Day 40 ! Frustrated and Crying ! !
Today I am sad, I feel like I am straving myself and all for nothing. A week and no weight loss, I am in yet another FUNK. I feel so discouraged and I don't get this way often, but by golly, I should have lost some pounds by now! This is just unfair, I am following my plan, not cheating and still no weight loss! WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON ? I started the new job on Monday of this week and everything there is great, I love the people, I got my badge and I go and get my finger prints done on tomorrow. I guess I am really FRUSTRATED 
grrrrrhhhhhhh because I want to reach my goal of ONEDERLAND before my nephews wedding in August. I have nothing to prove, but it is just a personal goal I would love to reach! I don't usually get down like this, this is new for me but I have just had a little minor breakdown! I mean crying and all. I got on the scale this morning....NOTHING and so I tried to see if something could shake up this evening and NOTHING again. Totally and completely FRUSTRATING!!!!!
When you are doing all that you are supposed to and nothing. I have been at a plateau at what seems like forever, but I will not GIVE UP, I must GO ON! Coming here is my strength. YOU all give me the strength to want to go on. ( even when I'd rather have chocolate cake or my favorite pecan roll at my favorite donut shop) I guess eventually it will happen. I will meet my goal, but oh the HELL you have to go through to get there. I know it is recommended to never say NEVER.....But I am making changes, making moves and revamping my life. I WILL NEVER BE FAT AGAIN......Listed below is my food log:
Breakfast - Coffee w/nonfat & half & half 40 cal/1.5 cal
Rice cake 50 cal/2grams fat
water
Snack - Cherries 140
Lunch- Smart Ones Turkey Medallion w/rice and mixed veggies 260/1.5 grams fat
water
water
water
(I am having to make myself eat still!)
Dinner - 4 0z of broiled fish 160 cal/3 grams fat
1 cup brocolli - 65 cal/2 grams fat
Total Calories - 715 cal
Fat Total - 8 grams
****And although I love opinions and help from other going through my struggle, please no one say anything about my fat intake today, I literally struggled to get it there****
When I work I don't eat as many calories and as I said in one of my blog entries early on, I am having a problem, if I increase my calories my fat is lower. If I lower my fat my calories increase. I need to find a happy medium. The good thing is this, I am keeping on just going through a phase today. Good Luck to EVERYONE!
* Today's reason for wanting and needing to lose weight*
ONCE I lose all my weight, I will hopefully never shed another tear over anything that has to do with weight or weight loss....because emotionally I am tired of it!