Ugh, UGH. UGH!
Can someone tell me when I enrolled in grad school because last time I
checked I was just an undergrad! First day of summer school and I am
taking Advanced Composition, an upper division writing course, which is sooooo a major requirement - I would never take a class like this on my own, give me math! Math makes me happy (Yes, I'm a nerd lol)! So day one of advance comp homework assignment, if you didn't already have an idea given the title of my post, read 150 pages by class tomorrow (8 AM) and write a 750 word review on what you read. Is there a smiley that roles his eyes because there are just... no words for this. So looks like no workout for me tonight... but atleast I got to ride my bike this morning which significantly elevated my heart rate and made my morning really enjoyable. Probably rode for a total of 45 minutes, which isn't as much activity as I usually do- but it's still good, and let me tell you riding around in that heat certainly forces me to get my water in! Food's been very good today- no stress eating (yea) and I'm feeling pretty positive about being good for the rest of the day. Almost home now ( writing this on my phone in the back seat of the carpool) so I better stop complaining and get down to business! Wish me luck on what will be an undeniably killer 5 weeks. May you all have a prodigious day! (Time to start pullin' out that vocab if I've got papers to write!) , @}
It starts tomorrow. That dreaded thing. The first day of school! ugh! Well actually it's only summer school which is even worse because they cram a whole quarter into 5 weeks. I'm not worried about school, I'm a pro by now, I am actually a little excited because one of the classes I'll be taking is the third session of Organic Chemistry which is the 8th and last Chemistry class I'll ever have to take, WOO FREAKIN HOO!!! What I am worried about is the chaos and unpredictability that being in school brings to my life! Lots of stress (which makes me want to eat), late nights (which makes me want to eat), Midterms (which...makes me want to eat), and the creme de la creme of stress inducement... finals (which...wait for it... makes me want to eat ;) ). Luckily, in order to park at my ridiculously overpriced university, I have to buy a parking permit which is also... you guessed it... ridiculously over priced. So it forces me to ride my bike there and back everday which is a pretty good work out!So I'm excited for that, I did want to lose a little more weight before I returned to school, but it is what it is, and I'm on the right track to be in a good place when the Fall quarter starts. I know it possible to be sucessful both acedemically and with my weight loss, just got to keep the focus!! Good luck to everyone this week! , @}
Hi all you EP'ers! So getting to the 280's was definitely a setback... but now I am in down 10.8lbs and have just entered the 260's! Yea!! Feeling really good! So it's time to reward myself... usually when I think of rewarding myself it comes in the form of cheesecake... but we're changing habits right? So this time it comes in manicure form! I thought I would share, the color is actually super hot pink but my phone didn't pick it up very well. Bright colors on my nails just make me feel happy . I also bought and put on a face mask from Lush, if you've never heard of it, you must check it out... it is my complete obsession! The stuff they make is all natural and completely amazing. I can't even believe the difference wearing one of their masks for 10 minutes makes, you must see it to believe it!
So after today I feel pampered and just a little bit lighter! There's only more to come! Here's hoping all you're weight loss endeavors are super successful!! , @}
... Good shot of the engagement ring. Wedding's in 21 months and counting (need to get out of school first)! Gotta get down!!!
Wow. wow, wow, wow, wow! I could have never imagined that it would be this bad. I stepped on the scale for the first time in many months, I tried to prepare myself for the worst possible outcome (260 I thought), I about fell over when I saw 280.2 on the scale. That is just so much, I mean really, that is almost 300 lbs. This is out of control. I've had so much stress lately that food has been my sole comfort and best friend (well with friends like these who needs enemies right?). I am disgusted with myself, I tried to tell my friend and I couldn't even say those ridiculously high numbers. The good news is I have been making changes. I haven't even had the desire to cheat because I just am sick of this place. It's starting to come off, but it always does in the beginning. Trying to stay positive, but given all my weight loss attempts I just can't help but feel like failure is inevitable. But I'll keep plugging along praying that something about this time is different.
Let's hear it for being back on that horse... again @}
Wow, I haven't posted anything on here since July, and that's about the time that I started putting the weight back on. It was only about 2lbs at a time in the beginning and then I'd take it off and put it back on, over and over again. Then in January I stopped taking it back off and it just kept piling on, I went back to school and I gained 15, we had a death in the family and another 10 came on and I just kept shoving ridiculous amounts of whatever I wanted into my mouth, it was a very slippery slope. The whole time that this was going on I was trying to prepare for my boyfriend's sister's wedding in April where I would meet all of his extended family, and it seemed the more I worried about this looming day, the more weight I put on. So finally the wedding came around and I attended it nearly 30 lbs heavier than I had been when I last saw his immediate family November, it was kind of humiliating. Of course there were thousands of pictures taken, which, thanks to the wonderful advances in photography, we were able to see right away. I looked at these and I was just like what? really? this has got to stop. But the kicker was a fight I had with my boyfriend, he has a certain vice that I am not all that fond of and I made a deal with him a long time ago that if I could contol my impulses and lose 50lbs that he would control his and quit doing this thing that I cannot stand. Well we got in to a fight about this thing and, long story short, he said that I would never lose the 50lbs, ever. (I just want to say here that the 50lbs was my idea, its something that I brought up and that I want , my boyfriend has never told me to lose weight, or suggested I need to, and always goes on and on about how he loves me the way I am, but of course, even though it's not said explicitly, I know he would be happy if I lost the weight.) So, when he said I couldn't do it I felt like someone had punched me in the stomach, I have had this love affair with the idea that I would someday lose weight since I was 12 years old, and I knew one day it would happen it was just so hard. But an interesting thing happened when he said those words, first I got upset and defensive, but then I felt motivated. No one had ever told me that I couldn't lose the weight before, I had always had support, from my family, doctors, and the people who worked for whatever weightloss establishment I was currently pouring my money into, everyone always said oh yeah you can do this, it just takes time. So, although the, "no, you can't do this." approach may have been a little hard to take, it definitely made feel like this was a war I wanted to fight again! So I threw out all the junk food I had accumulated over the last few months and went to the store to buy healthy items, I slipped in The Firm DVD that had been gathering dust and really pushed myself, and I made myself an appointment with my old consultant at Jenny Craig. So it's been about a week and a half and I have lost almost 6lbs, and I am feeling good. I did this before and I know I can do it again. I just need to rememeber my goals and I need to be held accountable. So here's to starting over, and congratulations to everyone who kept on plugging away during my absence.
To all the moms: How do you do it? I mean seriously. I baby sat my friends 3 year old on Saturday night. Um I'm just surprised I made it through unscathed. She was only here 8 hours and at the end of it I needed the hottest, longest bath of my life! We spent 2 hours at the dog park (where she ran around with the dogs the whole time) and then when we got home we walked 1 mile to the park and stayed there 45 minutes then when we walked back she said she wanted to be carried (so I had her on my back and my 80 lb dog pulling me from the front for 1 mile in 98 degree weather) then when we got home she wanted me to run around with her in the back yard (uh, yeah because she got a nice 1 mile rest and now shes raring to go again!!) Man, where do they get the energy? And where do you ladies??? I just wanted to commend all you mothers on here for working so hard to achieve your weight loss goals. The fact that you make that effort to maintain a healthy diet and schedule in an actual workout every day- I bow down to you- I am in awe. I think I should rescind any complaints made about me not having enough time to work out. The moms have motivated me! Thanks Moms! @}
Ok, so I haven't posted in a while because I wasn't exactly making the best decisions the last two weeks. I earned myself a bump up on my weight graph because of it and well I was kind of ... ashamed. There were two reasons for my gain... the first was school. It's really coming down to it now and I've been studying and doing HW from the second I get home from school until the time I go to bed at night (uhh... 4 am?) and then get up at 6 am and do homework for two more hours and go to school! So even on the days that I had time to exercise (which was uh, rare to say the least) all I wanted to do was try and sleep! Also, I've been on this diet for almost 4 months now and I just kind of wanted some junk food. oohhh.... Bad! I know! So I made my decisions and got what I got. Last week I gained half a pound, which even though that is not a lot it was the first gain i have EVER seen since starting this diet, so it was kind of shocking. But scarily not shocking enough to kick my butt back in gear. My motivation resurfaced this morning when I weighed in and had lost 2lbs (WHAT?) I mean I am not complaining but I don't know how in the world that happened! Last Friday I had chipotle and and like uhh... a bottle of champagne! So I am thrilled that I managed to pull off a loss here and I am back on track and feeling like this goal is attainable once again!
. We've all done it, gone severely off plan, it seems like it's an integral part of the dieting process. Well here's a general rule: cramming = binging. I've got a ginormous chem test tomorrow which means I'll be up all night, which means I run out of planned meal hours and start to ad lib. I don't know if I just think subconsciously that if I'm going to be up 30 hours that my body is going to burn more calories or if its because I just feel that the studying is torture enough. My boyfriend got off of work about an hour ago and he brought home a ton of food from his work ( which just happens to be my favorite restaurant in the whole world) This is a nightly ritual by the way- but I am usually strong enough to not give in. But tonight, as I was sitting there mastering Hess' Law of heat summation and calculating unknown enthalpies I was also devouring a hand full of delicious, fried goodness. Here's a list of my shameful disobedience so far: 1/2 cup fried onion strings 4 bites BBQ Beef sandwich 6 bites apple crisp Well when I go off plan I do it good I guess. Hopefully that's it for the night, I guess I just needed to get on and confess. *shame* @}
Last night was date night for me and my boyfriend. I'm working on my BS and he's in grad school so neither of us are exactly rolling in money so our dates aren't exactly extravagant but they are always fun! Last night we did something active so I got to combine both date night and work out night . There's this great bike trail near my house that runs along the river and is surrounded by wilderness. All the wildlife that lives around the trail are pretty used to people hanging around so the entire bike ride we had deer walking about 10 feet away from us. It was great and we biked 10 miles so it was a decent work out. Well after we were done we were both really hungry and he asked if we could stop at taco bell so he could pick something up (this is the only fast food place between the trail and our home and it just happens to be my favorite). So we stopped by taco bell and since we were on our bikes we had to go in. It smelled soooo good and I was just starving. But I decided that it was not worth it and that I would wait until I got home to eat my preprepared healthy dinner. But while we were there I asked for a sheet with nutrition facts and after reading it I was so glad that I had the willpower to resist eating there. I was never big on fast food but I would go occasionally to Taco Bell (or In-N-Out, best burgers on the west coast) and I would always get the grilled "stuft" beef burrito. Which is delicious but baaaaaaaad. One of these burritos has 680 calories and a whopping 30 grams of fat! That's more fat than I currently consume in an entire day. My boyfriend ate two baja beef chalupas and a bean burrito for an entire count of, get this, 1170 calories and 63 grams of fat!!! His metabolism is through the roof (freakin' men!) so he can eat whatever he wants and keep his thin as a rail figure but with these eating habits it's no wonder that I gained 30lbs during the course of our relationship! That's all for now. Everyone stay motivated! @}
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