I fail at my resolutions every year. I don't think I even made them last year. I'm over my excuses, and I'm over lugging around all this extra weight. I have goals. Great big ones and little tiny ones. I am going to reach them. So what are they?
To complete a half marathon.
To lose 100 pounds
To run a 5k without stopping
To look down and see my feet
To be able to keep up with my son
To tie my shoes/put on socks and breathe
To put on a bathing suit and not want to hang myself
To enjoy shopping
To fix my emotional attachments with food
To be active everyday
To figure out a schedule that works for me (I work nights)
To be happy
To love my self
To get me time
To see my collar bone again (only fit people have them)
To have and tummy tuck/boob job when the weight is gone
To feel good
To not be tired all the time
To be a MILF
Be a better role model for my son
How....OA, Atkins, a gym membership, and making time for myself.
I start in 5 days. I am going to my first OA meeting Sunday. I'll see if it's for me. Either way Monday morning I will plan our meals for the week and go grocery shopping. I'm going to go for a jog at the greenway with my little guy and swing by my local gym and check it out too. I am going to reach my goals.
So, I am considering going to an OA meeting Sunday. I have so many emotional attachments to food it's ridiculous. I'm not sure if I can be successful at maintaining a healthy weight if I ever get there if I don't get some help. I was able to listen to a podcast of a meeting on iTunes and could really identify with the members and there stories. It may be a good thing for me to be accountable to the program while I am on my weight loss journey. I am an emotional eater, a compulsive eater, and I hide it from my family, friends, and co workers. Ow. I've never said it before. But, I suppose I'm not hiding it very well, after all I am 100 lbs overweight. Have any of you been to a meeting? Any thoughts out there?
It has been 6 years since I have used this site, and I am 60 pounds heavier. What a huge slap in the face. I figured my account had been canceled, I'm glad it hadn't. It gave me an awesome opportunity to learn that if I could have just stuck with things my weight loss journey would probably be OVER! So, I plan on beginning again soon. Christmas is this week and saying I am going to begin now is just crazy....I would fail for sure. I want to begin a 90 day challenge next Monday, after the Christmas goodies are gone. I plan on eating low carb, cause it makes me feel so good and allows me to focus. I plan on using my Christmas money to join the gym down the street. I plan on stopping there everyday after work, even though it will cut into my sleep (I work nights). I am going to have to have a serious talk with the hubs. He is going to have to take over some homework duties. And everyone is going to have understand that in order to keep me around, I am going to have to come first for a while. I AM WORTH IT! I AM OBESE! I MUST CHANGE!!!
I don't think I have ever been more proud of myself!! I lost 5.8 pounds this week according to my WI this wednesday! That brings my total to 17 pounds!!! I just can't believe how much will power I actually have. I guess this time it was meant to happen. I am going to do something tomorrow for the first time.... I am going to walk into the locker room at work (the operating room)and try on large scrubs instead of grabbing the XL. It is kind of embarrassing because everyone at work knows my size, not because I have told them but by the color of the drawstring on my scrubs. Tomorrow I got from big fat red strings to black. Wish me luck!!! Have a great night everyone!!!
Another pound down!!! I am finally to the 20_'s!!! My goal is 199 by Nov 13, my birthday!! And for the first time in a long time I believe it can happen!! I am too excited! I can't wait to get home from work to workout now! I am such a dork sometimes! Have a great day ya'll!
So I had my WI Wednesday night and I am a little upset. I only lost 1.2 pounds. I have to get it in my head that I didn't put it on in a month and its not going to come off in a month. So I am happy that I continue shrink but WHY does it have to take so long? I just have to work hard everyday and believe in myself that I can do it. I really love to come on this site, get my frustrations out in my blog, and get inspired by all the wonderful people here to keep me pushing myself. You all inspire me! You all make me feel like I can do this! Thank You!
I am pretty proud of myself today! I stayed within my points and I worked out for 30 minutes, which is great for me! I am just getting back into this whole diet/exercise thing and it is soooo much harder than I thought it was going to be!!! We will see tomorrow if it payed off.
Getting on that scale every morning has become a ritual for me. I know I shouldn't do it. I don't even think the thing is accurate. I even moved it to another bathroom down the hall from our master and what do i do now? I get up and walk down the hall to it. I am obscessed with it!!! I know I should only weight in at WW. Does anyone have any suggestions other than throwing it out?
I'm kind of down this morning because I gained a pound. Just one little pound. Must be from that second helping of dinner last night. I ended up faling asleep with my son so I didn't get a chchance to work out. I've really got to pick it up this evening for my WI tomorrow!!
Any encouraging words out there? I need the support today
Oh the guilt is already setting in!!! I was so hungry I had two helping of dinner!!!! I can't believe I let myself do it. That was like 20 points when all was said and done. I guess I just used up all my extra point for the week. I am going to have to work out and really get back on track for my WI on wednesday!
