53rd DAY!.......And still no picture! My photographer fell asleep!!!
I had a great day today....Still in training at work and starting to sit with people and learn the job hands on. I am loving the job, life and EVERYTHING overall....Well, I go to the doctor for my weigh-in tomorrow. We will see what I have really done....
Only thing is this....everytime I go, my TOM is lurking around the corner and I am one of those who gain before it starts!!!! Grrrrrhhhhhh....but I will be fine. Just as long as I know what the deal is.....I want to be thin so bad....I am sure a lot of you understand......but I want to be healthy too. Today! I wore a skirt to work that I brought 2 years ago, when I got home and tried it on, I couldn't fit it. Yes, unfortunately I am one of those women who trys on NOTHING!!! I look at it and if it looks like I can fit it, I buy but! I always save my receipt. Just in case I can't get in it....you know? The skirt today is toooooo big, I was able to put the skirt on, without zipping it down! And also, my tank top that I wore under my little jacket was toooooooo big, I normally wear a XL due to my double DD's, but the tank top was to big. I can tell you this much, it is wonderful to see and realize that even when your scale seems as if it is just STUCK, you are still losing if you are continuing on the right road. And I am, haven't waivered. A very good friend of mine brought me ballons and a cake on my B-day and I am proud to confess that I ate a piece of cake (the size of a postage stamp) and I had no guilt. I believe I had no guilt because I am learning everyday that it is not always the things we eat, but the amount that we eat. Again when I went out I was told "my God you're losing weight!". Again, I smiled and said thanks....One guy actually told me that he was really really proud of me and my sudden transformation....I told him, "it's not a transformation, but a lifestyle change". He winked at me and moved on....The positive comments of others, keep me positive....I will continue to lose this weight, because I love me! And I realize that I need to continue on this journey to get where I need to be.....
Food Log-
Breakfast - coffee w/half & nonfat 30 cal/1.5 grams fat
Rice cake - 50 cal
Water
Lunch - My old faithful!!!! Lean Gourmet Shrimp & Veggies
250 cal/6 grams
Snack- Cherries - 140 cal
Water.....water........
Dinner - Cabbage w/Lean Turkey Sausage 140 cal/4 grams fat
Water........
Total Calories - 610 cal
Total Fat- 11.5
"Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight"
"I need to prove to myself once again that I am capable of whatever it is I put my mind to do, that it CAN and WILL be ACCOMPLISHED"
WE will all do this!
Steps total before workout - 18,200 steps today on my pedometer........Yahooooooo!
PS My birthday was wonderful, my daughter made it so wonderful, not for the gifts she brought, but the card! I love my girly!!!
The day before my b-day my younger said something's to me that were hateful, vicious and things I would never say to someone I wasn't very fond of.....But I forgive her for it and I didn't allow that to ruin my night....Instead I'll continue to pray for her! I am so happy that I have matured into the woman I am....Thank God.