Refuse to Quit

This is my personal journey of self determination and growth.

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  • Name: Phattygurl
  • City: Union City
  • State: GA
  • Country: US

My Weight Loss

Height:
Start weight: 287.00lb
Current weight: 301.80lb
Goal weight: 160.00lb
Lost to date: -14.80lb
Remaining: 141.80lb

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I'm going to make it!

Hey everyone. I hope everyone had a great weekend and rest of the week last week I have been skimming on my post because I had company last week and guess what everyone!!! My roomie has moved in!!..She will be here with me for about 5 months.  Anyway, I think she is going to be a good addition to me eating right and excercising. She eats really healthy!! YAY!! Thats a plus for me! and she got all kind of workout videos!! YAY!! Another plus for me..So I am going to take advantage of all the help I can get! I wasn't able to workout Saturday as planned I went in to do overtime at work! It went by pretty fast! To tell the truth it was pretty entertaining!

Well I skipped weigh in today. TOM is here visiting and I didn't want to see this on the scale so I am going to be back in affect on Monday hopefully with a  big lost. I know I probably still should have went just to get my dose of motivation for the week, but at this point in the game I don't want to be disappointed. So I just made a decision to stay home.

I am so excited and proud of myself because this time around I am going to make it to the finish line. With my head held high! I have been drinking my water and eating very good. I still have some hurdles to cross but I am going to take this journey pound by pound! I have learned we can be our own hurdles! I am going to Destin beach FL, in March so my goal before my destin beach trip is 15lbs. I am trying to be reallistic and I think 15lbs is a good lost before the 3rd weekend in March! I probably can do more than that but I am going for 15lbs anything over that will be a plus!

Well girlies! Time to get ready for the workday tomorrow! Have a great Tuesday! Smoochies!!

Heidi

I made it!!!

Hey everyone! Hope everyone had a great hump day! YAY!!! Its almost over, its almost the weekend! I can hardly wait. 

Well I have to say the exercise devil was out in full effect tonight. He tried, and he tried his hardest to keep me from the gym. My will was just way stronger than he was!! First of all, my day was soo tiring!! I promise sandman was standing on my eyelids, literally, I could hardly keep my eyes open. I couldn't believe how sleepy I was and I went to bed last night around 9:30, but of course thats when I got all the phone calls.No one called while I was wide awake but just becuase I decided to go to bed at a decent time everyone decided to call me! Well I stayed and did overtime at work I didn't end up leaving until after 6:45...I was suppose to only do an hour but somehow I got stuck until 6:45. I am not going to complain I can use the extra. Well when I got home, I was just so tired but I said "SELF!!!, YOU MIGHT AS WELL WAKE UP, BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO THE GYM!" I kept moving when I got home I didn't give myself a chance to rest because if I did, I already knew that was the end of that, and there would not be any gym tonight..Well I am here to say I MADE IT!!! I went to the gym...now I didn't get in a full workout like I wanted too, but I worked out. I didn't get in there until around 8:15 they close at 9pm...I worked  out until 8:55...I left the gym feeling like a million bucks!!!!  Tomorrow its on!! I will make it there in a decent time and get my workout on to the fullest!

I did a excellent job counting and tracking my points today, plus I drunk all the water I know I drunk at least a gallon of water today...I filled my water bottle up 3 times today its 34oz...plus for lunch I had a bottled water..so I hope the scale is ready for me on Monday! I know I am going to be a winner at the scales!!!! YES!!!!!

Well Happy Thursday to all!! Talk to you all tomorrow!!!!

Heidi

Bright Horizons Ahead!

Hey everyone! Hope everyone had a great MLK day and a good resting day to the 3 day weekend! My day was good. My company is still here from out of town. My old room mate came up to Atlanta to spend her birthday! She enjoyed her weekend...well scratch that we both enjoyed the weekend. Well I was sooo sooo scared today all day. I knew it was WEIGH IN day for me at weight watchers. I was literally nervous...because I just knew I hadn't really did as well as I knew that I could have. I kept seeing the mean Weight Watcher lady face everywhere I went. Well the time came for me to weigh in. I went in there took off my shoes and jumped on the scale. I lost 2.4 lbs.. I was sooo sooo happy..I knew I hadn't really took my first week back at Weight Watchers seriously. I cheated and plus I had company and we were eating out for birthdays and all. So I guess the scale gave me and freebie this week. But I am defitnityly going to be ready next Monday for them!

Its officially week 2 of my body makeover...I am defitnitly going to work it out this week. This year when I go to my college homecoming. I want to give them something to talk about!!!

My goal this week is to simply drink my water and eat my vegetables and workout 4 days this week! I don't think weight watchers is going to be ready for me on Monday. TOM is suppose to be here..so do anyone know any home remedies on not retaining water? Help?!!!

Oh yea before I go, I bought some yogurt from Weight Watchers and it was very very good..a little sweet but taste a whole lot better than I thought it was going to taste! Well you guys have a great week! Talk to you tomorrow!

Heidi

 

 

 

WISHING FOR A MIRACLE!!!

HEY EVERYONE!! HAPPY FRIDAY TO ALL. HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYED THEIR DAY. MY DAY WAS GOOD. I AM ENTERTAINING AND I AM REALLY REALLY SLEEPY RIGHT NOW. BUT I DIDN'T POST YESTERDAY BECAUSE I WAS ENTERTAINING COMPANY. BUT I COULD NOT PUT HEAD TO PILLOW BEFORE I POST TO SAY HEY TO ALL MY EP FRIENDS!!!

I HOPING FOR A MIRACLE AT THE SCALE ON MONDAY AFTERNOON. I HAVE BEEN DRINIKING ALL MY WATER AND EATING AND COUNTING BUT..I HAVE A CONFESSION...I HAVE CHEATED...BUT I AM REALLY WORKING ON IT I SAID I WASN'T GOING TO CHEAT BUT SHAME ON ME.....SOOOO I AM WISHING FOR A MIRACLE. I HAVE ONLY HAD 2 DAYS OF WORKOUT. I WAS PLANNING ON GOING TOMORROW MORNING (SATURDAY) BUT ITS SUPPOSE TO SNOW HERE IN ATLANTA THEY ARE EXPECTING ABOUT 3 INCHES...WHICH I DOUBT SERIOUSLY BUT THE ROADS ARE GOING TO BE TOO ICY FOR ME TO GO OUT. I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW WHAT THE SCALE IS GOING TO SAY BUT I AM GOING TO FACE IT WITH MY HEAD HELD HIGH......

WELL ANYWHO...I AM JUST GLAD TO BE BACK WHERE I USED TO BE WORKING ON A GOAL. I AM STICKING TO IT. WELL I AM OUT I AM ABOUT TO HIT THE BED. I AM SITTING HERE LISTENING TO JOHN LEGEND AND MY EYES ARE GETTING HEAVIER AND HEAVIER...HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND! STAY WARM!


HEIDI

Reminiscing!!

Hey everyone!! Hope everyone is doing well! Hope everyone had a Tiggerfic Tuesday!!! My day was good. Did a little overtime today at work, I forgot my clothes for the gym at home. So after I came home and dilly dallied around the house I decided to skip out on the gym. But!!! The gym clothes are already packed and ready to go for tomorrow!

Today was my first day back counting points since my mini hiatus from WWers, and I tell you I was not easy. Its hard getting back into the swing of things. But I did it..after going over everything today I saw some things I didn't have to include in any of my meals but I counted the points and added them in..no cheating..I have a goal and I am not going to stop until I reach it.

I have company, my old roomate to be exact is coming to Atlanta for her birthday she is going to be staying with me. So to stay up on the gym I am going to take my clothes with me everday to make darn sure that I hit the gym and get some excercise in. I am so glad to back to normalcy.

I don't know if you all have been going to Tracy (Derserve Better) other blog Deal Dork...well I have been getting my free samples. I got the slim fast package it came with a pedometer, and some other free goodies. I like free stuff!! Well Hope you guys have a Wonderful Wednesday!

Smoochies!

Heidi

Back on track!! Lawd help me!

Hey everyone!!!! Hope everyone had a great week last week, and  a Great weekend! I had a great week last week..I was absent becuase well on last week you know my internet was off..then I got it turned on Thursday but I was studying for my test (the test to become a teacher) which I took on Saturday! Sorry guys I had to put you guys on the back buner but if extrapounds should  fade away and we all are skinny minnies and have went our seperate ways I still need a career!

Well I went to WW tonigt. I was going originally on Saturday mornings but when my uncle died I had to miss two weekends in a row so you know what that meant. I had to start over...and tonight when I weighed in...I literally looked like this I was like wow oh my darn!!! This can't be right...but now is not the time to dwell...I am going to move on...no time for woulda, coulda, shouldas...its time to either sink or swimming..and dammit I don't know about the rest of you but I'm swimming!

Anyway I went to the meeting down the street so close I can walk. When I first did weight watchers I was going to this one..but the lady was so darn mean she always had a smart mouth...and frankly if I valued your opinion I would have asked you!! So she was turning my spirit into a nasty one..because she literally had one more time to get jazzy at the mouth with me...so I decided it would be better for me to remove myself from the situation...So tonight she was extra nicey..I guess she got the memo! She was all welcome back Ms.Heidi...So I'm not worried about her this is a new year time to get on with my business!!

I am looking foward to excelling on WW'ers this time...I really am..I am trying to stay foucused and get on with the skinniness!! (is that a word). I have everything to have a succesful week! So heres to a loosing week!!! Well I hope everyone has a Terrific Tuesday! Talk to you tomorrow!

Heidi

BEGINNING OF A NEW ERA!

HEY EVERYONE! SORRY I HAVEN'T REALLY POSTED THIS WEEKEND OR MY INTERNET WON'T BE BACK ON UNTIL LATER ON THIS WEEK. IT WAS EITHER LIGHTS OR CABLE...THE LIGHT BILL WON HANDS DOWN. SO I AM AT WORK COMMENTING ON EVERYONES BLOG. I WOULD GO TO THE LIBRARY BUT I CAN FIND MY CARD.  BUT ANYWHO...I HOPE YOU ALL ARE LVING THE GOOD LIFE AND EXCERCISING AND EATING RIGHT. ITS THE NEW YEAR! NEW BEGINNINGS FOR EVERYONE!

I HAVE SOME NEW SCHEMES UP MY SLEEVE IN MY BATTLE OF THE BUDGE. I HAVE BEEN TALKING ABOUT TAKING A SPINNING CLASS AT THE REC CENTER NOT TO FAR FROM MY HOUSE.  SO I CALLED THIS MORNING TO CHECK ON IT...AND YALL SHE SAID IT WAS $45 A MONTH..THEY HAVE CLASS MONDAY, TUES, THURSDAY, AND SAT..THAT IS SOO NOT IN MY BUDGET IF I DECIDE TO DO THIS I AM GOING TO BE A SPINNING FOOL! I DONT CARE IFI AM THE ONLY ONE THERE I AM GOING TO SPIN, SPIN, SPIN. I AM GOING TO HAVE TO PRAY ON THIS CLASS BECAUSE THIS ISN'T IN MY BUDGET BUT I REALLY WANT TO DO IT. I WILL KEEP YOU GUYS UPDATED ON MY DECISION.

WELL I DIDN'T BRING MY CLOTHES WITH ME BUT I AM GOING TO GO HOME AND SUIT UP AND GET READY FOR THE GYM SOON AS I LEAVE WORK. I FORGOT MY CLOTHES. I HAD OTHER THINGS ON MY MIND!!! I HAVE YET TO SET MY GOALS FOR THIS YEAR I HAVE PLENTY AND I WANT TO SHARE THEM WITH YOU ALL..SO TONIGHT I PROMISE!!! I WILL WRITE THEM DOWN AND I AM GOING TO COME TO WORK EARLY SO THAT I  CAN BLOG AND CHECK ON EVERYONE'S BLOG!!!

HOPE YOU GUYS HAD A GREAT WEEKEND!! I DID AND TOPPED IT OFF WITH CHURCH!! IT WAS A GREAT SERMON!!! IT BLESSED ME ABUNDENTLY!!! HOPE EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT WEEK!

SMOOCHIES!!!

HEIDI

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

HEY YOU GUYS!!! I'M BAAACCCCKKKK!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE HOPE YOU HAD A WONDERFUL FIRST OF THE YEAR! AND I HOPE THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD FOR EVERYONE SO FAR! I AM SO EXCITED TO BE BACK AND BLOGGING.! I HAVE SO MUCH TO CATCH YOU GUYS UP ON! I DONT' EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN!

FIRST OF ALL THE FUNERAL WAS VERY VERY NICE. THERE WASN'T ANY HOLLERING, AND CRYING, AND FALLING ALL OUT OVER HIS CASKET.MY UNCLE LEFT BEHIND A DIARY AND I WAS LOOKING FOR A PHONE NUMBER FOR ONE OF HIS FRIENDS AND I RAN ACROSS SOMETHING THAT HE WROTE. THAT LET ME KNOW THAT HE WAS OKAY AND COMFORTABLE WITH HIS DYING. EVEN THOUGH I WISH HE WAS HERE WITH US. HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND HE WAS OKAY WITH HIS FATE! ANYWAY LIKE I SAID BEFORE THE FUNERAL WASN'T ALL SAD BUT THIS GUY GOT UP AND SONG "ORDER MY STEPS" AND WHEN HE FINISHED IT WASN'T A DRY EYE IN THE CHURCH! HE DID A WONDERFUL JOB!!! HE SUNG THAT SONG!

ANYWAY ENOUGH OF THE SADNESS!! WHEN I RETURNED FROM THE FUNERAL I HAD THIS STUPID COLD. AND OF COURSE IT WAS LIKE 17 DEGREES IN ATLANTA SO I BYPASSED THE GYM THIS WEEK. MONDAY I WILL TAKE MY CLOTHES WITH ME TO WORK SO I CAN GO STRAIGHT TO THE GYM BECUASE I JUST KNOW THAT THE GYM IS GOING TO BE FILLED WITH THE RESOLUTIONERS!! TAKING UP ALL THE GOOD MACHINES UNTIL AROUND MARCH WHEN THEY START TO FAZE OUT...I AM NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT THEM....I AM JUST GOING TO PRAY THAT THEY ARE ABLE TO STICK IT OUT NO MATTER WHAT!

THIS YEAR I AM CLAIMING THAT THIS IS GOING TO BE MY YEAR. I AM GOING TO LOOSE LOOSE AND LOOSE EVEN MORE. I AM GOING TO STRIVE THE BEST PERSON THAT I CAN BE. I AM GOING STRIVE TO ENJOY LIFE MORE PLUS I HAVE SOME PERSONAL GOALS..BUT I GUESS MY MAIN GOAL IS TO FIND OUT WHAT IS IT I REALLY WANT TO DO IN LIFE. I FEEL AS THOUGH I AM JUST LIVING WITH NO DIRECTION. DON'T GET ME WRONG I LOVE MY JOB...BUT I DON'T NEED A JOB I NEED A CAREER! I TAKE THE TEACHER TEST ON JANUARY 12TH, WISH ME LUCK, I USED TO BE A SUBSTITUTE! I LOVE IT..BUT OF COURSE THEY HAVE TO BE ELEMENTRY. BUT I GUESS WE WILL SEE..STAY TUNED TO SUNDAY WHEN I POST MY WEEKLY GOALS!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! THANKS FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND WORDS OF COMFORT FOR ME AND MY FAMILY!!

SMOOCHIES!!!

HEIDI

HAPPY FEELINGS!!

Hello everyone!! Happy Thursday! This morning I woke up just all warm and fuzzy inside I just feel extrmely blessed today! I don't know why or where I got the feeling but I feel great today! I refuse to let the devil steal my joy today or anyotber day from this day foward. Its almost a new year so that me a new ME!!!

I am at work and really should be working. But I had to pause I just felt like blogging..Again, I don't know why but I just felt like blogging..thats weird but its okay. Anyway. I have a busy busy day ahead of me. Once I leave work I have to run home pick summer up and run her to the Kennel to leave her then I have to run and drop off Summer (my dog) and lets no forget my aunt is flying in at 10pm tonight. Whew!!! Honestly I can't wait until the new year. With the death of my uncle, then new year..and all the trimings that go with it..I can't hardly wait until the holidays are over.

I have some goals, I dont like to say resolutions...These are my new goals for the new year! I am working on them I will list them on Tuesday!. I am excited about 2008. I am cliaming that this year I am going to meet my husband! I am claiming it, its going to happen I don't know when or where but its going to happen.

Now here comes the random thoughts.:

its a young lady that works with me..every since she has been working here since like July she has clung to me she has even givin me a nick name she calls me Mickie!! Why? I dont' know..anyway I like her but she is just to much..first of all she calls me her best friend. I have a best friend buts its not her I just  met her. I chopped it up to the fact that she got married when she was 21 and don't have that many friends she is 28 now. But she talks to damn much. I want to say PLEASE SHUT UP!!! She talks about everyone, and always have something to say...JUST SHUT UP!!...You guys I can't even explain to you how she is just loud, and obnoixious 80% of the time. Don't get me wrong but she is just too much sometimes. She has a myspace page and we are friends on myspace adn she is leaving best friend pictures and my best friend is like who is this chick! Yall she is just too much to explain...

Well back to more important things than the stalker chick at work!  Well I proubably won't be posting again until Sunday evening or Monday! So I wish you guys a good weekend!!! Happy Thursday!!

SMOOCHIES!

HEIDI

BACK HOME FOR NOW!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! I HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYED THIER DAY WITH THEIR LOVED ONE'S AND FRIENDS AND I HOPE THAT SANTA BOUGHT YOU EVERYTHING YOU WANTED!

TODAY WAS OKAY. I LEFT THOMASVILLE AROUND 1:45 PM I GOT BACK HOME AROUND 5 O'CLOCK. MY FAMILY IS COPING RATHER WELL WITH THE LOST OF MY UNCLE. I GUESS ITS NOT HURTING AS MUCH BECAUSE WE KNEW HE WAS SICK. BUT IT STILL HURTS NONETHELESS. SO BAH HUMBUG!!! I SPENT MY CHRISTMAS DRIVING!!

I RETURN BACK TO WORK TOMORROW..AND WHAT A JOY I AM SURE THATS GOING TO BE. I WILL BE TRAVELING OUT OF TOWN AGAIN ON FRIDAY FOR THE FUNERAL ON SATURDAY. SO THERE GOES THE WEEK AND THE WEEKEND. ITS SO MUCH TO DO BUT NO TIME TO DO IT IN. I AM GLAD I WAS ABLE TO MAKE IT TO SEE MY UNCLE BEFORE HE PASSED.

ON THE BRIGHTER SIDE OF THINGS. I WAS ABLE TO SPEND THE HOLIDAY WITH MY GRANDMA. I NEVER GET TO SEE HER ON THE HOLIDAYS SHE IS USUALLY IN TAMPA AND I AM IN ATLANTA. WELL SHE WOKE ME UP BRIGHT AND EARLY WANTING ME TO GO TO HER CAR AND GET HER BASKET WITH A WHOLE BUNCH OF MESS...MAGAZINES, HAIRCOMBS..AND JUNK SHE COULD HAVE LEFT IN TAMPA. REALLY AT 7 AM IN THE MORNING. I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY SHE COULD NOT WAIT UNTIL I WOKE UP....SO I JUST GOT ON UP.

I JUST WANT TO GIVE A HUG ****HUGS*** TO EVERYONE! THANKS FOR THE PRAYERS AND WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT! ENJOY YOUR WEEK! TALK TO YOU GUYS TOMORROW!

****HEIDI***

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