Thanks for everyone whos been following my blog and commenting on my posts, and I'm sorry to anyone I havn't replied to! It doesn't mean I don't love you LOL I'm just busy gettin my weight loss on... I mean off? Lol
I just read past Day 8 in Beck's book: Create Time and Energy.
I've been to a behaviorist before (aka cognitive therapist) for my anxiety disorder, and we've done this very same exercise with the schedule and priority charts. The thing is, once I got my charts down, I never looked at them again. I never used them.
College is not like real life. Your classes are spread out all over the place no matter how early you wake up on registration day to get a decent schedule. Then, to make it worse, there are labs for science and math based courses (I was a psychology minor) and studio classes for my art and graphic design courses. When you are an art major, there are also a lot of field trips to museums and exhibits. Every day and week is unique.
I agree that you have to make time for diet and exercise, but I don't think this particular scheduling technique will work for certain lifestyles.
I do think the priority chart is good. There is also a priority system using numbering if you want to get more specific. Write down all the things you want/need to do in the beginning of the day, or night before, and number them from which ones are most important to the least important. Then, do the top numbers first to get them out of the way. You can probably search for more techniques online. These arn't the only ones.
In other news, the scale went down a bit today. Maybe I AM retaining water. I'm gonna keep chugging to get this out of my system. I looked over my Calorie Tracker and noticed I was on the high end of my carb range (carbs can cause weight retension much more than sodium intake... not a lot of people know that). So my goal today is to keep my carbs at bay and get in more veggies, in addition to reading that 10 glasses of water mark.
I was so excited to get my w1d2 c25k in today... last night the forcast was high of 60! But when I woke up this morning it was cold and cloudy. HIgh of 47. UGH. What a crappy forcast! Times like these I wish I belonged to a gym or had a treadmil so I could run inside without the nasy weather. I will have to bundle up a little and head out mid-day when the temperature is at its highest. I'm still looking for a walk/run event... around the philadelphia or wilmington area... durring the summer, so I have something to train for. Any ideas?
The bad news is that I'm gaining! WTF?! I know I havn't been perfect, but I wouldn't think that its enough to make the scale go up 5 lbs! I'll have to do something about this...
The good news is that I jogged yesterday! I normally just walk and LISTEN to the c25k while I'm walking... but I went ahead and did it for real yesterday! When I started the jog I was like oh snap! becasue my joints were killin me-- but the interval was only 60 seconds, so before I knew it, I was walking again and fine. Let me tell you, though... excuse my french and all... but the worst part about jogging again was not the joint pain... my boobs were KILLIN me. I'm not even that big! I need to invest in some good athletic sportswear or sumthing! Damn! Anyway, today will be a rest day because I'm worried about my knees and such. I took a anti-inflamatory last night and this morning I don't feel pain, just a little stiff. I may have to start icing my ankles and knees again.
Week 2 of c25k and I'm still walking it. I don't want to hurt myself, and I usually feel pain in my joins near the end of my workout. Even though I didn't have joint pain today, I did have some cramping in my right shoulder. Of course, I just walked it off. I don't want to discourage myself that I'm not jogging yet. Just getting out there in the fresh air and moving my body is rewarding enough. When I'm ready to jog, I will jog... and I will listen to the signs from my body.
I've listened to two c25k podcasts. One is "First Day to 5K" by Podrunner/DJ Steveboy. The other is "Couch to 5K" by Robert Ullrey. You can download them free from itunes or just visit those links for more into. (I perfer Robert's mix much better.) If anyone knows where I can get more podcasts for interval running please let me know. :-)
About food... I havn't been perfect. Actually, I've had some "bad" days as well. But that's okay because I'm still truggin along. I've come so far and a bad day or two isn't going to make me gain 50 pounds back. I'm determined to have a "perfect" day today!
I have more to say but needa go... I'll update later!
I had a really wonderful experience today. I went shopping with a friend at Target. I was feeling really overwhelmed for some reason. I didn't know what size I was and which brands to go for, because I'm fitting in a normal XL size.
All of a sudden I got really emotional, I really don't know what hit me, well, I DO know what hit me... I could just go up to any clothing rack I wanted and try on something, and it would fit! I started crying in the store I was so happy, and I was a bit embarrassed, but I was really happy I could get any clothes that I thought looked cute. I don't have to limit myself to the small WOMENS area, which normally has very few trendy things. It was great! I still feel a bit emotional just thinking about it lol
Now I have some new spring clothes, and I will try to post some pics soon! :-)
Did I mention yet that I'm on maintenance now? Meaning, no more liquid diet, I'm on solid foods? Ok, I forget sometimes what I mention. Just to clarify and all. Maybe I'll jot down my meals once in a while, although my Food Journal is pretty intensive. I don't think I need to jot it down here as well, but here is the basic idea:
My new mini goal is to lose 5lbs in 9 weeks (about half pound a week) and to establish a fitness routine in my life. I'll do this my going to Maintenance meetings at Jefferson Hospital at least every other week, and following the c25k program. My goal calories is 1500, goal fat 42-58, goal carbs 150-190, and goal protein at least 58.
Ok I hope this clarifies some things! LOL! This is pretty big news, too, so I'm surprised I havn't mentioned it yet! Anyways, gnite!
I was on the LD forum the other day, and someone called me confident.
*pause* Looks around*
Who?... What?... Me?!
LOL! Maybe I do come across thay way, or maybe I'm turning into the person I've always wished I'd be! (That would be kickass!)
In reality, most of the time I'm not confident at all. I feel vulnerable and stressed while trying to lose weight. I wonder if I'm making the right decisions, or if I'm kidding myself. Are people judging me? I get overly sensitive, ETC ETC. I come online for support and end up totally psyching myself up. I get all like YEA I CAN DO THIS... and YEA YOU CAN DO THIS TOO! WOOT! Because I feel like what I REALLY need is a cheerleader.
It's like how you feel right before a sporting event like the superbowl or something... you gotta get all excited about your team before the big game, and when it comes, you act like a total CRAZY person like cheering and shouting and jumping around... pouring ice buckets on the coaches head just makes it all the more fun! That's like me! I'm a total crazy person who needs to get all excited about weight loss stuff in order to keep going.
I guess after a while it just sticks. Hopefully I will start to really believe in myself when I give myself a pep talk. For now, I'm just being silly and cheering myself up, but yea... maybe I AM just a little more confident than before. And thats a good thing. GO ME! :-)
Last night I was feeling like total crap. I was swaying from my plan, and I knew I had to get remotivated.
Well, today was the first day starting The Fitness Challege with my DBF, and I chose to do the Couch to 5K program. I feel GREAT! And I'm starting to sound like an infomercial! LOL!
Today I got up an hour early, ate breakfast, workedout, and everythiing! I feel like this is such a great start to my day AND week. Even though I didn't do an official week 1 on c25k, I did WALK and I think I will do a week of walking before I actually start jogging. It was harder than I thought, but it will get better!
I texted Sean this morning like: I did my first workout! Booyah! LOL! I'll be really busy tonight and tomorow I hope I can post and tell everyone that I'm keepin at it!
I updated my pics once again. I was just doing some spring cleaning in my inbox today and came across this picture of me from exactly one year ago. I think when I put these two pictures back to back, you can really see the excess amount of fat I had on my face and neck area. No more double chin for me! I'm trying to stay motivated, and I think these two pics really help!
"Once I continually remind myself of all the reasons I want to lose weight, dieting will be easier." - Judith S. Beck, Ph.D. excerpt from The Beck Diet Solution
I finished by Advantages Responce Cards (I made two because I have so many reasons). I typed them out in color and they are neat and pretty. I also put little post-it reminders on my desk, in my food jounral, and on my scale because I use them everyday. I'll read my cards in the morning before I start my day, at night after dinner when I'm most temped to overeat, and when I feel down or lonely.
I’ll be a positive influence on Sean & others.
I want to go shopping with my friends at the same store.
So I can run again.
So I can focus more on life rather than weight issues.
Because I sweat just getting ready in the morning, then I get depressed and won’t leave the house.
Self confidence.
To overcome an obstacle, like I’ve really done something worthwhile, and I can do anything I set my mind to.
Because I don’t want to hide from my friends & family anymore.
To keep up with my family for the “death march”
So I can cross my legs.
Because my thighs rub together & make holes in my jeans.
So I can wear skirts and dresses with out pantyhose burn!
To have a normal bath towel fit around me.
So I can enjoy shopping for clothes.
To keep me from stereotypes that may bring me down in the workplace.
To feel my age.
Because I hate pulling and adjusting my clothes all the time.
No more double chins or pregnant tummy.
To take the pressure off my joints.
So I don’t feel like everyone is looking at me struggling, eating,
or sweating.
So people are looking at me because I look great.
So I can wear knee high boots over my calves.
To live longer.
In other news, I discovered the couch to 5k this week. I downloaded the podcast, and I would really love to jog 3 miles once again! I did it once, I can do it again! The only problem is all the snow storms we have been getting on the east coast. I know I will never stick to a program if the weather is gross out. Which happens often in Jersey. We don't have 4 seasons, we have winter (snow and cold) spring (rain and more rain) and summer (hot and HUMID). So yea, there is hardly ever a time where the weather is actually nice for an extended period of time.
Bottom line is, I was thinking about joining this gym on the other side of town. They have both short and long term plans, plus a student discount. (I'd have to pay to use the school gym because I'm not full time, but the gym doesn't know how many classes I take, and I have a school ID). They have a track AND treadmil. I really should use the treadmil cuz of my legs (lower impact). I hardly have any money, but my health is the most important thing to me, and it's worth it. I just have to get my money's worth by going as often as possible! LOL!
