Using but Ignoring the Scale
I think the scale must just be out to get me. But I'm not going to allow it 
I decided this morning I will still use the scale every morning (if I remember, getting up before 5:30 doesn't always lead me to be the most clear thinker at that point LOL) but if I get a number that just doesn't seem right or I plain just don't like, I'm ignoring it.
I know myself well enough to know if I allow myself, especially right now when I'm just starting to get everything back in order again after life being so chaotic, to not step on the scale because I don't like the #s it's showing me, I will use that as an excuse to eat what I shouldn't eat, to not exercise 'just for today' and on and on. So I just have to muddle through until the scale decides to give me the information I'm waiting to see 
So, I'll step on it at least most mornings and go from there. But I won't allow that # to ruin my day or my outlook or my plans to get this weight off. I will happen. I've lost weight before. It's always been just this hard and it always will be at least this hard. That's the weight loss hand I've been dealt and work with it I will.
So, today I've gotten my workout in 
I'm trying to put in 45 minute cardio sessions absolutely any time I have the chance. I'm doing the 4 week makeover dvd 3 times a week and then cardio on the other days (usually Friday ends up being a day off for me because I help out in my DDs kinder class for about 2 hours). I just have to push myself as much as I possibly can and get this darn weight loss moving again!! I'm sick of feeling so dumpy and fat. I've lived this way too long and I'm ready to remember what it feels like to NOT be fat again. I've been so overweight for so long I doubt it'll even be remembering. It'll be finding it all out again as I go.
I just have to keep plugging away and it'll happen. I tend to have zero patience with weight loss. Like everyone I just want it now. I wish I could see a big difference now. I wish I could see the number on the scale I want to see now. But I'll get there. One day at a time.