Week 1 - forgot to weigh

Good start ... not. I forgot to weigh in this morning. I did have a peek on Saturday and I think I've lost almost a kg. But I had a bad case of insomnia this morning so clearly forgot about weighing in, will have to do it tomorrow morning instead.

Watch this space, it's a coming!!!

Also thinking about registering to go on the biggest loser in their next season. Man, that would get my ass moving, might be the discipline and push that's good for me. I see them working out and think "Far out, I'd have a heart attack" but I guess you'd adjust pretty quickly.

OK ........ Starting Over!!!!

I had a terrible terrible reality check on the weekend. I brought some electronic scales and literally had to come face to face with a number that scared the effing pants off me. I have never ever been so heavy.

I am not liking myself too much at the moment and I understand it's all up to me.

My husband and I started exercising Saturday night - we went for a 30 minute walk. We went again Sunday night too. (In Australia we are a day ahead of you) so my entries are actually a day later than the date says.

He is going to push me, last night I was a bit hesitant (just lazy actually) but he insisted I wanted him to make me go, and he was right. I did enjoy it. To a certain point. I enjoy it when I'm doing it - it's just the motivation to get off my ass and do it.

The biggest loser gives me motivation when I see how much they are losing but at the same time it does dishearten because they lose so much at once.

I just need to get my head into the right place of knowing and accepting that it is a slow process.

GO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and thank you for your comments, I really appreciate the encouragement.

Been hiding

Yes I admit, I've avoided this site, I haven't been here in 2 months, I am so ashamed, I tried the milkshake thing but 2 weeks of that was enough for me, it was gross. The shakes tasted great to start with but after 2 weeks .... blah, I was over it.

I just LOVE food, my downfall ... I LOVE food and HATE exercise. But it's time I slapped the shit out of myself and got my ass into gear. Stop hiding behind food, get out there and lose weight.

We want children, desperately want children, but it's not going to happen if I don't lose weight.

So I am back to give it another go, try again, I have so much to lose but I need to get my head around small goals, not look at the big picture.

I want the weight to come overnight but it didn't go on overnight, I know it's a slow process but can't get my head around that, especially when I watch shows like the biggest loser and they lose such big amounts of weight at once ... bit disheartening, but I need to get some focus. Tomorrow is going to be a brand new day, I am going to start fresh and move my scales down instead of up. GO ME!!!!!!!

Not so bad

Well I didn't lose any weight, but I also didn't gain any. Makes me feel sooooo much better about myself than I did last night.

So now I go again, all fresh. All inspired and motivated.

Instead of shakes for breakfast and lunch, I've decided I will just have them for breakfast and then have a meal for lunch otherwise I will loose way too much interest. As long as it's healthy I guess, cut out eating junk food and I should see the difference, at least feel the difference.

Have a great day :-)

Two steps forward, one step back

Oh my goodness, I have so let myself down. This week I have been all over the place, really really struggled. I spent more time comfort eating than I did breathing I think. I am so disappointed in myself, tomorrow has to be D day ... to start afresh ... can't believe I failed in week 2. Given we only had 4 nights without visitors and eating out etc, so this week, I really have to be strong, make a conscious effort to visit here daily for inspiration, read your success stories and motivate myself. Also, really gotta start exercising this week too. Haven't done any ... want to research the cost of ecleptic (sp?) trainer, got my bike inside and need to start walking. Not ready for joining a gym and showing my fat ass sweating in public yet.

Dreading tomorrow mornings weigh in, but gotta face it and post it - I know it will be a instead of a - but gotta face it.

Week one

So so happy with week one's results. A loss of 4kg for the week. Not extremely happy with my eating pattern though. I found the weekend the hardest, during the week I am busy at work so it's no problem, but the weekend was the hardest. With Australia Day festivites, family lunches and days out, I did eat a few of the wrong things, but I did also say to myself I didn't want to make myself go without as that is when I would gorge ridiculously. If I allow myself moderation, I can do this, I can adjust my lifestyle to eating in moderation thatn over indulging like I have ALWAYS done.

 it's all just the start of the journey - a long long road for me.