doing????

Food Log

Breakfast -

Canteloupe - 90 cal

water, water..........

Lunch- Lean Gourmet Salisbury Steak w/mashed potatoes 190 cal/ 6 grams fat

Snack......been busy today and this has made an increase in my appetite!

2 graham crackers - 120/ 3 grams fat

Water, water.....

Dinner- Lowfat chili.....Chili w/turkey, garlic, onion, tomatoes .....emmmmm OMG it was DELICIOUS!  I need a change and this was a GREAT one!!

Total cal/ 250/5 grams fat

(the calories for the chili may be a bit much, but I want to make sure and not cheat myself!)

Total Cal- 550 cal

Total Fat-  14 grams

No more Days Counted........Just Remaining Focused.

I am doing awesome.  I am happy, I smile and I am still losing....I am going to try and change things up a bit, just so I don't get bored coming here!!!  I changed my page design last week I think and I only come here every couple of days.  I got a lot going on...But it's GOOD things!  First of all.....I have been accepted as the BACKUP TRACKING CONSULT person at my job. After only 2 months of being there...........ACCOMPLISHMENT!  I have lost over 40 lbs since May 29th.  I have excused a negative person out of my life.  I love me more today than I did yesterday.  I will be taking an online course for Health Information Management starting at the end of this week.  And lastly I am so grateful for peace of mind, I have been sleeping in my room every night !  Still remaining focused on my healthy eating habits and just praying everyday that I continue.........Well, I will be back later........BE BLESSED ALL.......

Food Log:

Breakfast - a bowl of yummy watermelon 95 cal

Water, water

Lunch - Delicious Chicken veggie soup, 185 cal/3 grams fat

water...........

Snack - Rice cake 50 cal/1 gram fat

93rd DAY! Today I am Sleepy..........

Life for me is GOOD, I am sleepy but being sleepy doesn't erase the fact that I had a great healthy eating day!  I have been pretty bummed out lately because we have had a few people on leave (vacation) within the last couple of days and that wears thin on each one of us when the work is intended for 4 bodies and there is only two working.  I am so exhausted.  I am going to rest these bones on this weekend..........Last weekend, I reconnected with a GREAT friend and we went out to dinner, to a barbeque and just spent some great time together and this person allowed me to realize how great and genuine of a person I really am.  MOST times when you can see the beauty in others, it tends to make you want to see what you may be able to offer.  I don't have much, but I have a kind heart, I am willing to listen and if you need a shoulder, I have two!  So, I am floating.   Feeling good, moving on and trying to forget the past quickly.  A friend said something to me that made me go huuuuuuummmm, but it was a great thought!  IF I thought the times I had this weekend were good, in the future I will be viewing those times as worst....Which seemly means that he is going to do all he can to make me a happy lady.........AND I LOVE IT!  Sooooo, now is the FOOD LOG:

Breakfast - coffee w/half and half  35 cal/3 grams fat

1 rice cake - 50 cal/ 1 gram fat

water, tea

Lunch - Lean Gourmet Meal/ Chicken w/spinach and noodles 250 cal/6 grams fat

1/2 cup of watermelon........emmmm delicious! 75 cal/no fat

water..tea....water....water

Dinner- Lean Gourmet Salisbury Steak Dinner 190 cal/6rams fat

Late Snack- Rice cake- 50 cal/1 gram fat

Taste of mommy's homemade soup.....60 cal/2 grams fat

Total Calories - 770 total

Total Fat - 19 grams

"Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight"

#1 Because right now, feels DA! Marvelous!!!!

# 2 Because I am 2 Sexy For Myself and I desire to beSexier !

#3 The most wonderful Reason better than all the reasons noted above????  I brought a size 12 dress over the weekend to go on my dinner date and it fit WONDERFULLYYYYYY! And I can't wait until I am buying a smaller size !  Life is Grand.

90th Day!!!!

Hey Buds!  I hope everyone enjoyed their long weekend.  I did.  My weekend was very busy!  I went out to dinner, went to a lounge with a live band and I went to a cookout.  Things are great right now....I am in a happier place.  I had my weigh in, I am down 3 lbs.........yeahhhhh, I am truly on my way.  I wish I had had a bigger lost, but the main thing is this........I LOST and didn't gain.  A few days while my TOM was still on also, so the lost may be greater, but I won't do another WI until next Saturday!!!  I have enjoyed this weekend though, it has been busy but good....I went to dinner with a dear friend, who allowed me to realize again that LIFE is WONDERFUL.  I didn't eat much, but I still enjoyed myself!  Well I had better go for now, listed below is my FOOD LOG:

Breakfast- Watermelon.........emmmmm, yummmy 120 cal

Water water water.......

Hot Tea..... I am still battling a scrathy throat!

water, water, water..........

Lunch  - Brocolli and Cauliflower 70 cal/2 grams fat

Broiled Fish - 140 cal/3 grams fat

Dinner- 4 oz of grilled chicken breast  145 cal/2.0 grams fat

1 cup of brocolli and cauliflower  100 cal/2.0 grams fat

Water and tea..........

Total Calories 575 cal

Total Fat - 10 grams

"Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight"

#1 Because life is too short already, to die due to the complications that being overweight gives us is not worth it!

Some of the complications that are fatal due to being overweight are.....

Diabetes

High Blood Pressure

Congestive Heart Failure

Not all of the above reasons are directly related to being overweight, but they are some of the complications! Some of the elements that are a result of being overweight....

1) Achy joints

2) Swollen knees and ankles

3) Achy, sore lower back

4) I actually got headaches!

There are so many negative things related to being overweight.........People are Cruel to!  So lets just lose weight and live our lives..............Good Night Beautiful People!!!!

Wheee, Now it is HOT! 86th day....

Hello friends!  This is a quick post because it is late and I was up last night until 2 am on the phone!  Talking to a old friend and just having a great time........Anyway this is a quick shot out to all those wonderful friends of mine who let encouraging and loving words on my blog from the other day.  YOU all made me feel encouraged and wonderful and I am so grateful to have you all here.........:o) Thanks again and Good night........Below is my Food Log...

My Food Log

Breakfast - coffee w/nonfat and half and half

45 cal/2 grams fat

water

canteloupe - 90 calories

water.........water..........water

Snack- nectarine 65 cal/1 gram fat

Lunch- Lean Gourmet Shrimp w/veggies 250 cal/6 grams fat

water.......water .....water

Dinner........Nothing, and i know this is a big no, no....but sometimes I get so consumed in other things!!!!

"Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight"

# 1 I want to lose weight and I need too!"

#2 Cuz I love sassy shoes and the lighter I am the higher  the heel I can wear.

#3 Cuz I know I am beautiful and NOTHING feels BETTER than SKINNY Feels..........

"Okay yeah, today's reasons were silly but they are true!"

I will have my WI on Saturday!!!

God Bless and Good Night..

Okay....This is what I accomplished !!!!

I slept in my bedroom after not being able to do it for over a month.  Unfortunately, I was a victim of vandalism by an ex-boyfriend.  Late one night, while sleeping I was awaken by the crash of glass to my sliding glass window in my bedroom.   (He literally threw a  huge concrete rock thur my window...) Only because I no longer wanted the relationship, due to other problems that I was not able or willing to deal with.

This has been a devasting experience for me, but definitely a lesson learned.  No, I am on here putting my business in the street but being real, and letting people know that bad things happen to good people. 

 I pride myself on the fact that I love and care for everyone.  I am one to give my very last, but sometimes giving is not enough.  I have moved on, I am healing and trying to put this situation in the past, yet it still haunts with me.  Emotionally, I am not where I want to be but I am working on getting there EVERY single day.  I know that I can and will come out of this fearful state because God wants what is better for us and he wants us too want the same for ourselves.

   I can't  and won't yet forgive this person, but I want too someday, it is what GOD desires of us. My current affirmations are.........

1. I will continue to be the woman I am. 
2. I will try very hard to forgive this person not only for hurting me physically, but emotionally as well as mentally.
3. I will love all people UNCONDITIONALLY regardless of what they do too me.
4. I will continue to eat healthy and exercise because falling into the habits of unhealthy eating/emotionally will make me gain weight and only be a temporary fix.
5. I WILL LOVE ME REGARDLESS!

Although my life is not exactly where I want it too be, I am still on that road to trying to finding  it.  My positive nature is not tarnished, but has been frazzled a bit.  I ask that everyone continue to be my buds on here and I will do the same!  I thank you all for being wonderful blogging buddies.....Listed below is my Food Log:

Breakfast - Chocolate Macadamia Coffee 45 cal/4.0 grams fat & banana / 90 cal/1 gram fat

Lunch- Farmers Salad w/dressing 160 cal/0 fat

w/salad dressing 65 cal/4 grams fat

Water...water...water

Snack- Canteloupe 90 cal

Water...water...Water....

Dinner - Chicken Florentine/250 cal/ 7 grams fat

Total calories - 655 cal

Total fat-             16 grams total

"Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight"

I believe when I lose this extra weight, it will give me the strength to say what I mean and to mean exactly what I say.  It will give me courage to stand up to people regardless, because in the past I have at times felt I have had no voice, it will give me wisdom, it will give me some new found courage, it will give me a NEW FOUND STRENGTH....But overall it will give THE TRUE ME BACK TO ME.  When I lose all this weight, I will have find the true me that was LOST so long ago....

82nd Day @ Nite..... New PIC !!!

I am on my way to bed and had to come here and blog.....Well, the day went pretty good.  But it is yet another chapter tonite.  I hope I can do this.........Do what you say?  I will tell you all on 2 morrow if in fact I can do it.  We will find out in the morning if it was a success or a failure.  I am remaining positive and hopeful.  Listed below is my Food Log:

Breakfast/Lunch- Lean Gourmet Salisbury Steak w/brocolli  240 cal/7 grams fat

Water......

Snack - canteloupe 50 cal

Water

Snack - Banana 90 cal/ 1 gram fat

Dinner-  Steamed Fish w/brocolli 260 cal/5 grams fat

Another Snack- Banana 90 cal/1 gram

Total calories - 730  cal

Total fat - 14 grams

My caloric intake was okay today, yet I struggle with trying to get it up too 1200 per day.  My fat intake per day should be 20 grams and most days I struggle with that.  I know that stress plays a great factor in how we do things in life and hopefully once I get this area in my life in check again, I will then be able to work on eating healthy, eating right and taking care of myself!  I truly am a survivor.  It has just been a really rough war for the past month.  I will be back tomorrow too all of you I wish you well on your journey.  It is a long and rough one, but if we put our minds, hearts and heads together.  We will be able to journey right on through! 

"Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight"

~ I need to find the true me, she's been hidden for so long~