THIS IS HOW I LITERALLY LOOKED AS I STEPPED ON THE SCALE SATURDAY!!! I GAINED 2LBS....WTF!!!! SERIOUSLY, I AM FRUSTRATED, AND DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF. I AM EATING RIGHT AND EXCERCISING, DRINKING MORE THAN ENOUGH WATER. I JUST CAN'T GET THE SCALE TO MOVE I HAVE BEEN HOVERING AROUND THE SAME POUNDAGE FOR ABOUT 2MONTHS..HELL MAYBE LONGER..ITS LIKE I LOOSE 4LBS TO GAIN 2...NO ONE TOLD ME THIS JOURNEY WOULD BE EASY BUT NO ONE SAID IT WOULD BE THIS HARD EITHER. I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP OR QUIT..THEN I WOULD KNOW THE DEVIL GOT THE BEST OF ME. BUT ITS JUST FRUSTRATING AND DISAPPOINTING..BUT I AM GOING TO LOOSE IF ITS THE LAST THING I DO. I REFUSE TO GIVE UP!!! I JUST WON'T LET MYSELF....NO MATTER WHAT THE SCALE SAYS I WILL NOT LET IT GET THE BEST OF ME.
WELL I WENT TO THE GYM AS SOON AS I GOT HOME. YOU GUYS WOULD NOT BELIEVE IT WAS ONLY ABOUT 4 PEOPLE IN THERE...I COULD HARDLY BELIEVE MY EYES. I KNEW IT WAS BECAUSE OF THE TIME BECAUSE WHEN I LEFT IT WAS ALMOST FULL. I AM SO GLAD I WENT EARLY (RIGHT AFTER WORK) NOW I AM AT HOME KICKING MY HEELS UP GETTING MYSELF READY FOR TOMORROW WORK DAY. MY WEEKEND WAS OKAY. I HUNG OUT WITH A COUPLE OF FRIENDS AND JUST KINDA KICKED AROUND AT THE HOUSE. I WENT TO THE GYM SATURDAY MORNING FOR ABOUT 45 MINUTES. THEN I LEFT AND JUST KINDA LOUNGED AROUND THE HOUSE....
ON TO GOOD NEWS...I FINISHED MY VERY FIRST MASTER CLASS!!! YESS!!!! I DON'T THINK I DID AS WELL AS I WOULD HAVE LIKED BUT I AM GOING TO KEEP TRYING AND DO THE BEST I CAN!! WELL YOU CHICAS HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK..AND I WILL TALK TO EVERYONE TOMORROW!!!
HEY EVERYONE!!!..WOW..ITS BEEN A COUPLE OF DAYS SINCE I POSTED..SO I MISSED WEIGH IN ON SATURDAY. MY OLD ROOMY WAS HERE AND I HAD TO TAKE HER TO THE AIRPORT TO CATCH A PLANE WELL HER AND MY FRIEND DANTE MISSED THERE PLANE SO I HAD TO GO PICK THEM BACK UP..TALK ABOUT A HETIC SATURDAY MORNING..I BEEN MEANING TO WEIGH MYSELF AT THE GYM BUT THE GYM IS USUALLY SO PACKED THAT WHEN I GO IN I GO STRAIGHT TO WHATEVER MACHINE I AM DOING BECAUSE IF I DON'T I WILL HAVE TO WAIT...
MY WEEKEND WAS GREAT! I WENT TO A BIRTHDAY PARTY. i WAS FEELING GREAT. I WASN'T THINKING DOES THIS MAKE ME LOOK REALLLY FAT OR ANY OTHER NEGATIVE THINGS ABOUT MY OUTFIT. WELL I DIDN'T GET NOT ONE, NOT TWO , BUT I GOT 3 NUMBERS...TALKING ABOUT ACCENTUATING THE POSITIVEI STEPPED OUTSIDE OF MY NORMAL REALM OF CLOTHING..YOU ALL KNOW THE BORING BLACK...AND SPICED IT UP A LITTLE...AS I WAS WALKING IN MY STELITTOES(HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT) BACK TO MY CAR I PUT A LITTLE EXTRA SWAGGER IN MY STEP BECAUSE I WAS LOOKING GOOD...I AM LEARNING..TO ACCENTUATE THE POSITIVE. i MIGHT NOT BE AS SKINNY AS I WOULD LIKE. BUT I AM TAKING BIG STRIDES IN MY QUEST FOR A BETTER PERSON PHYSICALLY,MENTALLY, AND SPRITUALLY BUT WHO SAYS YOU CAN'T FEEL GOOD ABOUT IT ON YOUR WAY. MY SELF ESTEEM ISN'T ALWAYS THE BEST. ESPICALLY NOW...ALLLL MY FRIENDS ARE GETTING MARRIED, HAVING FAMILIES AND MOVING ON TO THE NEXT CHAPTER IN THEIR LIVES. I OFTEN I FIND MY SELF BEATING MYSELF UP FOR BAD DECISIONS I HAVE MADE, FOR BEING OVERWEIGHT..BUT SATURDAY I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE THAT..I FELT LIKE A NEW PERSON. SO FROM HERE ON OUT...WEATHERI LOOSE 10LBS OR 100LBS I AM ACCENTUATIN THE POSITIVE!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS HERE AT EP...YOU ARE SHAPING ME INTO A BETTER PERSON!!! HAVE A GOOD HUMP DAY!!
WELL THIS WEEK HAS JUST BEEN A BLUR TO ME. I GOT HOME FROM FLORIDA ON MONDAY NIGHT. THEN I HAD TO BE AT WORK THE NEXT DAY AT 6AM. I FEEL LIKE I AM JUST GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS I ONLY WENT TO THE GYM TWICE THIS WEEK. AND THOSE 2 TIMES I WAS THERE I FELT LIKE I WAS DRAGGING. BUT HEY AT LEAST I WENT! NEXT WEEK I AM SETTING MY GOAL AT GOING THE WHOLE WEEK! I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT. EVERYTIME I LOOK AT THE BRIDESMAIDS DRESSES. I AM RECOMMITTED. I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP ON THIS RACE. ONE DAY I AM GOING TO LOOK UP AND HAVE LOST LIKE 20 LBS.. I BELIVE IT.
ON MY WAY HOME FROM FLORIDA I STOPPED IN VALDOSTA GEORGIA TO VISIT MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY. I HAD DINNER THAT EVENING WITH MY TWO GOOD FRIENDS WHO ARE GETTING MARRIED. THE WEDDING THAT I AM IN. WE HAD THE MOST INTRESTING CONVERSATION. WE SPOKE ABOUT HOW WE NEED TO SPEAK POSITIVE THINGS. THAT IS SO TRUE. OUR TONGUE CAN BE OUR MOST POWERUL WEAPON. WE SHOULD BE SOOO CAREFUL WHAT WE SPEAK ON OURSELVES!! MY GOAL IS TO SPEAK MORE POSITIVE THINGS. SPEAK EXISTENCE INTO MY WEIGHT LOSS PLAN. IF WE THINK NEGATIVE WE RECIEVE NEGATIVE RESULTS. IF WE THINK POSITIVE WE YEILD POSITIVE RESULTS I AM A FIRM BELIEVER.
THIS WEEKEND IS GOING TO BE A BUSY BUT YET RESTFUL WEEKEND. I HAVE A BIRTHDAY GET TOGETHER TO ATTEND TONIGHT. TOMORROW MORNING I AM HITTING THE GYM AND WEIGHT WATCHERS AND SUNDAY I AM GOING TO HIT THE GYM AND PROBABLY RIDE TO ATHENS FOR THE DAY TO HANG OUT WITH MY FRIEND. HER MOM HAD A STROKE SO I WANT TO GO AND SHOW MY SUPPORT! THEN ITS BACK TO THE WORK WEEK AND EXCERCISE MY GOAL..THAT I CHOOSE TO ACCEPT. HIT THE GYM EVERYDAY THIS WEEK!! I ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE..MY IPOD IS GOING TO BE WORKING OVERTIME!!!
HEY EVERYONE!!! I AM BACK HOME...I GOT BACK HOME LAST NIGHT AROUND 10PM I WAS TOTALLY EXHAUSTED MY BROTHER HAD ME TIED UP ALL WEEKEND I DIDN'T GET TO SPEND THAT MUCH TIME WITH MY MOM AND GRANDMA..BECAUSE HE HAD ME EVERYWHERE BUT HOME!! BUT I HAD FUN ON MY MINI VACATION. I GOT IN ONE MORNING OF EXCERCISE I WENT WALKING ON BAYSHORE...I'LL TAKE IT...IT WAS MORE EXCERCISE THAN I USUALLY DO ON VACATION. WELL I SKIPPED TODAYI WAS POOPED WHEN I GOT HOME. I WASN'T THINKING ABOUT ANYBODY'S GYM. I WAS JUST TRYING TO GET IN MY BED!!! I HAD TO BE TO WORK AT 6AM, BUT I ATE GOOD TODAY...I ATE REALLY GOOD I WAS PROUD OF MYSELF BECAUSE I WAS CRAVING SOMETHING SWEET THIS AFTER NOON WHEN I GOT OFF BUT I WAS TOLD MYSELF NO!! I FOUGHT IT AND I WON. OH YEAH..BEFORE I FORGET I KNOW ITS NOT A SECRET BUT THE CHOCOLATE PUDDING WITH NO SUGAR!! WOW !! ITS SOOO GOOD..ITS BY JELLO..CHOCOLATE PUDDING WITH NO SUGAR!! IT WAS SO GOOD..JUST SWEET ENOUGH TO SATISFY ANY CRAVING OR SWEET TOOTH YOU MIGHT HAVE..WELL I AM GOING TO HAVE TO TALK TO YOU GUYS A LITTLE LATER...BED TIME..I WILL TELL EVEYONE MORE ABOUT MY TRIP TOMORROW..
WHAT A VACATION...THE ONLY THING GOOD THAT HAS CAME OUT OF IT SO FAR WAS I AM HOME WITH MY MOM, MY GRANDMA AND BROTHER. BUT ITS COLD, CAN YOU BELIVE IT? FLORIDA COLD!! HERE I AM THINKING...'YEAHH.....I AM GOING TO FLORIDA ESCAPE SOME COLD WEATHER FOR A LITTLE WHILE KICK BACK AND ENJOY MY SELF...." WELL I GUESS MOTHER NATURE HAD SOMETHING ELSE PLANNED FOR ME. THIS MORNIN WHEN I GOT UP TO RUN A ERRAND...I FELT LIKE I WAS BACK IN ATLANTA..I HAD TO WARM THE CAR UP AND DEFROST THE WINDOWS..THE ICE HAD COMPLETLY TAKEN OVER MY CAR....WELL ANYWAY I CAN'T REALLY COMPLAIN I SURE THE PEOPLE IN THE NORTH WOULD MUCH RATHER HAVE THIS WEATHER THAN SNOW
MY TRIP TO TAMPA WAS REALLY GOOD. I LEFT MY DOG AT THE KENNELL SO I DIDN'T HAVE HER COMPANY I MISSED HER ACTUALLY.. BUT I AM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF I HAD ANOTHER NON SCALE VICTORY. ON THE WAY UP I JUST HAD SOME WATER AND A GRANOLA BAR..I KNOW I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE STILL AT BREAKFEST AND STUCK TO MY EATING PLAN...BUT I DIDNT BUT I AM HERE TO REPORT I HAD NO CANDY, JUNK, OR SODA OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT...NO FAST FOOD ON THE ROAD OR ANYTHING..WELL ACTUALLY WHEN I STOPPED TO GET GAS IN WILDWOOD, FLORIDA.. I HADN'T ATE ANYTHING AT THAT POINT BUT A GRANOLA BAR AND HAD SOME WATER. THERE WAS A POPEYS AT THE GAS STATION. I WAS GOING TO GET SOMETHING BECUASE I HADN'T HAD ANYTHING ALL DAY WELL...I JUST WASNT GOING TO WAIT IN THAT LONG LINE...THATS WHAT SAVED ME...AND BESIDES I WAS JUST SO ANXIOUS TO GET HOME AND I WAS SO CLOSE TO TAMPA BY THEN I JUST DIDN'T SEE ANY REASON FOR WAITING I ATE WHEN I GOT HOME.
YAY! ITS VALENTINES DAY! TODAY WAS SUPPOSE TO BE AN EXCUSE TO JUST EAT EAT EAT ALL THE CANDY THAT YOU WANT....NOT ME. TODAY AT WORK WE HAD A CHOCOLATE PARTY FOR VDAY!! WELL WE HAD CHOCOLATE CAKE, CHOCOLATE CHEESCAKE, CHOCOLATE BALLS, CHOCOLATE BROWNIES, CHOCOLATE FONDUE'S WHITE CHOCOLATE..NAME IT THEY HAD IT...COOKIES, CANDY, EVEN PUNCH...WELL BEFORE I GO ON..I HAD TO GIVE MYSELF A PAT ON THE BACK I AM REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF I HAD NONE...NOT A BITE, NOT A PEICE..I HAD NADA!!! IN ORDER TO TAKE PART IN THE CHOCOLATE BUFFET YOU HAD TO BRING SOMETHING OR PAY 2 DOLLARS..WELL I DECIDED NOT TO TAKE PART. 1 BEING I WAS NOT GOING TO MAKE ANYTHING..I AM PICKY ABOUT THAT MY GRANDMA ALWAYS TAUGHT ME NOT TO EAT FROM EVERYBODY HOUSE....SHE SAID YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL WHO HANDS YOU EAT BEHIND BECAUSE NOT EVERYONE IS CLEAN..AND THAT IS VERY TRUE!! THE SECOND THING WAS YOU COULD DO TO INDULGE WAS TO PAY $2 DOLLARS...NO...I AM TRYING TO SAVE MONEY...FOR MY NEW COACH PURSE..EVERY PENNY COUNTS. WELL ANYWAY PEOPLE WAS COMING OUT WITH 2 AD 3 PLATES OF FOOD...THAT WAS NOTHING BUT CANDY AND PURE CHOCOLATE...TODAY I FINALLY BELIEVED THAT THE STATISTICS ARE TRUE AMERICANS ARE THE FATTEST..EVEN IF YOU DECIDED TO TAKE PART YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO BE GREDDY!! WELL ANYWAY I SAT THERE WITH MY SALAD AND WATER AND WHEN I WAS FINISHED I GOT UP..MY WILL POWER WOULD NOT LET ME TAKE PART..I AM REALLY PROUD, BECAUSE 4 MONTHS AGO I WOULD HAVE BEEN SITTING THERE STUFFING MY FACE WITH EVERYONE ELSE....THOSE DAYS ARE LONG GONE..I AM DESTINED FOR GREATNESS AND LOOKING THE BEST IN MY BRIDESMAID DRESS...THATS MY MOTIVATION THAT ALONE WAS ENOUGH FOR ME TO SAY NO THANKS
WELL I AM GOING TO TRY AND HIT THE GYM FOR ABOUT 30 OR 45 MINUTES I AM STILL WORKING ON MY RESEARCH PAPER..AND I NEED ALL THE TIME I HAVE TO DEVOTE TO MY PAPER BUT ITS OKAY I AM ALMOST DONE..I AM GOING TO GO HOME WORK ON IT THEN AROUND 7:15 IF i AM ON PAGE 8 OR 9 (IT HAS TO BE 12 PAGES) i WILL GO AND GET IN MY FULL WORK OUT...WELL YOU GUYS HAVE A GREAT REST OF THE DAY..AND JUST SAY NO..TO THE CANDY...CUPID IS TRYING TO PLAY A TRICK ON US..WE DON'T NEED THE CAKES AND CHOCOLATE TO BE HAPPY...
Well no gym today!!! I had to stay home and work on my research paper. I am actually almost done... but I have to get it fully done before I leave for out of town on Thursday!! I don't want to go on mini vacation with that on my plate. My day was pretty so so...tomorrow is Valentine day and I have no valentine..Its just going to be me and summer (my dog) we will probably watch some sucky love movies tomorrow after I get home from the gym. I might as well go..its not like I have date tomorrow I am so excited about going home I can feel it I just need a break..espically from my job. I am so tired of my job I am just trying to hold on...but its too the point I drag in to work not really wanting to be there. I am going to have to really pray on this situation because its not the best or healthiest situation to be streesed and not liking what your doing. Like my grandma say...I am only there for a reason and season..
That just made me realized that me coming to this EP sight was divine intervention..God knew I needed some motivation in my life and EP friends like you guys!! Thanks!! Well you guys have a nice evening.!!
ITS JUST NOT ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY!!! TODAY I WAS REALLY BUSY...I WENT TO WORK OF COURSE THEN I HAD TO GO FITTED FOR MY BRIDESMAIDS DRESS. AFTER PUTTING THE DRESS ON ....I WAS LIKE DAMMIT!! I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT TO BE IN THE WEDDING..I FELT LIKE A STUFF TURKEY IN THE DRESS...I HAD TO GO UP A SIZE BECAUSE I'M SO TALL THAT THE DRESS WAS TOO SHORT...I WAS LOOKING LIKE UMMMMM...I HOPE I LOOK BETTER ON JUNE 23RD!! WELL ANYWAY.. I RUSHED HOME CAUGHT MY BREATH THEN WENT TO THE GYM. I ONLY HAVE 3 DAYS AT THE GYM THIS WEEK BECAUSE I AM LEAVING FOR TAMPA ON THURDAY AFTER WORK...THANK GOD FOR BREAKS!!! I AM OFF FRIDAY AND MONDAY..HOW DID I GET SO LUCKY..WHILE I WAS AT THE GYM I WAS THINKING OF SOME PLACES I COULD GO EXCERCISE WHILE I AM AT HOME IN TAMPA..FRIDAY I WILL GO TO THE YMCA NOT TOO FAR FROM MY HOUSE IN TAMPA THEN ON SATURDAY AND SUNDAY I WILL PROBABLY HIT UP BAYSHORE BLVD....I HAVE TO EXCERCISE WHILE I AM ON MY BREAK..BECAUSE WHEN I BREAK FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS THEN GO BACK TO THE GYM..I DRAG!! I HATE THAT FEELING. WELL I AM OFF TO WORK ON MY RESEARCH PAPER BECAUSE THAT TOO HAS TO BE DONE BEFORE WEDNESDAY!!! ....WELL YOU GUYS HAVE A NICE EVENING TALK TO EVERY TOMORROW...!!
HI EVERYONE!!! I HOPE EVERYONE WEDNESDAY IS GOING REALLY GREAT!!! MINE HAS BEEN GOOD SO FAR. I HAVE ALOT OF MY MIND TODAY FROM MY RESEARCH PAPER THAT IS DUE SUNDAY TO THE UP COMING WEDDINGS AND JUST LIFE. LAST NIGHT I BLOGGED ON MY MYSPACE WEB SITE..(WWW.MYSPACE.COM/ZSWEET03) AND I JUST WAS THANKING GOD FOR EVERYONE THAT WAS IN MY LIFE. I HAVE THE BEST FRIENDS AND FAMILY ANYONE CAN ASK FOR!! WE OFTEN TAKE THEM FOR GRANTED BUT WE SHOULD BE APPRECIATING THEM MUCH MORE THAN WE DO. WE ARE ALL JUST SO CAUGHT UP WITH OUR OWN THINGS AND OUR OWN LIVES THAT WE OVERLOOK THE SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE THAT HAS MADE US THE PERSON WHO WE ARE.
YESTERDAY I MET A WOMEN WHO HAD ACTUALLY WENT TO THIS WEIGHT DOCTOR BY THE NAME OF DR.SMITH. SHE EXPLAINED TO ME HOW GREAT SHE DID ON THE PROGRAM (ALL WHILE EATING MCDONALDS) AND HOW SHE LOST SO MUCH WEIGHT. SHE TOLD ME I SHOULD CHECK IT OUT. I WENT HOME AND LOOKED HIM UP ON THE WEB AND READ ABOUT HIS PROGRAM AND PRICES. I CALLED THIS MORNING AND MADE AN APPOINTMENT FOR TOMORROW, BUT I HAVE BEEN STUGGLING WITH IT IN MY MIND FOR ABOUT 2 HOURS NOW. RIGHT BEFORE I STARTED BLOGGING I CALLED AND CANCELLED THE APPOINTMENT. I DON'T WANT THE HELP OF PILLS. I WNAT TO DO THIS ON MY OWN. IF I JUST PUT A LITTLE BIT MORE EFFORT, IF I PUT A LITTLE BIT MORE ELBOW GREASE INTO THE EQUATION I WILL LOOSE MORE WEIGHT AND GAIN ALOT OF SELF RESPECT. I CAN DO THIS! NOW DON'T MISUNDERSTAND ME. I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST ANYONE WHO USES MEDS TO LOOSE WEIGHT. TO EACH THEIR OWN. BUT AFTER MUCH CONTEMPLATING AND PRAYING AND TALKING TO MYSELF WHILE AT WORK THIS MORNING I HAVE DECIDED AGAINST IT. IF I DON'T LOOSE BUT 10 MORE LBS BEFORE THE WEDDING I WILL WALK DOWN THAT ISLE WITH MY HEAD HELD HIGH THANKING GOD EVERY STEP UP THE WAY BECAUSE HE HAS A GREATER PLAN IN STORE FOR ME AND HE KNOWS MY DESIRES OF MY HEART. HE IS GOING TO WORK WITH ME. I KNOW. I JUST HAVE TO BE PATIENT AND KEEP PERSERVERING. I AM GOING TO DO GREAT! SO I AM TAKING THIS TIME TO RECOMMIT MYSELF TO DOING BETTER TO GO THAT ONE EXTRA STEP DOING IN THE AFTERNOON...INSTEAD OF JUST LETTING SUMMER OUT TO WALK HERSELF I MIGHT JUST WALK HER TO THE MALL AND BACK...TAKE HER TO THE TRACK..ITS THE LITTLE THINGS THAT WILL HELP ME MAKE IT TO MY GOAL...
I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL AND BLESSED AFTERNOON AND HUMP DAY!!! ITS ALMOST THE WEEKEND YESS!!!!
WOW!!!!! GO COLTS!!!! I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT WEEKEND JUST AS I DID!! I HAD A REALLY BUSY WEEKEND SO I WASN'T ABLE TO GO TO THE GYM BUT I DID GET IN MY VIDEO WORKOUT SATURDAY AND SUNDAY SO THATS A GOOD THING. I REALLY WOULD HAVE MUCHED RATHER WENT TO THE GYM. BUT WHAT CAN YOU DO IF YOUR BUSY!! AT LEAST I DID SOMETHING.
I WENT AND SAW THE ALVIN AILEY DANCERS THIS WEEKEND AT THE FOX IN ATLANTA. THEY WERE ABSOULTLY EXCELLENT. I REALLY REALLY REALLY ENJOYED THE SHOW. I CAN NOT WAIT UNTIL THEY COME BACK TO ATLANTA SO THAT I CAN SEE THEM AGAIN. I WISH I COULD DANCE LIKE THAT BUT THATS OKAY I WILL TAKE THE TALENT GOD GRANTED ME WITH AND CONTINUE PLAYING THE PIANO.
A FRIEND OF MINE WAS IN TOWN THIS WEEKEND FOR HER BIRTHDAY. WELL DURING THE SHOW I SHE WAS TALKING TO ME ABOUT MY WEIGHT LOSS... WE WERE TALKING BUT SHE DID SOMETHING I JUST CAN NOT STAND. PLEASE DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO ....THIS IS WHATS GOING TO MAKE YOU LOOSE...DON'T MISUNDERSTAND ME BUT I WELCOME ALL SUGGESTIONS. WHEN I STARTED THIS WEIGHT LOSS THING I ARMED MYSELF WITH AS MUCH KNOWLEDGE THAT I COULD TO HELP ME. BUT SHE WAS JUST SO PERSISTANT...YOU NEED TO GO TO THE TRACK AND RUN THE STRAIGHTS AND WALK THE CURVES.. I TOLD HER THAT I GO TO THE GYM..AND SHE SIAD...NO DON'T GO TO THE GYM THATS A WASTE OF MONEY. YOU HAVE TO BE OUTSIDE AND I PROMISE YOU WILL LOOSE THATS HOW I LOST..WELL BE THAT AS IT MAY..THAT WORKED FOR HER. I GUESS SOME PEOPLE JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND ESPICIALLY IF THEY NEVER HAD A WEIGHT ISSUE.THAT NOT EVERYTHING WORKS FOR EVERYONE. I JUST SOON GOT REALLY TIRED OF HER TALKING TO ME ABOUT SO I JUST WENT ALONG AND SAID OKAY. MY GRANDMA ALWAYS TOLD ME WHEN A FOOL IS TALKING LET THEM TALK. BECAUSE REALLY I WAS TRYING TO FOCUS ON THE GAME AND ENJOY MYSELF THEN TALK ABOUT WEIGHT AND EXCERCISE. MY WEIGHT AND MY WEIGHTLOSS IS A REALLY BIG PART OF MY LIFE BUT SOMETIMES YOU JUST NEED A BREAK SOMETHING ELSE TO THINK ABOUT.
WELL I HOPE THAT YOU GUYS ENJOYED YOUR WEEKEND AND I WILL TALK TO YOU GUYS SOON!!
THIS IS HOW I LITERALLY LOOKED AS I STEPPED ON THE SCALE SATURDAY!!! I GAINED 2LBS....WTF!!!! SERIOUSLY, I AM FRUSTRATED, AND DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF. I AM EATING RIGHT AND EXCERCISING, DRINKING MORE THAN ENOUGH WATER. I JUST CAN'T GET THE SCALE TO MOVE I HAVE BEEN HOVERING AROUND THE SAME POUNDAGE FOR ABOUT 2MONTHS..HELL MAYBE LONGER..ITS LIKE I LOOSE 4LBS TO GAIN 2...NO ONE TOLD ME THIS JOURNEY WOULD BE EASY BUT NO ONE SAID IT WOULD BE THIS HARD EITHER. I AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP OR QUIT..THEN I WOULD KNOW THE DEVIL GOT THE BEST OF ME. BUT ITS JUST FRUSTRATING AND DISAPPOINTING..BUT I AM GOING TO LOOSE IF ITS THE LAST THING I DO. I REFUSE TO GIVE UP!!! I JUST WON'T LET MYSELF....NO MATTER WHAT THE SCALE SAYS I WILL NOT LET IT GET THE BEST OF ME. 
MY WEEKEND WAS OKAY. I HUNG OUT WITH A COUPLE OF FRIENDS AND JUST KINDA KICKED AROUND AT THE HOUSE. I WENT TO THE GYM SATURDAY MORNING FOR ABOUT 45 MINUTES. THEN I LEFT AND JUST KINDA LOUNGED AROUND THE HOUSE....
I STEPPED OUTSIDE OF MY NORMAL REALM OF CLOTHING..YOU ALL KNOW THE BORING BLACK...AND SPICED IT UP A LITTLE...AS I WAS WALKING IN MY STELITTOES(HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT) BACK TO MY CAR I PUT A LITTLE EXTRA SWAGGER IN MY STEP BECAUSE I WAS LOOKING GOOD...I AM LEARNING..TO ACCENTUATE THE POSITIVE. i MIGHT NOT BE AS SKINNY AS I WOULD LIKE. BUT I AM TAKING BIG STRIDES IN MY QUEST FOR A BETTER PERSON PHYSICALLY,MENTALLY, AND SPRITUALLY BUT WHO SAYS YOU CAN'T FEEL GOOD ABOUT IT ON YOUR WAY. MY SELF ESTEEM ISN'T ALWAYS THE BEST. ESPICALLY NOW...ALLLL MY FRIENDS ARE GETTING MARRIED, HAVING FAMILIES AND MOVING ON TO THE NEXT CHAPTER IN THEIR LIVES. I OFTEN I FIND MY SELF BEATING MYSELF UP FOR BAD DECISIONS I HAVE MADE, FOR BEING OVERWEIGHT..BUT SATURDAY I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE THAT..I FELT LIKE A NEW PERSON. SO FROM HERE ON OUT...WEATHERI LOOSE 10LBS OR 100LBS I AM ACCENTUATIN THE POSITIVE!!!
I WAS POOPED WHEN I GOT HOME. I WASN'T THINKING ABOUT ANYBODY'S GYM. I WAS JUST TRYING TO GET IN MY BED!!! I HAD TO BE TO WORK AT 6AM, BUT I ATE GOOD TODAY...I ATE REALLY GOOD I WAS PROUD OF MYSELF BECAUSE I WAS CRAVING SOMETHING SWEET THIS AFTER NOON WHEN I GOT OFF BUT I WAS TOLD MYSELF NO!! I FOUGHT IT AND I WON. OH YEAH..BEFORE I FORGET I KNOW ITS NOT A SECRET BUT THE CHOCOLATE PUDDING WITH NO SUGAR!! WOW !! ITS SOOO GOOD..ITS BY JELLO..CHOCOLATE PUDDING WITH NO SUGAR!! IT WAS SO GOOD..JUST SWEET ENOUGH TO SATISFY ANY CRAVING OR SWEET TOOTH YOU MIGHT HAVE..WELL I AM GOING TO HAVE TO TALK TO YOU GUYS A LITTLE LATER...BED TIME..I WILL TELL EVEYONE MORE ABOUT MY TRIP TOMORROW..
BUT I AM VERY PROUD OF MYSELF I HAD ANOTHER NON SCALE VICTORY. ON THE WAY UP I JUST HAD SOME WATER AND A GRANOLA BAR..I KNOW I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE STILL AT BREAKFEST AND STUCK TO MY EATING PLAN...BUT I DIDNT BUT I AM HERE TO REPORT I HAD NO CANDY, JUNK, OR SODA OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT...NO FAST FOOD ON THE ROAD OR ANYTHING..WELL ACTUALLY WHEN I STOPPED TO GET GAS IN WILDWOOD, FLORIDA.. I HADN'T ATE ANYTHING AT THAT POINT BUT A GRANOLA BAR AND HAD SOME WATER. THERE WAS A POPEYS AT THE GAS STATION. I WAS GOING TO GET SOMETHING BECUASE I HADN'T HAD ANYTHING ALL DAY WELL...I JUST WASNT GOING TO WAIT IN THAT LONG LINE...THATS WHAT SAVED ME...AND BESIDES I WAS JUST SO ANXIOUS TO GET HOME AND I WAS SO CLOSE TO TAMPA BY THEN I JUST DIDN'T SEE ANY REASON FOR WAITING I ATE WHEN I GOT HOME. 