Okay....This is what I accomplished !!!!

I slept in my bedroom after not being able to do it for over a month.  Unfortunately, I was a victim of vandalism by an ex-boyfriend.  Late one night, while sleeping I was awaken by the crash of glass to my sliding glass window in my bedroom.   (He literally threw a  huge concrete rock thur my window...) Only because I no longer wanted the relationship, due to other problems that I was not able or willing to deal with.

This has been a devasting experience for me, but definitely a lesson learned.  No, I am on here putting my business in the street but being real, and letting people know that bad things happen to good people. 

 I pride myself on the fact that I love and care for everyone.  I am one to give my very last, but sometimes giving is not enough.  I have moved on, I am healing and trying to put this situation in the past, yet it still haunts with me.  Emotionally, I am not where I want to be but I am working on getting there EVERY single day.  I know that I can and will come out of this fearful state because God wants what is better for us and he wants us too want the same for ourselves.

   I can't  and won't yet forgive this person, but I want too someday, it is what GOD desires of us. My current affirmations are.........

1. I will continue to be the woman I am. 
2. I will try very hard to forgive this person not only for hurting me physically, but emotionally as well as mentally.
3. I will love all people UNCONDITIONALLY regardless of what they do too me.
4. I will continue to eat healthy and exercise because falling into the habits of unhealthy eating/emotionally will make me gain weight and only be a temporary fix.
5. I WILL LOVE ME REGARDLESS!

Although my life is not exactly where I want it too be, I am still on that road to trying to finding  it.  My positive nature is not tarnished, but has been frazzled a bit.  I ask that everyone continue to be my buds on here and I will do the same!  I thank you all for being wonderful blogging buddies.....Listed below is my Food Log:

Breakfast - Chocolate Macadamia Coffee 45 cal/4.0 grams fat & banana / 90 cal/1 gram fat

Lunch- Farmers Salad w/dressing 160 cal/0 fat

w/salad dressing 65 cal/4 grams fat

Water...water...water

Snack- Canteloupe 90 cal

Water...water...Water....

Dinner - Chicken Florentine/250 cal/ 7 grams fat

Total calories - 655 cal

Total fat-             16 grams total

"Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight"

I believe when I lose this extra weight, it will give me the strength to say what I mean and to mean exactly what I say.  It will give me courage to stand up to people regardless, because in the past I have at times felt I have had no voice, it will give me wisdom, it will give me some new found courage, it will give me a NEW FOUND STRENGTH....But overall it will give THE TRUE ME BACK TO ME.  When I lose all this weight, I will have find the true me that was LOST so long ago....

Sorry

sorry about all the things that has been happening to you.  Wow that is a lot.  As a child our house got broken into several times and as you can imagine your since of security is lost for a while.  You are in my thoughts and prayers!!!

I think that we do first of all need to allow ourself be angry, be sad (grieve the loss), then we can continue on to the healing process of forgiving.  This is all a part of it!

Looks like you are doing  awesome eating wise.  Cantalope?  I just had some of the sweetest cantalope ever a couple of nights ago. yum!

Have a good night!  Be safe!

GOODLUCK!

YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AND AS LONG AS YOU STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF, LOVE YOURSELF AND KEEP GOD FIRST THERE IS NOTHING THAT MAN CAN DO TO BRING YOU DOWN! STAY FOUCUSED, AND DETERMINED TO MEET YOUR GOAL! I AM ROOTING FOR YOU!

HEIDI

Yes!

Love the honest blog, so good for you to talk to yourself in that positive way.  and the new reason each day is inspiring for me too! 

It is so wonderful that you're back in your room.  Honestly, he won't be back to act that stupid again.  Really, you are smart to move on and sleep in your own bed.

Em

Bravo to you!

That is such a big step in your healing process--moving back into your room to sleep.  I can't imagine how scary that must have been, but I love to see women take their power back!

I will most definitely say a special prayer for you tonight--for peace.  There's nothing like peace of mind, and I wish that for you. Stay strong.

P.S.  You look great in your new picture!  You're so fortunate that you don't seem to gain any weight in your face at all!  You're rockin' that dress and those shoes!

Wow

So sorry that you are having to deal with this at all.  I have never had it happen to me so i can't begin to tell you what to do or how to act, but your mind and spirit seem to be in the right place all on your own.  Stay strong and stay focused on you and your success.  You CAN do this and you are worth it.  God will never give you more than you can handle.  Have faith and stay strong.  If you stick to your diet and exercise you will feel so good and also feel good about yourself.

You come first to you don't forget that.  Take care of yourself we are all here for you!