HEY EVERYONE! I HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYED THERE EXTENDED WEEKEND! I DID. I AM ALSO PROUD TO SAY THAT I DIDN'T EAT A LOT OF TURKEYWELL ANYWHO, GUESS WHO IS GOING BACK TO WEIGHTWATCHERS FOR THE UMPH TEENTH TIME! YEP YOU GUESSED IT RIGHT. YOUR TRULEY. I WENT ONLINE TONIGHT AND SIGNED UP FOR THE MONTHLY PASS AND EVERYTHING SO I AM ALREADY TO GO TO THE MEETING TOMORROW. I AM GOING TO A NEW MEETING PLACE REASON BEING THE ONE I USUALLY GO TOO THE RECEPTIONIST GIRL OR WHOEVER YOU WANT TO CALL HER IS RUDE. FOR HER SAKE I AM GOING TO A NEW MEETING PLACE BECAUSE IF I DON'T SHE IS PROBABLY GOING TO REGRET SAYING ANYTHING TO ME. I AM JUMPING HEAD IN FIRST. SO PRAY FOR ME AND SEND SKINNY VIBES MY WAY. I AM A LITTLE EXCITED ABOUT GOING BACK. ALL I KNOW IS I AM CAN'T LET THIS YEAR THIS TIME FIND ME MAKING THE SAME PROMISES. WELL I WILL CHECK BACK IN TOMORROW EVENING AFTER THE FIRST INTITIAL WEIGH IN ! HAPPY MONDAY TO EVERYBODY!
Hey everyone!!! Hugs all around! How is everybody doing? I am doing okay. I have been a little mia for the past 9 days..with school and work, when I get home. blogging is not on my top list of priorities..sorry you guys..but I promised that I wouldn't stay away as long as I did last time. So I am trying to stick to my promise. Anyway....Hope everyone has being making great choices in their lives and weight loss journeys. I have been making...well...okay choices I am being honest I could make better choices.. but I am working on it..I am currently under construction...Today I want to talk about loving the skin your in.I recently was approaced by a coworker..well she didn't approace me, she emailed me...in the email she asked me did I love myself. She also went to include how my coworkers are saying I am pretty but I need to loose weight. Wait a minute...let me give you the low down...the young lady who wrote me the email..we are cool. she is my lunch partner and we have hung out a couple of times after work. I have talked about her before in a previous blog or two. Anway, when she wrote me the letter It said, and I qoute " hi Heidi, I am wrinting you this email because I don't want you to get upset with me or depressed. I have only one question for you and thats do you love yourself? for the last couple of days people have been coming to me about comments about you saying how pretty you are but you need to loose weight." The letter said this, amongst other things as well. To make a long story short she asked me did I have any comments and I said no. So two days later she sends a text message to me on my phone. Saying how I just brushed her off when she came to me. I simply replied you wanted me to comment on a letter you sent me that I don't think needed a reply, furthermore I called you to talk about the letter,but you won't talk to me, only text or email. I dont understand what she wanted me to do. I am saying this to say. I became comfortable in the skin that I am in a LONG time ago. I don't care what people think about me..truth be told if they don't talk about my weight they will find somehthing else to talk about . That is what I want everyone else to do...be comfortable in your skin..wether your 800 or 150lbs...don't get me wrong I too am in the fight against the bulge..I be damned if I let it control me life. I am not going to put myself in a box and be depressed I got too much to live for. Its a world out there waiting for me and I can't keep the people waiting. But if she wants me to keep it really real with her...If we are such good friends as we PRETEND to be...no one should feel comfortable coming to you talking about me...because it would be the same as telling me unless you took part in the conversation or bought it up. Its my philosphy to not make excuse for who I am..the truth is I can only be me. Don't get me wrong. I can stand to loose some weight just for my own being so that I can be healthy and continue living the good life. But I just refuse to cry about it. I am human and I have my me moments but those moments I keep to myself and I deal with it the best way that I know how. I urge each and everyone of you to do the same. Love yourself..its one of the key components to the weight loss journey.. well enough of that.
I found this on msn today...good reading to keep you motivated and inspired.
HEY EVERYONE HAPPY MONDAY!!! I AM JUST REALLY HAPPY TODAY FOR WHATEVER REASON AND I AM FLOATING ON CLOUD NINE...WHY? FUNNY YOU SHOULD ASK? I AM HAPPY BECUASE I WOKE UP THIS MORNING IN GREAT HEALTH! I AM HAPPY BECUASE I DID WAKE UP...ITS SOMEONE WHO DIDN'T MAKE IT TO TODAY. SO I AM JUST HERE TO SAY, HOW BLESSED I AM. THIS WEEKEND, I DID OVERTIME IN THE EMERGENCY AT THE HOSPITAL I WORK IN. TWO YOUNG MEN CAME IN ONE WAS 16 ONE WAS 17. BOTH HAD BEEN SHOT. THE 17 YEAR OLD WAS SHOT IN THE HEAD AND DIED UPON ARRIVAL TO THE HOSPITAL. HE TOLD HIS PARENTS HE WAS GOING TO THE MOVIES, BUT INSTEAD HIM AND HIS FRIEND THE OTHER GUNSHOT VICTIM WEN TO A TEEN CLUB. IT WAS VERY SAD AND TOUCHING SITUATION. THE LOOK ON THE PARENTS FACES AND HIS SIBLILINGS. THAT IS WHY I AM SO HAPPY THAT I AM HERE. I TOO HAVE MADE UNSATISFACTORY CHOICES. OUT CHOICES SOMETIMES AREN'T THE BEST, WE ARE THINKING OF OURSELVES AND NOT OUR LOVED ONES AND THE PEOPLE IN OUR OUR LIVES. THIS APPLIES TO EVEN LOOSING WEIGHT. WE COME HERE DAY IN AND DAY OUT TELLING OUR STORY TO PERFECT STRANGERS ABOUT OR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY. MAKING PROMISES HOW TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY. ITS TIME WE STICK TO OUR PROMISES EVEN IF WE HAVE TO START OVER AND OVER AGAIN. SOME OF US ARE KILLING OURSELVES SLOWLY WITH OUR CHOICES WE SOMETIMES MAKE. WE HAVE TO ASK OURSELF WAS THAT CIGRETTE WORTH IT, WAS THAT EXTRA DRINK OF ALCHOL THAT PUSHED US INTO A DRUKEN STUPOR WORTH IT, WAS THAT 3RD PEICE OF FRIED CHICKEN OR PIZZA WORTH IT. ITS TIME WE MAKE UP AND STARTING THINKING NOT ONLY OF OURSELVES BUT OUR LOVED ONES AS WELL.
WELL, NOW THAT I AM OFF MY SOAP BOX SHARING MY WISDOM FOR THE DAY LET ME SHARE WITH YOU ALL MY GREAT CHOICES FOR TODAY. I BROUGHT MY LUNCH TODAY. A SALAD, FRESH FRUIT, AND YES I PUT A COUPLD OF CHEEZ ITS IN THERE NOT A LOT THOUGH...BUT ALL IN ALL...GOOD FOOD CHOICES, I TOOK DOWN MY BONELESS CHICKEN BREAST DOWN SO THAT I CAN COOK IT ALONG WITH MY FRESH (THATS THE KEY WORD) VEGETABLES. SO MY GOAL THIS WEEK IS TO NOT EAT OUT, MAKE GOOD EATING CHOICES AND WORK OUT AT LEAST 4 DAYS THIS WEEK. THATS MY GOAL AND I AM STICKING TO IT! WELL YALL I HAVE TO GO AND FINISH WORKING. I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY YOUR DAYS AND MAKE GOOD AND HEALTHY CHOICES!!!!
Goodmorning! Hope everyone is having a great Hump day. My Wonderful Wednesday is going great so far. A little tired, however, I am still going on with a smile on my face.
I woke up as usual running around like a chicken with its neck cut off trying to get ready for work. I have already took my vitamin, ate my oatmeal, and have drunk 34 oz of water already. Yay! Go me!!!
As you all know, last night, the new president was picked last night.!!! Its time for and change, and the change has come. Change is imminent everywhere in our world and in our lives. It is time we stop making excuses for ourselves, for not taking care of ourselves, for not LOVING ourselves. As people we often get caught up with the hussel and bussel of everyday life and not caring for ourselves like we should. We often get caught up with other people think of us. And we try to conform to "their ways" or the ways of the world. Well I am here to say we don't have to, take time today and just say "ME, I LOVE YOU", "I RESPECT YOU" and we are going to make a change together in our lives.
Well...I hope you guys have a wonderful, wonderful, Wednesday! I intend on doing the same!! Good day to you all!
Hey everyone! Hope everyone's day was good. Mine was good, nothing to complain about. I began the day on a very good note. I woke up around 5:15am but of course me and my bed had the struggle we seem to have every day. I finally lost and climbed out my bed around 5:5o am, and of course proceeded to rush getting ready for work.
I ate really good I began my day with oatmeal and a lunch followed with baked chicken, steamed carrots, and it was suppose to be some type of pasta salad..but it was NASTY...so I threw that away. I got in all my water intake. Around I saw about 2 pm I started feaning like a crack head for some sweet or salty...really junk food. You guys I thought I wasn't going to make it. I looked in my bed looking for something to take the itch away, and there it was....GUM!! Whoa that gum saved my life. But I ended letting some M&M's take my pride and hard work for the day down the drain.. Oh well I will try again but harder tomorrow. For the most I had a good day when it came to eating and drinking my water. I am in this for the long haul. I am not quiting...
Well tomorrow you guys is November 4th time to make history. I have officaially endorsed Barack and Biden!
Even if Barack is not your vote..just please get out and vote its very important !
I am suppose to go to a election party tomorrow evening after I finish voting I have been asked to make my Secret Cheese Sauce. I have planned to take along a salad and some salsa so that I can eating some more healthier snacks. Its time for a change...
Well I am off to bed to get ready for tomorrow. Hope everyone has a great day and GO VOTE!!! Heidi
HEY EVERYONE HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL! I AM DOING OKAY..NOT GOOD IN THE WEIGHT LOSS DEPARTMENT. LOOSING WEIGHT IS SO DARN FRUSTRATING I JUST CAN'T SEEM TO FIND MY MOTIVATION...ITS NOT IN MY CLOSET..UNDER MY BED...OR IN MY CAR...ITS LITERALLY NO WHERE TO BE FOUND.. AND I JUST CAN'T KEEP GOING ON LIKE THIS..I NEED ALL OF YOU ALL HELP,MOTIVATION, AND PRAYERS..I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING LIKE I SHOULD OR ANYTHING. ANYWAY..LIFE HAS BEEN GOOD NO COMPLAINTS OTHER THAN NEED TO LOOSE WEIGHT. LIFE HAS BEEN OKAY. I WENT TO THE BEACH ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF AGO. HAD A BALL ...I HAVE PLENTY OF EMBARRASING PICTURES I CAN SHOW YOU ALL....AT A LATER DATE. ANYWAY I DON'T KNOW I AM AT A CROSSROADS AND DEFITNITYLY NEED TO FIND MY MOTIVATION...BECAUSE LIKE THE TITLE OF MY BLOG SAYS..I REFUSE TO QUIT...I CAN'T GIVE UP NOW...AND I WON'T ...TALK TO YOU GUYS TOMORROW IN MORE DETAIL!! HAVE A GOOD BEGINNING OF THE WEEK.! HAPPY VOTING!
HEY EVERYONE! HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL..I AM DOING OKAY. I MUST ADMIT I HAVEN'T BEEN MYSELF LATELY...PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, SPIRITUALLY AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT FALLS IN THAT CATAGORY OF NOT BEING STABLE. I HAVE BEEN HAVING A REALLY HARD TIME THIS LATER PART OF THE SUMMER. I CAN NOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN. AFTER TALKING WITH MY GRANDMA ABOUT IT. SHE THREW SOME OF THAT GRANDMA WISDOM IN AND TOLD ME THAT I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING AND I DEFITNITYLY WON'T BE THE LAST. I UNDERSTAND THAT. I HIT THE BOTTOM OF, I GUESS MY OWN PERSONAL MISERY LAST WEEKEND. I CRIED AND I CRIED I WAS IN REAL BAD SHAPE. I FELT AS IF I WAS AT A POINT OF NOT BEING IN CONTROL. I AM NOT USE TO NOT HAVING CONTROL OF MY LIFE AND WHAT GOES ON IN IT. BUT LAST WEEKEND WAS IT.....SUNDAY I GOT UP AND I SAID "SELF, YOUR BETTER THAN THIS...ITS TIME TO PICK YOURSELF UP, BRUSH YOUR SELF OFF..AND KEEP IT MOVING" I WROTE IT ON MY BATHROOM MIRROR IN LIPSTICK..WITH THAT SAID ITS TIME TO GET BACK IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING. NO TIME FOR PITY PARTIES...I REFUSE TO QUIT. IF I HAVE TO KEEP STARTING OVER TIME AFTER TIME AFTER TIME.
LAST WEEKEND WAS THE TURNING POINT THAT EVERYONE HAS WHEN THEY RELIZED THEY HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THE BULL ISH!! WELL...I AM HERE TO SAY THAT I HAVE. I WILL BE RETURNING BACK TO EXTRAPOUNDS AND BLOGING ON A REGUALAR NOW. I HAVE MY INTERNET BACK ON AT HOME, NOW I CAN BLOG AND SURF THE NET WITH NO INTERUPPTIONS. FOR ALL WHO DON'T KNOW I AM PURSUING MY MASTERS IN RESPIRATORY THERAPY AT GEORGIA STATE. YAY!! WELL I WALKED OVER THERE TO THE GYM WHICH IS THE COOLEST GYM EVER! ITS LIKE A MINI LA FITNESS..SIGNED MY WAIVER AND WILL BE STARTING THE GYM ON MONDAY IMMEDIATLY AFTER WORK. I ALSO CALLED TO SET UP AN APPOINTMENT WITH THE NUTRIONIST AT GEORGIA STATE, NO ONE HAS CALLED ME BACK YET BUT THATS OKAY I WILL KEEP TRYING. THE VISIT IS $15 DOLLARS AND THAT INCLUDES TWO FOLLOW UP VISITS. I FIGURE WITH THE KNOWLEDGE I ALREADY HAVE ABOUT EATING HEALTHY AND THE INFO THEY WILL GIVE ME. I WILL DO GOOD. IN AN EFFORT TO SAVE MONEY. I CANT GO BACK TO WEIGHT WATCHERS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. I HAVE TO DO THIS ON MY OWN. STEP BY STEP.
ITS FUNNY HOW LIFE CAN BREAK YOU DOWN SOMETIMES. I AM CERTAIN I AM NOT IN THE BOAT BY MYSELF. BUT ITS A TERRIBLE FEELING. BUT I CAN'T QUIT NOW WHEN GOD HAS BOUGHT ME SO FAR IN THIS JOURNEY. I MISS ALL YOU GUYS! TALK TO YOU SOON! WISH ME LUCK AND HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!
Goodmorning to all! Hope everyone is having a good day so far. As for me my morning is shaping up to be good. I told myself in the car this morning on my way to work that I would not let anyone get next to me today! I gave all my worries to God this morning. He is going to have to deal with them because today is not the day. I get tired of worrying and stressing myself out about things that I cannot control. I contribute my lack of motivation this last couple of months to worrying about things. Not today...anyway...I am so excited about school and jumping back on the weightloss train. I am very happy and pleased with myself.
I had been noticing the pass month when I get home how swollen my feet and ankles are. I am constantly up and walking around at work which wears on your feet and ankles of course. Well I knew I hadn't been drinking my water and eating correctly so I was in no doubt that my lack of water contributed in some way to my swollen feet and the end of the day. Yesterday I told myself, "self you are drinkin all your water today" I complied after I left my full time job yesterday I went to my part time job at Target I am please to say when I got home my feet were not swollen. Now I know that I am retaining water and thats why my feet were swollen. I am still going to make a doctors appointment and get things checked out.
I am getting back motivated and getting myself back in order you guys and it feels great. I ate my breakfest and took my vitamin yesterday followed by good lunch and not so good dinner (I had a pretzel from work) but with all that walking around at Target I am sure I burned it almost off before leaving work. So I getting there I am still a work in progress
I have a trip to Destin beach planned in September coming up so I am eager to see how much I can loose before then. Thanks you guys for all your support I am so glad to know I have somebody to turn too when my motivation decides to vacate. Have a good hump day!
Hey you guys... well I have been off all week just chillin and lounging around the house doing nothing. So I figuered this week was as good as any to "get back to the basics" and get back on the weight loss train.. well I got up put on my ugly peach workout pants and my Zeta tshirt, strapped on the IPOD and started walking. I was went walking around the mall by my house. I figured this would be a good spot because alot of people walk around the mall, yall about half way around my ankles started hurting my back started hurting I was sweating about a gallon of water a minute....and oh my gosh I had to stop and catch my breath. Now I know it wasn't going to be easy but I was like DANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You guys its going to be a long hard road..but I am going to have to keep at it.
So how have everyone been? I have been good I am just tryin to make it...LIfe has just been happening with the rising price of EVERYTHING I have just been trying to make it. I have been working a part time job at Target...but its a big help. I am really ready to get back on the weight loss train...plus guess what you guys I am going back to school this fall to Georgia state for respiratory therapy. I had to give up the teaching dream. I honestly don't believe its for me. I honestly can't say I want to wake up every morning teaching. I think its more of my grandother dream for me than mine. I always wanted to working in the medical field so since my degreee is in Healthcare Administration I am going to futher my medical career in Respiratory therapy. I am so excited you guys I really am I feel like a freshman in school. Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy your weekend! I will talk to you guys soon!!!
HEY YOU GUYS!!!! HUGS ALL AROUND! I MISS YOU GUYS DEARLY!!!!!! HOW HAS EVERYONE BEEN. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO MAKE IT JUST IN LIFE. ITS BEEN HARD WITH THIS TERRIBLE TERRIBLE ECONOMY, BUT I'M BACK!!! SORRY I HAVE BEEN GONE SO LONG. I THINK I FOUND MY MOTIVATION AGAIN.. I GLAD HE CAME BACK...I GOT ON THE SCALE ABOUT A WEEK AGO AND WAS TOTALLY SHOCKED AND UPSET..I CAN'T CONTINUE LIKE THIS...ITS NOT GOOD FOR MY HEALTH AND AT THIS POINT SELF ESTEEM EITHER..BUT ANYWAY ENOUGH OF THAT...WHAT HAVE YOU GUYS BEEN DOING? I HAVE JUST BEEN WORKING AND WORKING AND WORKING. I HAVE A PART TIME JOB AT TARGET...WHICH WITH THESE GAS PRICES LIKE THEY ARE HAS BEEN WORKING OUT VERY WELL FOR ME. PLUS THEY GIVE ME ENOUGH TIME IN THE WEEK TO STILL GET A GOOD WORKOUT IN. ITS A COOL JOB. I CAN'T COMPLAIN.
I GUESS WHAT GOT ME MOTIVATED THIS TIME.. WAS MY STENCH WITH THE SCALE LAST WEEK PLUS I READ ABOUT A GIRL ABOUT MY AGE WHO LOST WEIGHT AND DID A GREAT JOB. I AM JUST TIRED OF MAKING EXCUSES I AM JUST READY TO GET BACK IN THE RUT OF THINGS. I SEE RIGHT NOW I HAVE TO START AT GROUND ZERO. I HAVE TO GO BACK TO BASICS.....JUST WALKING AND EATING MY VEGETABLES AND DRINKING MY WATER. THAT HAS BEEN THE BIGGEST THING THAT I HAVE FELL BACK ON. I HAVEN'T BEEN DRINKING MY WATER LIKE I USED TOO...I SEEM TO HAVE BECAME A REBEL WITHOUT A CAUSE...I NEED YOU GUYS TO GUIDE ME BACK TO THE SAFE WATERS..
SO HERE I GO AGAIN BACK ON THE WEIGHTLOSS WAGON...ONE DAY I AM GOING TO RIDE THE WAGON ALL THE WAY TO THE END UNTIL THEN I AM GOING TO KEEP TRYING UNTIL I MAKE IT! I AM ON VACATION THIS WEEK...SO SINCE THERE IS NO BETTER TIME THAN THE PRESENT..HERE I GO AGAIN!!! YOU GUYS HAVE A GREAT WEEK!
WELL ANYWHO, GUESS WHO IS GOING BACK TO WEIGHTWATCHERS FOR THE UMPH TEENTH TIME! YEP YOU GUESSED IT RIGHT. YOUR TRULEY. I WENT ONLINE TONIGHT AND SIGNED UP FOR THE MONTHLY PASS AND EVERYTHING SO I AM ALREADY TO GO TO THE MEETING TOMORROW. I AM GOING TO A NEW MEETING PLACE REASON BEING THE ONE I USUALLY GO TOO THE RECEPTIONIST GIRL OR WHOEVER YOU WANT TO CALL HER IS RUDE. FOR HER SAKE I AM GOING TO A NEW MEETING PLACE BECAUSE IF I DON'T SHE IS PROBABLY GOING TO REGRET SAYING ANYTHING TO ME. I AM JUMPING HEAD IN FIRST. SO PRAY FOR ME AND SEND SKINNY VIBES MY WAY. I AM A LITTLE EXCITED ABOUT GOING BACK. ALL I KNOW IS I AM CAN'T LET THIS YEAR THIS TIME FIND ME MAKING THE SAME PROMISES. WELL I WILL CHECK BACK IN TOMORROW EVENING AFTER THE FIRST INTITIAL WEIGH IN ! HAPPY MONDAY TO EVERYBODY!
I am being honest I could make better choices.. but I am working on it..I am currently under construction...
Today I want to talk about loving the skin your in.I recently was approaced by a coworker..well she didn't approace me, she emailed me...in the email she asked me did I love myself. She also went to include how my coworkers are saying I am pretty but I need to loose weight. Wait a minute...let me give you the low down...the young lady who wrote me the email..we are cool. she is my lunch partner and we have hung out a couple of times after work. I have talked about her before in a previous blog or two. Anway, when she wrote me the letter It said, and I qoute " hi Heidi, I am wrinting you this email because I don't want you to get upset with me or depressed. I have only one question for you and thats do you love yourself? for the last couple of days people have been coming to me about comments about you saying how pretty you are but you need to loose weight." The letter said this, amongst other things as well. To make a long story short she asked me did I have any comments and I said no. So two days later she sends a text message to me on my phone. Saying how I just brushed her off when she came to me. I simply replied you wanted me to comment on a letter you sent me that I don't think needed a reply, furthermore I called you to talk about the letter,but you won't talk to me, only text or email. I dont understand what she wanted me to do. I am saying this to say. I became comfortable in the skin that I am in a LONG time ago. I don't care what people think about me..truth be told if they don't talk about my weight they will find somehthing else to talk about . That is what I want everyone else to do...be comfortable in your skin..wether your 800 or 150lbs...don't get me wrong I too am in the fight against the bulge..I be damned if I let it control me life. I am not going to put myself in a box and be depressed I got too much to live for. Its a world out there waiting for me and I can't keep the people waiting. 
But if she wants me to keep it really real with her...If we are such good friends as we PRETEND to be...no one should feel comfortable coming to you talking about me...because it would be the same as telling me unless you took part in the conversation or bought it up. Its my philosphy to not make excuse for who I am..the truth is I can only be me. Don't get me wrong. I can stand to loose some weight just for my own being so that I can be healthy and continue living the good life. But I just refuse to cry about it. I am human and I have my me moments but those moments I keep to myself and I deal with it the best way that I know how. I urge each and everyone of you to do the same. Love yourself..its one of the key components to the weight loss journey.. well enough of that. 
