10/27/2007 12:13
quarter pounder
I went to WI today and came back with a 0.2 gain from last week. I'm not totally shocked, given that I had a few bad days of eating early last week and I'm very happy that the gain wasn't more.... of course, I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't slightly disappointed as I did to my best to eat appropriately and exercise the latter half of the week. Ah well, this is a new week and I get to move on from here. The good news is that I no longer have any junk in my house. As long as I don't buy any, I should be good!
Challenge for the week is more work travel coming up. I'll be going to upstate NY from Tuesday through Thursday, and I'm determined to post a loss this week. I really only have to deal with two dinners out, three lunches, and 2 breakfasts. I plan to bring cereal along. I am going to bring fruit and snacks (since I'll be there over Halloween I don't want to be tempted by the candy...).
Have a lovely weekend EPers!
10/26/2007 12:23
dating on a diet: deconstructed
the scoop:
My friend was in the same all-day meeting with him yesterday (Thursday) and during a break alerted me to the fact that he was there in my building. She was really pushing for me to at least go in and talk to him, so I spent about half an hour at work NOT working but thinking about if I should or shouldn't. I really actually wanted him to come and find me, but then started feeling bad for him... as in if he really *is* a shy guy, as I've been told, he might find it incredibly hard to ask someone where I sit. Especially since they wouldn't know why he wanted to talk to me.
Plus I was pretty sure I'd be pissed at myself later for not doing anything. So during lunch, I went into the meeting and walked up to him. He continued staring down at the desk, even as I was hovering over him. :P So I say, "boo," and he looks up and smiles and say, "Hey!" LOL. So we're talking and to me it feels awkward, so finally I say I'm going to go heat up my lunch (they had catered in). He then says, "So, you sit in this building then?" and I'm thinking... wow you waited until the VERY end of the conversation to ask that? So I say, "Yup, come find me after your meeting is done if you want." Why else would he have asked that question? I had made up my mind at that point that he ought to be the one to suggest to do something if anything were to happen...
So then around 4:30 he comes by and I'm in a lab with 2 other people, so again, not really getting 1-on-1 time here. Finally we walk down the hall to the office of my co-worker (the one who gave me K's email address), who is not in and we stand there looking at his books in his office. Again, finding it hard to make conversation and not wanting to ask, but it's becoming very clear to me that UNLESS I say something, he's not going to say anything. I start convincing myself that he wouldn't still be lingering around if he didn't want to do something, so I decide to ask him.
So from somewhere I get up the nerve to say, "Well, I've probably got to stick around here a little longer, but if you want to grab dinner later, or do something else, I'm free." And he quickly agreed. So that was that.
I got his number and picked him up after work. We went out to New Mexican. The conversation was OK, but I felt as though I had to keep thinking of things to talk about. I would offer up a story and then he would say something about something similar that had happened to him (like airport drama or being pulled over etc). I just don't think he'd ever contact me again though unless I do something first, which is an annoying position to be in. The night ended very platonically with me dropping him off at his hotel.
The end. (As I said, not super exciting.)
10/26/2007 00:34
dating on a diet
It is hard to do! I ended up meeting up with the guy after all and we went out to dinner for new mexican. I did not overeat, for once. I ordered the steak fajitas, had 2 small tortillas, beans, a little guacamole, a sopapilla (yea...), and NO chips. I wanted to get a margarita. But did not. So while not the most healthy of dinners possible, it was pretty decent for a night out. Guess what that means though? This is a definite win for me on the food front! Whoohoo! Maybe I was too nervous to feel hungry.
The conversation was just OK. It did feel a bit forced at times, but it wasn't terrible, just a little awkward. But I don't know that this is going anywhere. I know that if I write to him now it might turn into just disappointment. Because yeah, I find him attractive, but it'd have to go deeper than that to be pursuable. I'll write out the whole story tomorrow about how it went down (I ended up seeing him at work today), but suffice to say that it wasn't great and it wasn't awful.
Oh yeah - and I played DDR for another 300 calories burned after I got home today. I have DDR for the PS2, but you can also get it for the XBOX if you have that instead. I have heard you can connect it directly to a TV or even your computer, but I've never seen that in person so I'm not sure how good it is...
10/25/2007 11:26
You are awesome!
Yes, YOU. Reading this right now.
Know what I realized today? You guys are soooo awesome! Of course I didn't just realize it, but I felt it all over again. The love, I mean. Everytime I'm in a funk, you guys are always there with awesome words of wisdom, kindness, and support. Thank you!!
I have also been reminded of some other things from your comments. If instead I choose to wallow, it usually just gets worse. I realize we have many of the same struggles, on the weight front and otherwise. I realize that I find it harder to forgive myself for mistakes than for me to forgive others. And I know that I must treat myself well - at least as well as I treat others. ...which means I'm letting go of what happened in the past.
Yesterday, for those who were wondering, went actually really well on the eating front. Unfortunately I don't think that it was enough to make up for the day before, but maybe, just maybe, two more days of good eating will counteract some of the badness. =) I will hope!
Sending you all warm thoughts for a happy Thursday!
10/24/2007 21:10
sitting here a little glum
The day has gone pretty well on the food front. I have not overeaten (and I have not been hungry much, big surprise there). But honestly it was a crappy day at work. Nothing was working and I was mostly working alone which I don't prefer. I ate lunch by myself. The dude did not try to contact me. Now I sit on my couch prepared to watch the Biggest Loser (which I tivo'd yesterday).
My weigh ins are now on Saturdays - I know it's hard to keep track of! So i'm on the same day as you Andrea, except since I'm MST, it'll be a little later in the day before I post.
I think what's getting me down today is that I just don't think that I can bear having my weigh in go badly on Saturday. By badly, I mean having gained weight. I know that it's only up to me to decide what is going to happen, and I feel as though I've blown it. I know that is NOT true and I know I must move on from here, it's just that sometimes I feel like I've failed. And I KNOW that's not true... in my head.
Well, just to stay on track this evening, I am going to watch the show, perhaps call a friend, and eat an apple if I feel hungry. And that will be it.
I hope everyone in EP land is feeling strong and positive ... and hopefully my positivity will be back with the next post too!
10/24/2007 10:43
so about that plan...
Yesterday went poorly. I got stuck in an all day meeting in which I did not get to eat lunch because I had to give a presentation through lunch while everyone else ate. And of course, what happened? I overate at night. It's classic and I should recognize it by now, but you know what, just gotta keep at it! So today is a new day.
I have already started the day off well with 300-cals burned from DDR (according to it, but who really knows). For those who are curious, that takes me about 45 minutes of playing. It's fun, so that is why it's a good exercise for me. I am REALLY planning on following today to the T. =)
I'm not sure how this week's weigh in is going to go, but I can do my best from now until then to keep things going in the right direction. Wish me luck!! please!
10/23/2007 09:50
to the T
That's how I'll be following the plan today. (And tomorrow. And Thurday and Friday.) Why? Because I didn't yesterday - skipped a few things throughout the day - consumed 1/2 my daily calories after dinner. But. I did do some good things yesterday too. For example, I went to the gym and did elliptical for 1/2 hour followed by a 1 hour yoga class. Those things are good for me. And the fact that my tummy is a wee bit hungry right now I see as a good sign also. Not super hungry, but not oh-man-I-binged-last-night-can't-stomach-the-idea-of-putting-more-food-in-it either. And that is a good thing in my book!
However... this is not an excuse to go lax. I would really like a good weigh in this weekend, so today is back to doing things to the letter. Wish me positive thoughts! I have a big presentation at work today too.
10/21/2007 20:13
weekend in review and guy update
He finally emailed me back when I figured there was no chance he would. However, before you get excited, I have to say it wasn't great. Basically, he sounded less than thrilled about meeting up - although he agreed to meeting, he seemed pretty passive about it in general. Which leaves me in a predicament, because I don't really want anyone to have a cruddy time, myself included. His explanation for the slow reply was that he's "bad with email". I don't even feel much like writing back at this point. Maybe I'll change my mind, we'll see.
This weekend has been a lot of fun. Watching world class soccer is such a treat! I also got out yesterday for a 14-mile bike ride along the Rio Grande (not so grande (more like a stream) around here really, but still pretty, and gorgeous weather). Then I did also go out for Vietnamese food last night, so probably got a few more calories than is on "plan", but still I made some good choices - got the grilled shrimp and did not binge. I am happy with my choices.
I also watched Guess Who's Coming to Dinner? - the old one from 1967 with Sidney Poitnier and Katharine Hephburn. It was pretty classic... I really enjoyed it. I haven't seen an old movie in a long time. When I came home, I was a touch hungry, but it was late and I had an apple instead of an ice cream. Go me!
10/20/2007 13:15
posting new WI
Yes, it looks like I've gone up, but really, I'm celebrating because I have had a very positive week overall. I ended up posting my weigh in from my home scale, because then I don't have to deal with clothes and trying not to eat until my weigh in, etc. However, I also weighed in with my new consultant, Jean, and lost 2.8 this week according to their scales. I'm sure much of that was retained sodium, but I'll take it! (I know though that I won't be expecting that every week... usually I average 1-1.5 lbs per week if I'm on track...)
What else? I went to the library and borrowed Jillian Michaels' book, Making the Cut, which is her book to drop the last 20 or fewer pounds. I'll let you guys know what I think of it after I've browsed more of it. For those who don't recognize the name, she's one of the 3 trainers on The Biggest Loser TV show.
No reply from the guy I emailed. I'm assuming that means he wasn't interested, which is a little disappointing, but not a huge deal. Not like I had invested a whole lot of time in him. One of my friends told me that he weeded himself out for me so I didn't have to do it later. LOL. How's that for putting a positive spin on things!
10/19/2007 09:43
weekend round the corner
my official weigh in is tomorrow and i am actually going back into center for it, although i really hate doing that so i might just do my official official weigh in at home and not look at the scale there. since i didn't look at the scale the last time i was there, i don't see how it will matter much. maybe i can just get the delta. and i will update my weight graph. it's about time.
this weekend i'm going to a soccer game and I'm SUPER DUPER excited for it. it's between the US Women's National team and Mexico. for once living in Albuquerque has its benefits! that's tomorrow. on Sunday I'm having tea with one of my friends and her mum who will be in town visiting. Other than that, no big plans. it should be a good weekend though.
take care and have a wonderful weekend to all my EP friends.
