I'm nothing if not inconsistent
With my blogging at least. 
At least I'm doing better with the exercise!! And it has surprised me what spurred that on more than anything. I've been doing fairly well since mid-January when things settled down somewhat with my dad and he was doing much better, but I just couldn't get back in the zone where I was consistently exercising every single week. I'd have a good week, then a bad one, then a decent week, then an iffy one. I just couldn't find my spark. It's hard for me to find a spark to exercise anyway because I don't like it. I never will like it. It doesn't make me sleep better. It doesn't make me feel better. I don't get any of those 'feel good' endorphins so many speak of after exercise. I'm just freaking glad its OVER. I do it because I know it is the only way I can ever hope to continue to lose weight. Period. I will always dislike it, but I do it because I have to.
A month or so ago I got a free issue of Fitness magazine in the mail. One of those "introductory" issues you know. I flipped through it and really liked it. I've been trying to read Oxygen and Self but they just don't reach me. I love Oxygen and everything they have to say in theory, but there's no way I can ever get to a gym (distance and cost) so much of it just doesn't apply to me. Fitness seemed more geared to the average person who wants to learn more about nutrition and exercising but doesn't have a load of cash to drop on a gym membership and only has time for simple, yet results attaining, workouts. The price was reasonable, so I subscribed.
Last week I got my first issue and inside the package was a free workout DVD. So I'm thinking, sure, a freebie workout dvd, it's gotta be lame. But, I need a spark, remember. So I shove it in the dvd player on my computer (I do all my dvd workouts using my computer because the family room has more room for me to move and we don't have a TV in here 
The dvd claims if you follow the exercises for 4 weeks you'll have noticable results. I always take those claims with a grain of salt. If I were smaller I might buy into them more, but at my size it takes a lot to achieve a noticable difference in my body. But I follow along with the workout nonetheless. It's a circuit style workout. All that is needed is a set of 3 lb and 5 lb dumbbells. I have those. Whoo!! Each exercise is done 3 times with a very, very short resting between each set. Each set something is changed just a touch in the exercise to make it more challenging. As I'm doing the workout I'm thinking to myself "this isn't going to work, it's not that hard I'll never get results from something like this" I certainly broke a sweat and a few of the moves I was thinking, geez that's tough, but overall I just couldn't see how this could be a 4 week makeover as the title claimed.
And then.....I woke up the next morning and oh, my, gosh, YEOWCH!!! My legs hurt, I felt it in my stomach, I felt it in my shoulders, every move I made I could think back to the workout from the day before and think, yep, that's from XYZ exercise. I mean I have done weight lifting in a gym before, I was trained by a woman who was in the Army. She was hard core and worked me hard. But even with all we did back in the day, I never, ever felt shoulder exercises. Ever. And with this...I did!!
It may sound silly but having my legs ache every time I tried to sit down or get up from a seated position, having my stomach muscles ache when I moved certain ways or coughed, feeling muscles in the front and back of my shoulders that I've never felt before was really motivating for me!! So I've decided I will definitely do that workout at least 3 times a week as suggested and we'll see if I have noticable differences in 4 weeks 
I hope I do. I'm not counting on that being my reward. I know if I keep up with it for 4 weeks, even if I can't really SEE the differences in my body I will be able to FEEL them. I wasn't nearly as sore after doing it yesterday. I still feel it in my legs the most and in other areas some, so it's doing it's job. I just have to do mine and stick with it. And get cardio in on the days I'm not doing the 4 week makeover workout. And so far I'm doing well with that :)