TIME AFTER TIME!!
HEY EVERYONE! HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL..I AM DOING OKAY. I MUST ADMIT I HAVEN'T BEEN MYSELF LATELY...PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, SPIRITUALLY AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT FALLS IN THAT CATAGORY OF NOT BEING STABLE. I HAVE BEEN HAVING A REALLY HARD TIME THIS LATER PART OF THE SUMMER. I CAN NOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN. AFTER TALKING WITH MY GRANDMA ABOUT IT. SHE THREW SOME OF THAT GRANDMA WISDOM IN AND TOLD ME THAT I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING AND I DEFITNITYLY WON'T BE THE LAST. I UNDERSTAND THAT. I HIT THE BOTTOM OF, I GUESS MY OWN PERSONAL MISERY LAST WEEKEND. I CRIED AND I CRIED I WAS IN REAL BAD SHAPE. I FELT AS IF I WAS AT A POINT OF NOT BEING IN CONTROL. I AM NOT USE TO NOT HAVING CONTROL OF MY LIFE AND WHAT GOES ON IN IT. BUT LAST WEEKEND WAS IT.....SUNDAY I GOT UP AND I SAID "SELF, YOUR BETTER THAN THIS...ITS TIME TO PICK YOURSELF UP, BRUSH YOUR SELF OFF..AND KEEP IT MOVING" I WROTE IT ON MY BATHROOM MIRROR IN LIPSTICK..WITH THAT SAID ITS TIME TO GET BACK IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING. NO TIME FOR PITY PARTIES...I REFUSE TO QUIT. IF I HAVE TO KEEP STARTING OVER TIME AFTER TIME AFTER TIME.
LAST WEEKEND WAS THE TURNING POINT THAT EVERYONE HAS WHEN THEY RELIZED THEY HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THE BULL ISH!! WELL...I AM HERE TO SAY THAT I HAVE. I WILL BE RETURNING BACK TO EXTRAPOUNDS AND BLOGING ON A REGUALAR NOW. I HAVE MY INTERNET BACK ON AT HOME, NOW I CAN BLOG AND SURF THE NET WITH NO INTERUPPTIONS. FOR ALL WHO DON'T KNOW I AM PURSUING MY MASTERS IN RESPIRATORY THERAPY AT GEORGIA STATE. YAY!! WELL I WALKED OVER THERE TO THE GYM WHICH IS THE COOLEST GYM EVER! ITS LIKE A MINI LA FITNESS..SIGNED MY WAIVER AND WILL BE STARTING THE GYM ON MONDAY IMMEDIATLY AFTER WORK. I ALSO CALLED TO SET UP AN APPOINTMENT WITH THE NUTRIONIST AT GEORGIA STATE, NO ONE HAS CALLED ME BACK YET BUT THATS OKAY I WILL KEEP TRYING. THE VISIT IS $15 DOLLARS AND THAT INCLUDES TWO FOLLOW UP VISITS. I FIGURE WITH THE KNOWLEDGE I ALREADY HAVE ABOUT EATING HEALTHY AND THE INFO THEY WILL GIVE ME. I WILL DO GOOD. IN AN EFFORT TO SAVE MONEY. I CANT GO BACK TO WEIGHT WATCHERS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT. I HAVE TO DO THIS ON MY OWN. STEP BY STEP.
ITS FUNNY HOW LIFE CAN BREAK YOU DOWN SOMETIMES. I AM CERTAIN I AM NOT IN THE BOAT BY MYSELF. BUT ITS A TERRIBLE FEELING. BUT I CAN'T QUIT NOW WHEN GOD HAS BOUGHT ME SO FAR IN THIS JOURNEY. I MISS ALL YOU GUYS! TALK TO YOU SOON! WISH ME LUCK AND HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!
HEIDI
