Hunger, The Scale, The Weekend

Hello Blogging Friends,

I am sitting here wondering what hunger really feels like.  I am the first one to think to myself "I'm hungry" if I see a commercial on television with some fat ladened food.  All the time knowing that I'm not hungry.  I think I look at that food and want it only to make myself feel better.  It's almost like a high.  Food = Reward.  What a horrible way to think of food.  My former nutritionist told me to think of food  as a fuel when the stomach is nearing empty.  Hmmm, I can only recall my stomach truly being empty when I had to go through 24 hrs. of liquids before a colonoscopy.  I know the fasting was 100 times worse than the actual colonoscopy.  So how do you relearn your whole way of thinking about food on your own?  I'm doing it now but why does it have to be so hard?

I have been a blogger here since July 4th and I haven't weighed myself.  I think I am scared to see the number.  I have a history of quitting diets if the number isn't right.  In my mind when you are my size, losing 1 lb is like losing nothing.  But I have promised myself to step on that scale tomorrow morning and accept it and report it to this forum.  In other words suck it up and get that number.

The weekend was good.  Hubby worked all weekend so I had some "me" time.  I went shopping on Saturday for healthy foods and some shoes.  Sunday I went to church services and came home to Zack (my dog) and watched some movies.  It's been so hot in Maryland that taking a walk was out of the question.

I thank you for visiting my blog.  I have learned so much from you all.  You all keep me strong and focussed.

With a wink and a smile,

~J