GULP !!!!! I had chocolate

LOL .. I did. I had a snickers bar yesterday afternoon and it really wasn't as good as I'd convinced myself it was going to be.

I was craving something sweet and knew what it was all day, by late afternoon I waltzed down to the vending machine and had it.

All along I have said I wasn't going to deny myself these things, because when I do... that's when I over indulge and go off the rails ... slo and steady is the way.

Anyway it really wasn't great so not in a hurry for another, but this morning I got my period, a week early mind you but now I understand why I was craving it so bad, and maybe why my weight loss wasn't as great as I had anticipated.

Look out scales next week ... LOL ... I am going to BLITZ YOU!!!!!

It's a loss nonetheless

I weighed this morning, and have lost another 700gm. I did weigh yesterday and it said I'd lost 1kg, but I went to the movies with a girlfriend yesterday and we ate heaps, and I ate all afternoon. So no doubt I was sure to put a little of it back on, but I'll keep at it.

 I couldn't sleep last night ... I layed in bed thinking about clothes and what I have in my wardrobe that will fit me properly and what doesn't fit me that will fit me one of these days because I am definetly going to keep at this.

I ate alot of bread and carbs last week that I need to cut out this week and carbs and me just don't agree - especially bread ... it hangs in my stomach like a brick!!

Week 3, here I come!!

and thankyou all for your encouraging, supportive notes. I really appreciate it.

Positivity

I am really proud of my strength this week ... actually right from the moment I decided to alter my eating habits.

I am not restricting myself from having anything, but I really haven't been tempted. Twice we've had cake/cheesecake at work, chocolates and muffins and I've happily declined them all.
It's so unlike me. I am so happy with myself. Let's hope Monday weigh in proves it.

Do you have alot of weight to lose?

Is there many people out there with lots and lots of weight to lose?

I need to lose at least 70kg .. so like 140 lb.

Only thing is, when I see other peoples blogs ... there doesn't seem to be anyone that needs to lose this much. Am I in a league of my own here???

Self Pride

I am so proud of myself right now. I know it's only early, but I am being strong.

Little things can really make a difference to my outlook, eg, at work for everyone's birthday, the company buys a cake and everyone shares it for morning tea to celebrate that persons birthday. Well today they had white chocolate mudcake, looked and smelled great, but I was wise and went into the tea room before everyone else and made myself 3 crispbreads with cheese and tomato on so that when they all came in for cake I was already eating and didn't need/want cake. Of course there was still room for it, but I wasn't swayed at all, I said No thankyou and am really pleased that I didn't have any.

Guess this kind of attitude is a good sign, I just need to keep it up!

Lunch today will be a bread roll with chicken cheese and avocado ... mmmmm.

I am also limiting my diet coke to one or two cans a day maximum. Impress much? Hell yeah!!!

Day 8

Another post for today, but I am really proud of myself.

Today I have had 2 mandarins, 1 orange, a muesli bar and a bowl of ohno-kwakswe (Burmese Dish my mother in law makes). There is not only a vending machine and a cupboard full of biscuits and chips anyone can eat but one of the guys is selling chocolates as a  fundraiser, everyone but me has been scoffing into them except me ... and I'm not even interested ... that is a HUGE step for me!!!

*squeals* YAY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

First loss for a fresh start

I weighed in this morning, and was really pleased with a loss of 2.3kg. I did what Rach suggested and not cut everything out, but just slowly let my body adjust. It really was logical thinking, generally I go like a bull at a gate and cut out everything ... then within a week or two at the most I am eating all the wrong things. This makes perfect sense, slowly cut things out. I've also decided not to deprive myself of anything, if I feel like something in particular, then I will have it ... in moderation rather than not allow myself and then stupidly gorge.

Well it is a start and tonight we are going to start some exercise in moderation, just to build up.

I pulled a muscle in my back last week ... sitting at my desk and my weight really don't help it. First time I've ever had a sore back so I really need to do this.

But the biggest goal is babies, we aren't going to be able to have them naturally if I don't lose weight, and then IVF aren't going to want to touch me either unless I lose weight also.

Here we go!!

How many starts??

How many times do I have to start this?

I just keep piling on the weight, today I am starting again. yes I know ... again.

How many times can I let myself down. I want to have children but at my weight it just isn't humanly possible. I horrify myself everytime I look in the mirror, hardly anything is fitting me and not like I can buy any bigger other than on ebay. What am I doing to myself?

I've started eating better today, I figure if I chang eit from being on a diet to eating more healthily, I'll try and trick myself. I just love good tasting food, I love any food really. I am a disappointment to myself.

Maybe a food log ... do they really help?

Drinking water with low joule cordial in it to make sure I drink more that way than soft drink.

Come on girl, sort yourself out!!

First loss

I lost but not much (0.8kg) - but then I haven't been strict and undertaken only 2 30mins of exercise in the week. This week won't be much better as I have house guests but next week, I'll be on the treadmill and all ... Go me. A loss is still a loss.

Week 1 - forgot to weigh

Good start ... not. I forgot to weigh in this morning. I did have a peek on Saturday and I think I've lost almost a kg. But I had a bad case of insomnia this morning so clearly forgot about weighing in, will have to do it tomorrow morning instead.

Watch this space, it's a coming!!!

Also thinking about registering to go on the biggest loser in their next season. Man, that would get my ass moving, might be the discipline and push that's good for me. I see them working out and think "Far out, I'd have a heart attack" but I guess you'd adjust pretty quickly.