01/11/2010 20:59
I'm back!
After an extended absence, involving nearly a two stone weight gain (I know... it's awful... but it's where I am....) I am back!
After two months of 'last suppers' (you know, where you kid yourself that you will start the diet 'tomorrow' and so had better enjoy this one last over indulgence) plus Christmas I started 2010 feeling fat, sluggish and overwhelmingly disappointed in myself. However, I have rejoined Weight Watchers and feel very much back on the diet wagon. I feel motivated and positive.
I know I can do this. And this time I really, really will.
08/01/2009 19:35
what a difference a year makes
I have been AWOL lately. I even played truant from my WW class (although, to be fair, I had a good excuse - and have been back since). I have stopped tracking.... I have started eating more crap......
I should have been at goal by now. I am so flipping close I can smell it.... I am going on holiday on Wednesday. You would have thought the impending terror (joking!) of wearing swimwear would be enough to keep me on the straight and narrow. Oh how I wish it had. I have been 'playing' at this diet for weeks, maybe months now.... but enough is enough, hence the return to the blog!
I have been good today (so far) - I intend to keep this up. I am also going to focus on what I have achieved - rather than beat myself up for not being at goal already.
This is what I looked like last summer (I would like to think that this was an unflattering picture, but somehow I suspect it was fairly realistic)
and thankfully, this is what I look like now...
I have achieved a lot. I should be proud of myself. And I WILL get there. Eventually.... but I will!
06/30/2009 19:55
welcome back
I've been AWOL lately. Haven't done too shockingly with the weight loss (I've lost 1.5lbs two weeks running) but I think that's luck more than anything because the diet and the exercise has very much slipped. I've stopped tracking and have become generally quite complacent. And it doesn't feel particularly good. I desperately want to get back on track. Tomorrow however I am off on a school trip to France.... it's a watersports trip so should be able to get a fair bit of exercise.... but food will be out of my control.... which is often a danger zone for me. So, wish me luck - and expect me back here in 10 days or so!
06/11/2009 20:25
it doesn't matter how many times you fall off, so long as you keep getting back on...
You'd have thought that my amazing SIX pound loss would have spurred me on.... but no, instead, I had a crazy old binge last night (big bag of crisps, bread and butter and a chocolate caramel shortbread). And consequently felt guilty, disgusted with myself and sluggish. So annoyed at myself.
But anyway.... I figure the important thing is getting back on it. And that's what I've done today. So far. I have had my dinner and a nice diet pudding and even then have only had 19 points. I also went to the gym straight from school - and felt happy for going. I did my usual programme of 50 minutes cardio and some weights and felt so good afterwards - I swear I walk taller and breath deeper!
Dieting is hard. I think I will always have 'issues' with food. I wish I wouldn't, but it's inside me, I know it. Part of me can't believe I'm so close to being slim.... it's exhilarating, but also a bit scary.... I know that sounds messed up and I don't fully feel like that - but a little bit of me does.
ANYWAY.... I am very much back on track, and feel 100% better for doing so. I don't weigh-in until Tuesday so if I can stick with being ok, I hope to get a good result.
06/09/2009 20:08
woooooo hooooooooooooooooooo!
Oh my god! I lost SIX pounds!!!!!!!! I am ecstatic!
Although I have been incredibly good - both with my points and with exercise, six pounds is still an amazing result! I am thrilled to bits. Am only three pounds away from my original goal now! Watch this space...
06/08/2009 18:35
planning works!
I have had a good day. I should probably add 'so far', since it's not over yet, and I'm going out for a drink later (and we all know where alcohol leads...). But, so far, I have been very good. As I left school I had an overwhelming urge to drive to the supermarket to buy a load of rubbish to eat... but didn't. I am so proud of myself. One of the main reasons I didn't succumb to the binge was that I had planned today out. Although I am generally very organised, but stop stop of actually planning out exactly what I intend to eat each day because I like the flexibility.... but last night I wrote a whole day of food on my tracker.... and that really helped during my moment of 'shall I? shall I not?' weakness. I must plan more often!
The other reason I decided to stick to my plan was that I have been good all week.... I couldn't bear one slip-up to ruin an otherwise good week. REALLY hope I get a good result at the scales tomorrow. I will let you all know!
06/07/2009 10:47
doing good
I haven't blogged on here much lately - usually that would be an indication that I am busy scoffing my face, but this time, thankfully, I've just been getting on with it.
I weigh in on a Tuesday - the week prior to this Tuesday's weigh-in I had eaten like an absolute pig - well maybe not a pig, but like a normal person eating out every night with the odd little piggish session, so was fully expecting a big gain. Imagine my delight to find I'd actually lost half a pound. This made absolutely no sense at all (the ONLY possible explanation links to my TOTM) but is good nevertheless. Anyway, since then, I have been super duper good. I have stuck to my points, had a couple of very low days, I've eaten loads of fruit and I've been exercising. I am of course scared that last week will catch up with me at the scales this week, but if it does, it does - I'm in this for the long haul.
Other good news - I've booked a summer holiday. I'm going to Ibiza for two weeks on the 5th August. This has been HUGELY motivating - nothing like bikini season to focus the diet efforts!
06/02/2009 20:46
the wanderer returns
After falling off the wagon AGAIN, I am back on it. Thank you to those of you who gave me a gentle prod... it is greatly appreciated.
Much as I love, love, LOVE being on holiday, it does make dieting rather awkward. I had all the best intentions (as usual!) but ended up eating out pretty much every day, and then it hardly seemed worth sticking to the plan (always a mistake I make).
Had my weigh-in today and was expecting an awful result, but SOMEHOW I lost half a pound (the weight log/graph on here doesn't seem to recognise half pounds so if my graph doesn't tally with what I'm saying here ignore it!). I really have no idea how, and really, really did not deserve it - but I promise to be as good as possible this week.
I stayed for the meeting at WW because I felt I needed a bit of a kick up the arse/motivational pep talk.... and left feeling really good. I went to the supermarket on the way home and bought lots of salad items and loads of nice fruit - strawberries, blueberries, cherries, orange, pear, apples etc - it will be the key to my success this week!
